Chapter 66

The days go by and with it Kahin becomes more intense, he followed me on the day of the move and therefore knows where I live, the gifts and flower arrangements do not miss a single day as well as his visit every night to know my status and spend time with our son.

Everyone knows what Kahin did to me and as expected he did not defend himself, at least he was not so cynical to get out of control and ask that they trust him as he always asks me to do something that I do not understand. Why would I trust him after everything he did to me? "Kahin it’s very early, I don't know what the hell you're doing here, but I'm going to ask you the best way to get out of my house. When are you going to understand that I need peace and you won't give me that?" I open the door. “He's asleep and I'm perfectly fine, my daughters are fine, so bye-bye.”

Kahin's look is helpless, I don't know why that look, he knows perfectly well what he did, “how difficult is it to give me a single chance?"

I laugh, “I already gave you two chances and you missed both,” I point to the outside of the house, “bye,” he bites his lip and frowns, he's furious, but that fury doesn't matter to me, nothing about him matters to me. I have been away from him for a week, and although it has been hell I have been able to be calm in the midst of my sadness.

"I'm not going to leave here," he growls.

Pissed off by what he says, I go to my room, take out the yellow envelope and stamp it on his face, "I want you to get out of my damn house right now or I call the police. One damn time you are looking for a woman who values herself and does not fall so low just to hurt another," I leave the room leaving him standing there, when I go down the stairs I hear his firm footsteps behind me.

“When did you receive this?” I ignore his question and go to the kitchen, I need to calm down or I might do something that will hurt me, “baby, I need to know when you received it.”

Annoyed and wanting him to leave me alone I look at him furiously, “the date indicates that it was the day after I realized your betrayal, now please go, the tension is hurting me,” without saying anything, he leaves me there, he had a hard face. My tears begin to fall, it is really hard to live a betrayal and to have to be strong because there are little people depending on you, it is overwhelming to put your pain aside to be strong for those who need you most, “calm girls, everything is fine, everything will be well I promise,” I pour myself some water and drink it, it is not possible that Kahin is acting in such an unfair way, come whenever he wants and try to get to me after what he did to me and apart from that look at me as if he would like to tell me something important and then just ask me to trust him.

I spend the morning taking care of my son and spending time with him, my pregnancy now five months is somewhat uncomfortable and I know that my depressive state has a lot to do with it. "Abu ... Abu ..." I hear my son stammer, sitting on the sofa I see mom enter the living room.

“Hi my love,” she takes my son in her arms and fills him with kisses, “my boy you are fat,” my brown soon gets annoyed at his grandmother's pampering and fights to get her to lower him. “How are you daughter?” She sits next to me, unable to hold back the tears, I hug her and cry, “quiet daughter, you must calm down, think about the girls, honey,” she caress my hair and I can only hiccup, “if you miss him so much, why don't you give her a chance? Try to save your family, your home.”

I separate from her as if burning, “no, no mom, a deception is not what I am going to forgive, I did it and I left everything for that man, I put aside my principles, my pride as a woman to be happy and if ... If I was happy, how did it end? Everything? I can be alone with my children and I know that this money will not reach me for life, but I can work for myself and my children either as a cleaner in a mall, I do not need Kahin and his traditions to raise my children,” tears spill from my eyes, “I don't need him, and although now it seems that I will never get over this, I know I will, one day I will just look back and say that it was all one more teaching,” I make everything very clear.

“All right daughter, here I am to support you in this whole process, my life is strong and I am happy with the decision you have made, not everyone have that courage to leave the man they love.” I wipe my tears and swallow the permanent knot that I have in my throat. "How about we make a good pizza for lunch?" My mother claps her hands, “come on honey, I'm dying to cook something for you,” she take my son in her arms and then walk to the kitchen, “you sit there with the baby and I'll cook,” she puts my son on the kitchen counter, he automatically reaches out and knock down the fruits.

"Kahin please ... You can't throw it all away son" I look at him annoyed, he just smiles at me in that way so like his father.

“Leave it, I'll pick it up, take him and give him yogurt, it's noon.”

Taking the yogurt and the spoon I obey my mother, "dad ... dad ..." my son sings, calling the asshole.

"Dad's not here, now let's stop spitting out the yogurt ..." the doorbell rings, I huff and beg it isn't Kahin.

"I'll get it daughter, keep taking care of the baby." My mother leaves the kitchen.

I look at my son sadly, “how can I forget if I have the most precious thing he gave me? Seeing you is seeing him and feeling your sisters God,” I whisper holding back tears, my brown caresses my cheek dirtying me with yogurt in the process.

"Good ..." hearing Lucelia's cheerful voice makes me laugh, she is very upset with her brother, but it is as she says, he is her brother and there is nothing left but to regret what happened.

"Look honey, it's Aunt Lucelia with the blonde," smiling, I look at them entering, that girl is more beautiful every day.

"Good ... Good ..." Francesco enters directly to give me a kiss on the head and take my son who is all dirty in his arms, my sun was the first to want to kill Kahin and when he did not defend himself, he simply made it clear what he thought of him.

"My sun, he is going to dirty you ..." he doesn't pay attention to me and goes with my son, “give me the blonde,” Lucy gives her to me and I kiss her cheeks, she's cute and adorable, those big eyes kill me.

"You're thinner," my sister-in-law said.

"I'm telling her and she doesn't want to believe me," my mother protests. "She's worrying me and look at her feet."

Lucelia tilts her head and looks at them, “have you already gone to the doctor? Marilí, you are only 5 months old and your feet are as if you are about to give birth. What's wrong with you?”

I sigh, whenever they get this heavy they discourage me, "I'm fine, I already called the doctor and she told me that it could be because of everything I do, I don't have an assistant and it's me who takes care of everything here," I explain to them so they can leave me alone.

"Okay, that's fine, but what about you slimness?" Lucelia attacks again. "Marilí I know that everything that my bastard brother did to you is hard, but you must try, for your daughters."

I snort and look at her with disgust, “I try Lucelia, believe me I try, just for the welfare of my daughters I left your brother and came here to be in peace, I am being strong for my children, but there are things that get out of my hands, I can feed myself but the pain I feel in my chest, the disappointment I have in your brother, the memories of those damn photos that by the way I showed him today and he just nodded and left like the shameless he is, they don't leave me alone, they consume me. And no matter how much I want to be strong, no matter how much I no longer want to cry or suffer, I can't help it because all this hurts, I love your brother and it's not easy, none of this is easy,” I start to cry out of helplessness, “already I don't want to feel like this ... I don't want to be like this anymore, I want to forget everything.”