Invited

So many days has passed... afternoons... and nights... Trevor and I had a good connection. If before there were only two of us when we went on a break or maybe going out, now it's three because Seyah is also a friend. Since Trevor and I had a fight, Seyah has been with me so now I can't leave her. I'm used to being with him and sometimes he even goes as far as Cedrick's mansion.

I also couldn't help but be nervous because he might see Cedrick, his interest and his staying here more often. He still knows what that man is really mediating between us. And speaking of Cedrick... We can't have sex now. As in... nothing really. I've been all day dry since Elise moved here and I'm not against that.

Perhaps it was true that that man thought of me as a younger sister. It's not bad anymore... Somehow I can breathe easy and these times... I feel my importance again. I see again the reasons why I am still alive in this world.

In every corner of the house, I often see Elise and Cedrick cuddling. It's obvious that they love each other very much, especially Cedrick... He's really in love with Elise.

And... that's not surprising. Elise is very beautiful. kind Modest. Sexy. Smart. And above all rich and educated. And oh, I almost forgot... There is something more than what I said... And that is her cleanliness.

The type that she never put any other hand on the delicate part of her body except the hands of the man she loved.

I admit... I am not against the scenes that happened with Elise and Cedrick. Right now, I'm pretty sure I don't have feelings for that guy anymore. It wasn't easy but I managed to forget the feeling that isn't rightful. I thought Cedrick would just stay stuck in my heart. But no... because now I don't feel even the slightest bit of envy or jealousy every time I see couples.

Cedrick can't deliver me again and that's not new. It's been a few months and I'm used to grabbing every time I go to school or go home. Because he is always busy now, especially since he already has a girlfriend, apart from his company that he should focus on, his girlfriend has also been added.

When the car arrived at the university, I quickly opened the door, when I got out, Trevor met me, he was here and he immediately smiled when our eyes met. I thought he was here waiting for me because now he is walking closer. "Hi..." I don't know if it was because I heard his voice.

It's very new because he's not ashamed of me. But it's okay too. It wasn't bad either he looked even more with it. I liked Trevor in any way. It seems like everything about her is beautiful and I don't know and I can't find the thing or the spot that I should be annoyed with her because in fact there is none. Not really.

I raised an eyebrow at Trevor. "Hi? That's new, huh?" I'm teasing him.

He smiled and seemed to expect it when I realized what he was doing. He spread his arms on the opposite side of his body.

"Why?" He said with raised right brow. "Is it supposed to be this way?" He asked and I just answered with open arms and he wrapped his arms around me.

I smiled as Trevor hugged me and I did the same to him. I heard every beat of my heart and it was so fast that I was having trouble breathing. I want to slap and punish Trevor for this but he is innocent. It's not his fault that my heart beats like this because of him.

I can feel the warmth of Trevor's arms in his hugs. As if it calms all the raging monsters in my heart. As if it stops the strong wind from touching my waves. As if it stopped the wave coming to destroy my physical appearance.

It's hard to admit it to myself because of the situation I'm in but... The day is starting where I see that Trevor is on a different level in my life. As if he rose to the level of just being friends. That I look forward to more than that.

But every time I remember and see where I am. What happened to me. And what Trevor really is... Pain grows in my chest. Trevor is too good. Very clean. Very kind. So perfect. And that's just the emerging conscience in my heart because no matter how much it wants to lock up the man I'm currently hugging... it can't do it forever because I myself will order it.

I don't want him to be with me. Because I knew from the beginning... I don't deserve him. I'm not the girl for him. He needs a woman who is bigger than me. That type of caliber. I'm not the only one. It's not just you.

"What's your shampoo?" Trevor broke the silence surrounding us with his words.

He was sniffing my hair and the sweet scent of shampoo that sticks onto it. I laughed because he was like a child. "Palmolive." I laughed at the mention.

"What color." I laughed even more at his next question. Why is he asking this? Interview? Or does he want to imitate my smell?

"Why are we talking about that?" I asked and frowned. I looked up to see his face. My smile only got wider when I saw his face. Sometimes I ask God how many hours did he make this man? Did it take him a day? two? three? One week? Two weeks? A month? Or years?! Because.... Why is this creature so perfect?

From the piercing nose. With her beautiful eyes. On her red lips. And with his tensed jaw, add to it his very clean will. He's too perfect to be with me and it's a shame if he only dedicates his heart to someone like me. He deserves someone better even though I could give him the unconditional love he wanted.

