Hurt

I woke up with a slight pain in the middle. I slowly opened my eyes and the window opened to me because I slept on my side. It's afternoon because the surroundings are orange. The time allotted by the university for me is also over.

I tried to move to get up and noticed that Cedrick was still next to me as he held my middle. He was asleep but his hand was cupping my womanhood. I peeked through the blanket that covered me and I could see my womanhood now being held by Cedrick.

My heart was still throbbing so I shook my head to come back to reality. Don't tell me I'm still asking more of him! After those rounds? Am I still missing?

I separated my thighs and tried to remove Cedrick's grip because I was about to get up, but as soon as I removed it, he immediately returned his hand to my womanhood as if he was awake but he wasn't. I glanced at him but he was still sleeping.

My breathing became heavy as I watched his hand cover my delicacy. He held it tightly as if he was afraid of losing it.

I just went back to lying down to let his hand there. I can't help myself because it's at my feet, if I try to reach it, my body will bend and Cedrick's finger will enter my womanhood, which I know is now wet.

It's embarrassing, he might wake up because of the wet feeling of his finger.

I lay there staring at the ceiling. I can still feel Cedrick's warm hand on my pearl. After a while, I tried to remove it from my center again. And then in that moment, a small smile slowly formed around my lips, I successfully removed his hand without him bringing it back there.

I breathed a sigh of relief.

I slowly stood up to take a shower again. I feel sticky and I want to cool down. My head is already hot, is my body too?

"Are you leaving?" I stopped walking when I heard that question, I knew it was from Cedrick, he was already awake.

"As if I have somewhere else to go." I let him see the annoyance in my voice.

"I thought you're going to university?" he asked sarcastically.

"Does it look like someone is still waiting for me over there?" I asked emphatically without looking at him.

"Don't worry too much, darling. I got you." he said effortlessly. Darling, huh?

Despite what I felt in my chest, I still forced myself not to get carried away by his endearment.

"I hope next time... let me do the work and act when it comes to my studies. I also have hands and feet, I can talk to them even without connections." I defend myself.

I heard laughed a bit. "Okay then, next time. I just can't let you go today because later, I will be having my date" he said. I smiled bitterly because as he spoke, I could hear the excitement in his voice. I can also see how happy he is. And there is no doubt that his feelings for Elise are that deep.

"You're about to wash yourself, right?" I was back to my senses when Cedrick asked me.

I blinked and slowly nodded. "Yeah..." I answered.

"I'll wash you." he said.

I nodded involuntarily. "Okay," I replied and started walking back into the shower room.

It had always been a hard fight whenever different thoughts attacked my mind. I always pretend I'm happy even when I'm not. I always force myself that I'm okay even though I'm not really.

Since my family passed away, I never got to feel the love they used to give me before.

Sometimes, the corner of this mansion just cries as I remember my worries about my family. I'm also often sad, because even though Cedrick is here by my side, he's not there either, it's just good for a while.

But the wound here on my chest, I know that it will never heal.

If ever the sayings that if people died... they will surely go to heaven if they were not into doing such horrible things when they're still alive. I know that the family I grew up in is good. So I sometimes think that if those who have passed away really see their loved ones on earth, I can assure you that they don't like what I'm doing now.

They don't like the road I'm taking now.

But nothing, eh. Did I like it? They left me alone. They left me exhausted. They left me broken and broken. They didn't even leave me anything, e. They let me live in this world full of longing.

Can I blame Cedrick? That he stole my life? That he claimed my right? No. Because after all, he is one of the reasons why I smelled again.

I thought I was going to die. But I was wrong at that time, because a new life was opening for me.

So even if he utters some hurtful words. Even if he hurts me a few times, makes me cry, maybe.... I can't do anything else but accept that. Even if he thinks I have too many women, it's okay, the important thing is that I can graduate.

Because once I already received my diploma, I will leave this house sincerely. The word attorney will be attached to my name. And I can now stand in front of a lot of people without getting emotional, especially Cedrick.

"Ohhh! Cedrick, y-yes..." I mumbled as he let me in from the back. After I entered the shower room earlier, he immediately followed me so we are now fucking again.

We just finished a while ago but here he is again. His pet doesn't seem to calm down every time he sees me naked.

"Bullshit, Sherin, ohhh!" Cedrick growled.

"Ahhh!" I screamed when he hit my ass.

I was facing the wall with my palms resting on it. I also excused myself and spread my legs wide so I could let Cedrick go. I was surprised because of the taste. I have gone out several times because of him.

I bravely resisted his every thrust. My knees are shaking but keep going, we are not reaching our climax yet.

"Goodness. Ohhh, ahhh! Hmmm, gosh! Cedrick..." I moaned one after another as we reached the peak of happiness. It's like I'm flying somewhere while savoring the pleasure of every second Cedrick and I's body is connected.

I heard his hoarse moan behind me.

After our orgasm, he gave me some sloppy thrust. Making me moaned over and over again.

I could feel the warm liquid running down my thigh. My legs were shaking and my knees felt weak as I slowly straightened up. First, I removed my hand and just leaned against the wall in extreme weakness.

Even though our joining forces is over, I still feel the taste that was left in my womanhood.

