The Red Lingerie

I carried a grudge as I watched Trevor walk away. I don't know and I don't have any clue why he got angry with me and seems to want to avoid me.

It's not enough to push and push me like he was right next to me. I don't know what the problem is. Sometimes I think about the house or myself the weight he carries but when I witnessed him avoiding me. I'm sure... I'm the problem.

It was like a hard punch on my chest... Trevor was the only friend I thought would last with me. It's like the little bit of hope in my chest is slowly burning as I think about what happened earlier. At home... I have no one to talk to... No one smiles... No one makes me laugh.

And when Trevor came... I thought our friendship would last forever or maybe we could even upgrade it to the highest level of relationship because I admit... I became so interested in him.

I became so transparent and happy with him. Sometimes I just catch myself smiling... laughing... crying while laughing. But every time I'm with him or talk to him... All the sadness in my chest disappears. I forget who I am.

And when I thought that we would be fine and that we would last... That was my mistake that should have been from the beginning, I stopped. Because... who else will stay by my side? Who will be patient and think about how I will feel if they leave me? Nothing, right? I should be immune to this set up. No matter what... nothing will last... no one will accept my person.

Who can I blame? No one but myself. I took this road so I should just be content.

I woke up from my deep thoughts when I spotted Cedrick's car. I knew it just by its color... Especially when I saw the license plate. He stopped in front of me so I opened the door. He just looked at me and returned to the road.

I went up and sat on the shutgon seat. I clasped the seatbelt and leaned back to the back rest. No one spoke to us during the trip... Except when I remembered something. I looked at Cedrick first before speaking and sighed.

"Uh..." I mumbled and he immediately looked at me. He knows when I have something to say. "Can we go to the mall first? I'm just going to buy a shirt that we need for the sportsfest the next day." I will explain so that he does not tell where I am taking his money.

He nodded at me so I breathed a sigh of relief, he didn't care about me now, ah? I just hope he's not hot-headed like he often does. During the trip, I didn't speak, I just waited for him to stop in the parking lot on the side of the mall.

We got off together and walked into the mall. I looked at Cedrick and his left hand was in his pocket while his right hand was holding the car keys. Her hair was still blowing with the wind as well as her polo shirt. And in the midst of staring at him... I could really tell and I can't deny the fact that he is freaking hot!

"What are you going to buy again?" I almost jumped in shock when Cedrick spoke.

I shook my head and glanced at the opening of the mall. "Um, shirt. Purple shirt to be exact. I don't have that color." I answered him.

"Yeah? I know a store. Come," Cedrick said and almost touched my wrist but I avoided him. He looked at me but I didn't let our eyes meet. Why did he want to hold me? I don't want to get the wrong reason behind it that is why I chose not to be that touchy to him.

Yes, we were touchy as hell. We already passed the doings of husband and wife because of sex but that was just only sex. I don't want to have a romantic thing with him.

I will try to distance myself and avoid things that I know will cause me to fall for him. Despite his beautiful appearance, despite his perfection. I will force myself not to get caught in that trap. Even though I know all the goodness he shows me.... It's only temporary.

I did not stop following him and continued walking behind him. I noticed that Cedrick was walking faster than before because now I had to run just to keep up with him. I looked at his steps and went slowly. It is very tall and has long legs. So it's no wonder why the pet that it hides under his pants is so long.

I saw him stop to look for me, but when our eyes met and he made sure I was still following him... He walked straight and left me again. He first entered a clothing store. I even watched how he pushed the glass door of the clothing department effortlessly. He was so cool to watch.

I am currently looking for a shirt. There were lots of purple shirts but I got confused with the designs. Everything is so beautiful and it seems like it's hard to shop. My eyes sparkled as I looked at the shirts.

I feel like I want to take everything home but it's not mine but that's why I don't want to. No. I need to follow my self limits.

"You can buy that all." My eyes adjusted to Cedrick. I was still surprised because he just answered the question that had been on my mind for a while.

"I don't want it. Too bad. I only need one." My reason is that even though it's true, I like it. It's just embarrassing because I wasn't the one who worked hard for this money. It's Cedrick's money and I don't want him to think I'm abusing him.

"Because you were there a while ago. Buy those all so we can go home." There is a hint of annoyance in his voice.

My shame grew in my chest. I just took a shirt that was in front of me and went straight to the counter. I still feel the pain left in my chest. I walked in the direction of the cashier and paid for it. "I told you to buy all those shirts." It was Cedrick's voice again but I didn't look at him.

"You're going to buy it and then you're angry?" I purposely whispered it so he wouldn't hear.

"What?" Cedric.

"Nothing. I said you smell good now." I made him suffer and didn't even think about what I said to him.