I woke up from deep sad thoughts when Trevor pulled a strand of hair from my forehead.

His forehead was furrowed while watching my face and his right arm still hugging me.

"Do we have any problems?" He asked concerned.

I forced a small smile despite the pain in my chest that was slowly coming to life. I held my breath. "Um... nothing. I'm just thinking about something."

"Are you sure?" he asked, sounding unconvinced.

"Um... Yes. Of course," I answered him with a small smile on my face.

He narrowed his eyes at me, analyzing my face. "But... you looked bothered. Something's running in your mind and I could sense it is not just nothing. Or anything else that we could set aside. Tell me... What is it." He asked them shrugged. I might help you with that.

I tried to make my eyes happy and display a wide smile so that now I can convince him. "Nothing. What are you. I'm fine." I answered him cheerfully, but lying.

He just sighed and didn't force me anymore. He slowly let go of me and stared at me before letting me walk into the campus. He extended his hand but I refused because we were inside the school. Maybe we will both be destroyed if we are seen holding hands. Instead of failing on the stage because it's a graduate... we failed it in the discipline office.

Since the two of us almost perished... after that conducted interview. Trevor became sweet and caring to me again. And if I compare that to what he was doing before,

now even more. He is doubly sweet to me that I almost thought I was his girlfriend but he was my boyfriend.

But despite that. I won't let that happen. I don't want to be his girlfriend even if he wants to. Because whether he denies it or not, I can feel it and I can see that he is looking at me too. I know I'm not hard to love, but I'm also not hard to leave if he finds out about my true connection with Cedrick. I'm sure he will feel worse than disappointment. Maybe he will curse and curse me like Cedrick.

And that's what I won't let happen... So it's all here... Because I'm afraid of the possible consequences.

"Where are you on vacation?" Trevor's voice broke the audible silence.

While walking I caught a glimpse of him. I was a little surprised because he was taller. I took a deep breath. "I don't know. Maybe just at home." I answered sincerely. That's really my routine. Even though it's a holiday, it's still the same. Seems neutral. Even if there is a huge event for others, it's just not for me.

Straight weekend holidays come next week. Maybe I would have myself only inside the mansion because I know.... Cedrick and Elise would spend their holidays together outside the city or maybe as well outside the country. It was Cedrick and Elise was with him, so I'm sure their trip was outside the country.

If I down my guess... Maybe they will go to Greece... that was the best and the popular location for honeymoons. Cedrick still loves the honeymoon. I'm sure Elise will come here to the Philippines tired.

"If you want... come with me. I'm going back to the province and we'll have a family reunion.

It's fun there and I can have you because. My relatives are kind so you're very welcome there. You won't be home sick. " Trevor. My eyes automatically twitched because of his suggestion.

I? Bring it to his relatives? Even if he says I'm just his friend.. It's not impossible for them to think that Trevor is his girlfriend or flirting with me. It's embarrassing and I don't deserve that. Their children, nephews, grandchildren, cousins are very good. Trevor is very good.

Trevor's eyes were full of pleading as he stared at me, waiting for my answer. As if he wanted to force me to answer... Yes, I will come and join their family reunion even though I am not a family member.

I laughed because of the last thought. "I don't want to! It's embarrassing. It's your family reunion. I don't want to get involved." I cringe my nose.

He immediately laughed at my rant. "Why? Aren't you family? Are you different from me?" My heart felt like it was participating in a racing contest when Trevor said that. It's like I'm tickled and yes I admit it... I'm tickled by what he said. Why does he want to make me feel like this?

I smiled and tortured Trevor. "Stupid. That's different. Family reunions are made up of blood relatives, and we're not blood relatives. The family you consider me to be is different from the true purpose of family reunion." I debated him.

His right eyebrow raised. "Eh, why are mom and dad, they're not blood relatives, ah? Why are they attending the reunion?"

I laughed at his philosophizing. I focused on walking before answering him and thought about what to say. "They're a couple. That's normal and that's the real family." I still have a reason.

While walking, he was staring at me, at my face, and not at the road we were walking. As if he was thinking deeply.

"So... I'm going to introduce you as my girlfriend. Is that okay? It's just a pretentious act. So you won't be singled out. So you'll feel that you're welcome, but you' really are welcome even if you don't think so. And also... So i could be with you. And see you as the sun rises and sets... And you can also go on vacation. Take a rest from hardships." He stopped for a moment and stared at me.

"I wanted to stay near the ocean and watch the sunset and sunrise with you."