"Spread your legs" was Cedrick's voice so I turned to him while his face was weak. I saw the mug he was holding with only water, I breathed a sigh of relief. I thought, he was about to enter his manhood inside me again but in front position.

I chased each breath as I spread my thighs. He started to wash my womanhood with the water he slowly pours on it. "Ahhh!" I moaned briefly when his finger hit my fresh clit*ris from our sex earlier.

"Hmmm, Cedrick.." I moaned his name when he popped my clit*ris again, probably teasing me.

"Oh, sorry." he laughed.

"Hurry up" I ordered him so he could finish washing my womanhood. He followed immediately so we left the shower room together after taking a bath.

He just folded a towel over half of his body and went back to his room because his clothes were there. I took care of myself and looked for clothes to wear. Then, I put it on my bed to put on my underwear.

I put on the bra first so I took the panties on top to follow that but I didn't even get to wearing my panties on my knees, I heard the door open.

I stopped and looked at it, I saw Cedrick who was black with tweezers while he had a black designer belt wrapped around his pants. He was still holding his hanging polo shirt. I frowned.

"Why?" I asked while putting on my panties.

He didn't answer me for a long time and was just watching what I was doing.

When I put on my underwear, I walked closer to him.

"What are you doing here?" I will ask. I know he's leaving now, but shouldn't he already be in his room getting dressed? Well, what is he doing here while still naked on top?

Cedrick said "Help me to wear this" and showed me the button down dress shirt he would wear on his date with Elise.

I smiled sparingly. "Okay," I purposely gave a short answer and was about to take his clothes from him to wear them, when I couldn't continue because he kept them away from me.

I looked at him confused.

"Uh, no. Wear you clothes first, I could feel it, I'm nearly again. Just follow me if you don't want to see each other of us fucking around" his voice had a warning.

I also followed and quickly turned my back on him. I raised one eyebrow while putting on my clothes. How fast does he stand?

Even though I was heavy inside, I helped Cedrick put on his dress shirt that he would use for his date with another girl. I was like his mother while taking care of him. I even wished him luck after he arrived there. Because according to him, today is the day when Elise will decide if her answer to his courtship is yes or no.

But it looks like they both like each other, eh. I'm sure he'll come home here later... he's already marked by the one and only girl he loves.

I felt a little envy in my chest. How does it feel to have someone love you again?

Even if it's the love of a family... I don't have that.

I soaked in advanced studies because I had nothing to do. I studied again the discussions we had in my first year. I also heard that a section has been released because a male blockmate of mine has already messaged me.

I stared at his name several times because if he can speak, it's like we're close.

Trevor Wenrick Finsler: hi! i saw we're blockmates, hope we'll help each other soon. for the people, keep going!

That was his message to me. I bit my finger when I felt myself smiling. Now I feel excitement again. Especially when I read his last message, 'for the people, fighting!' I feel like I really am a lawyer.

I typed what I would reply to him.

Sherin Sarquez:

yes, of course! looking forward to that day! thank u!

I thanked you at the end because it was only now that I felt appreciation again. It feels like, my existence as his blockmate matters to him. And I really appreciate it.

Hopefully, he will be close to me.

When night fell, Cedrick still hadn't come home. I just finished eating, he still isn't there.

Until I finally went back to my room to sleep. I peeked out the window, from here, I could see the huge gate of the mansion. I held my breath as I looked over there, hoping to see his car enter. But no, he wasn't there, it looked like he was going to spend the night next to Elise so I went back to bed to sleep.

I woke up with someone rubbing my womanhood.

I slowly opened my eyes and could barely see anything because the lights were off. I feel the man next to me as he continues to caress my sensuality despite my panties.

I turned on the orange light of the lamp. When my eyes adjusted, I saw that it was Cedrick who was touching my middle. I frowned, what time is it?

"Gosh!" I was surprised when he suddenly pulled down my panties and quickly inserted his two fingers into my womanhood. He was pushing and pulling his fingers repeatedly and fast, making me reach my orgasm that quickly.

"Hmmm," I moaned.

After my release, Cedrick placed himself on top of me. He was already naked while pointing his erect shaft against my womanhood. He quickly inserted it. I felt the pain as he started to move on top of me but it immediately disappeared and was replaced by pleasure.

"Ohhh," I let out a soft moan.

"Did you know, Sherin? We fucked too tonight... but when I am fucking Elise... I am seeing your face in hers. What did you do to me?" said Cedrick as he continued to drag.

I was stunned for a few minutes because of what he said.

After thinking, I met his eyes again. "Now... do you see Elise in my face? Do you think you are fucking her?" my eyes speak.

"No... I'm seeing the actual you—Oh, Fuck! Ohhh!"

"Ahhh, hmmm, Ohhh... ahh!" we both moaned as we reached the peak of happiness. I feel comfortable in my middle but there is a pain building up in my chest. I tilted my head so that he couldn't see the tears in my eyes.

I heard Cedrick's last words several times. When he was having sex with Elise, he remembers me, but when we were the one who is having sex, she doesn't see Elise within me... I don't have the strength to slap me... because it's like I just remember he has me... whenever he needs to release his lust.

A tear escaped my eyes.

He doesn't see Elise within me... because Elise is too precious for him to be me.