I see her trying to avoid looking at me. As if I was uncomfortable with what I said. I simply watched him and saw that he had taken something from a table, just to the side of the payment area.

"I think... this looks so good on you Sherin. I could imagine you now wearing this." Cedrick said so I looked at the thing he was holding and my eyes almost widened and my jaw dropped in shock. It was a red lingerie!

He was proud of it as if we were the only two people here. I immediately turned around and those gay staff of the clothing store were also looking at the two of us. There were even those with teasing smiles etched on their lips as they stared at me. That one even raised an eyebrow, teasing me.

"Cedrick, take it down. There are many people who see it." I tried to lower my voice so that only the two of us could hear but I was too late because the gay cashier who was taking care of my purchase heard me.

"Why do you have to keep quiet, ma'am? Sir is supportive, oh! It's good for you." He giggled.

Cedrick retreated closer to us. "Yeah. This really fits her. Sorry for publicizing this but she's hot in bed, this red lingerie will suit her if she wears it. Can't wait to see her with this so I will definitely buy this one." Cedrick said the next thing that made my jaw drop.

I looked away from him and swallowed. God. Why the hell is my heart beating this loud?! And shit, I could hear the words he just said lately... That I'm hot in bed? Really? I thought he haven't not appreciate my beauty in bed. But he just said, I'm hot in bed. I am curious if he is attracted to me? Sometimes... He thinks I'm beautiful?

I grabbed the red lingerie from my hand and gave it to the cashier.

"Okay, we will buy this. Include it in there as well." They were so stunned to hear what I said. I felt my cheeks turn red as they looked at me. I swallowed saliva several times. Cedrick has no shame!

He can whisper to me, eh! I'm willing to wear it.

I looked around and my eyes caught the orange g-string. I narrowed my eyes at Cedrick and he raised an eyebrow at me. I crossed my arms in front of me and walked over to where that men's orange g-string was.

A smirk was currently plastered on my face. Right now I know that many eyes are staring at me, including Cedrick's eyes. I stopped in front of the for sale male g-string and picked up the orange one with a thin wrist band. I also raised it like how Cedrick flagged the lingerie he intended to make me wear.

"Um, miss?" I called the attention of the gay cashier and he had been looking at me for a while.

"Yes ma'am?" He smiled at me.

"Do you have any extras? The front is a little big but the waistline is not big." I glanced at Cedrick and his lips parted as if he was amazed at what I was doing. "It doesn't fit Cedrick e. The fabric is too small in the front part. I need something a little bigger than these." I told him.

"Wow! You really have a great memories when it comes to Sir's size ma'am, huh!" He is very fond of me.

"He was easy to memorize..." I whispered to myself. I just whispered because I didn't want them to hear it.

The inside of this department store will be noisy again because of their noises. No way. Others may enter because they are intrigued by what is here. They thought they would come soon.

Like, duh. There is only lingerie here.

A gay staff came back holding my g-string request. He still smiled and held it at both ends to show me better. "Is it okay ma'am?" There is teasing in his voice.

I took it and looked at it. "Yes. It fits him perfectly." I said while staring at the orange gstring. When Cedrick said... He could imagine me wearing the lingerie. I could feel that. I could imagine him wearing this cute orange g-string too.

"We can buy the other one, in case that one doesn't fit me." I looked at Cedrick when he spoke.

"Huh? No. It's okay. It fits you. That one is too small." I answered him confidently.

I heard the accented screams of the gays with us again today.

"Oh, isn't it good, Sir! Ma'am knows well what is much better than you!" Said by some one and they giggled again.

"How many inches, ma'am?" Another one intrigue.

I kissed him. "Nah. Not going to tell you. That's mine. Only. Only mine." I joke with them. I laughed at it too.

"This is it, ma'am." The cashier was handing me what I bought and I was about to pay for it with Cedrick's credit card but he went ahead of me and gave the cashier his.

I'm a mess.

"Huh? Why is that? Can this be done? Is it yours?" I said referring to his credit card that he had given me recently.

He didn't look at me and only stared at the cashier.

"I gave it to you. That's yours. I won't take that away." My eyebrows went up at his answer. This credit card named after him? Is it mine? Are you sure? It seems to be a different mixture now, ah?

When the paper bag was handed to Cedrick, we moved out. On the way out, we were both silent but before we both reached the door, I don't know and we both probably blushed at the gay man's shout.

"Goodbye couples! Enjoy the undies. Have a great night and happy sex!" Couples. Couples, huh? Do Cedrick and I look like couples now? Really? We are not even couples. Indeed. No lies. Just.... Fuck buddies.

And I don't know why it seemed like something is piercing my chest while seeing myself only as his... fuck buddy.