Forehead Kiss

"Sorry Sherin, I'm sorry." Trevor said over and over again while hugging me.

I don't know what he is sorry for. Was that for our fight last Sunday? For bringing me to this place? Or for the reason he let me feel this fear and nervousness?

I buried my face in his chest. Despite his sweat, his perfume is still more dominant. His scent was so manly. As if I am addicted and attracted.

"Sorry Sherin." I nodded in the middle of his tight hug.

I don't know and I can't count the time he hugged me. He had been holding me in his arms for a while and I didn't return them even for a second. Until... I just saw my own arms screaming... Wrapped around his muscular body.

"It's okay..." I said as I hugged him and rested my ear on his chest where I could hear his every heartbeat. "It's not your fault. We didn't want this. No one if us want this." I added to reassure him. I thought he was going to let go of me after that but his hug just got tighter.

"Again... I'm so sorry." He apologized then dropped his lips on my forehead.

I blinked several times because of what he did. It's like I'm dreaming and floating on a cloud. It was the first ever romantic forehead kiss I had ever received. I can't stop my heart beating every time I think that Trevor really gave me a kiss on the forehead.

Even though his chin was resting on my head, I could still feel his kiss, how his very soft lips touched my forehead. How he gave electricity to my body after he did that.

Every time he breathes, his heat hits my forehead and sometimes my neck hurts. I admit that this was the first time I felt a strange comfort in someone's arms and it wasn't because of sex.

We kept hugging each other until the owner of this house spoke. "These are your coffees, kids. It's hot, but not as hot as the two of you hugging each other." She changed her excited reaction.

I felt ashamed after I let go of Trevor's hug. I smiled hesitantly at the woman who let us in. I looked at them and they were a couple next to each other, they had two children.

"Thank you, huh? We're almost there." I said with all my heart and hugged myself.

"You're not from here, right?" asked her husband.

"We just came here to conduct an interview, because the person I contacted is from there in the courtyard." Trevor replied.

"Is this the daily situation herr? You guys, are they like this every day?" I asked, referring to the bastards.

I listened to the woman's sigh.

"Not really. Actually, it's just now again because their leader has just been released from prison. That's why the people here are nervous again because of those snobs."

"Have you tried filing a complaint? Actually, he could be jailed for threatening them." Trevor's story.

The man in front of us gasped. "That's the point and no one never tried. Everyone is a coward. No one can report them because we know they will come back to us when they find out who had reported them."

"But they won't be able to come back if they are imprisoned for life." Trevor said. I raised one eyebrow automatically and slowly looked back at him. I feel like I know what he's talking about and I can sense his next step. I know Trevor. Just from the answers he gives in our every class recitation, I already know. Trevor Cervantes... A man full of principles. He will not allow something like this, especially if he knows that he has the ability.

"They will pay on what they did to Sherin. I will restore their fear. We will put them in jail. Stuck them behind bars forever." Trevor said full of conviction and authority.

A smile almost appeared on my lips but I stopped it, I stopped it from looking at Trevor. Earlier my heart was filled with fear and apprehension but now it is overflowing with joy and great satisfaction while listening to him speak.

He was still talking to the couples in front of us and was discussing something but I couldn't just listen to him as my mind was focusing fully on his image.

As his lips open and close, I feel like I'm stunned, like I'm obsessed. I don't know why he always had this what shall I call this... A super powers? A power where he could stop my mind from putting attention onto something except to him... A super powers that could make anything around us stop in a sudden.

The couple walked us back to Trevor's car. After entering and being able to maneuver, they just left, so we started to walk the way home. I put my wallet and cellphone next to the windshield to take off my hoodie. I was already sweating because it was thick, I was nervous and scared, and we had a very hot coffee.

When I undressed, I noticed that Trevor was looking away from me and that the volume of the air conditioner was getting louder. I was left in my red tank top with a low neckline so my cleavage was peeking through. I can wear this now because Cedrick and I haven't had sex in the past few days, there are no kiss marks because Elise is at the mansion.

"I'll just return it on Monday. I'm already covered in sweat, eh. I'll wash it first." I said without looking at him while folding his hoodie carefully over my thigh.

"Yeah..." Trevor said while driving.

I think it's like we're back in ignore mode because we're sparing our words again now.

It's like we both didn't worry about each other and it's like we didn't embrace the trembling of our own bodies.

Neither of us spoke and we both seemed to want to go home by this time. Until I remembered that it was late at night and I actually turned off my cellphone earlier. Maybe Cedrick is calling me!

I quickly took the cellphone from the surface, next to the windshield and it seemed that Trevor also noticed the haste and panic in my movement.

I immediately turned on my cellphone and I was nervous while waiting for you to open. And when the screen was allocated again, fifteen missed calls from Cedrick appeared to me.

"Oh My Gosh..." I breathed out nervously.

Trevor turned to me.

"Why? Is there any problem?" he asked, I turned his head even though it was obvious from my face that there was a problem.

"Are you going to be scolded? I can accompany you up to your house and will tell your parents the reason why you came home late." He offered.

"I have no parents." I said while typing Cedrick's number to dial. Of all the phone numbers in the world... I think I only memorized my contact number and Cedrick's. Nothing else.

"Oh... Sorry..." Trevor apologized sadly. It was then that I knew he understood what I meant by 'I have no parents'. I lost my parents.

"Hi?" I asked the other line shyly.

"Sherin..." It was Cedrick's voice. What I thought would be his angry and panicked voice was the opposite. He was panting. And I think I know what was the reason behind his chased breaths. Something throbbed in my heart.

"Um... Uh... I saw your calls... I'm on my way home." I told him.

'Oh! Ced! God! Come on! Enter me!' Those are the words I heard on the other line. Probably Elise' moans while Cedrick was trusting into her. It was as if... There was a sharp ice crystal that was stabbing my heart. It sends too much pain. It hurts me. It kills me. It drowns me from a shattering and mournful tears.

"Wait," said Cedrick. I don't know if he told me or Elise on the other line because his voice weakened. Until he spoke to me again. "Where are you?" He asked. "Do you want me to fetch you there?" he asked but I shook my head even though he couldn't see it.

"No..." I breathed, thinking I could destroy his night with his girlfriend if I ever asked him to fetch me. "I'm on my way home. No need to fetch me." I said and hung up. But before I could do that, I still heard Elise's pleasured moan.

I weakly put the cellphone on top of my thigh while still holding it in my hand. I leaned my forehead against the windshield next to me and looked outside to hide the tears that were escaping from my eyes. I shouldn't be acting like this because I know my tears are not valid but it's the only thing I can do to escape the pain.

"Are you okay?" Trevor asked worriedly.

I didn't look at him.

"Yes..." But I answered him.

He didn't ask me anymore and just continued driving. I was very sad looking at the dark place we were passing through. My chest is also very heavy and feels like it wants to explode but I don't want to, I don't let anyone see me cry.

In the middle of Trevor's driving, he stopped at a convenience store. I just watched him go out and go in there until he came back with three coned ice creams.

He put it in the front and drove again until a few moments later, he stopped again in a rather wet place but I was not nervous because it seemed like there was a cliff there, and at the bottom of that cliff-like cliff were the small and different colors coming from in a city.

He turned off the engine and that's when I realized that he wanted us to stay here for a few minutes, especially when he got out of the car and opened the door for me. I also went out and sat next to him in front of his car and together we looked at the breathtaking view below.

I closed my eyes tightly and took a deep breath as a cold wind hit us. And when I woke up, a cone of ice cream opened my eyes. I looked at the holder and Trevor greeted me with his sweet smile, as if he wanted to comfort me with that ice cream.

He handed it to me again when I did not grab it out of his hand.

"They said that ice creams are the best comfort food for girls. Come on. Let's eat while staying here. This is just once in a life time." When he said this is just once is a life time... He really meant it.

So I took and accepted his offer because I knew it could not be followed. This is probably the most comfortable and lightest day I've had despite the pains I've experienced.

He left in front of me to sit next to me. I still heard his sigh while I opened the ice cream cone. "There's another one here. It's yours too. Just... eat this until you feel better." he said to the raised plastic.

I nodded and started eating the ice cream. Despite the silence of the place that surrounds us... I could here nothing but my heart that sobs inside me. I don't want someone to notice how miserable I am so I tried eating this ice as fast as I could so I could go home instantly and cry alone inside my room.

"You don't tell me your problems and I honestly don't know if I could help you and comfort you with that... All I can do is to be your crying shoulders... You can cry that sorrows Sherin. Lean on me. I won't judge you." Trevor's narrative follows.

Just then... My early suppression of my tears becomes a loud cry. I'm holding the ice cream but I can't eat it anymore. As he said, I cried and cried all the weight in my chest.

I couldn't stop it because I can still hear what Cedrick and Elise were doing earlier. I rested my forehead on my knees and cried as much as I could. That I'm like a child being tamed by Trevor now because he's rubbing my back.

God. This was it. The conclusion I am waiting. I am still. I am still in love with Cedrick. And the fact I knew lately hurts me like a house tragedies by a volcanic eruption. Cedrick. I hate you. I hate you Cedrick for making me feel this way towards you. And I hate to say that yes... My heart still screams his name. The thing I thought had already vanished when Trevor came. But then. I'm wrong. I am always and forever wrong.