Chapter 53 Jealous?

Coby was actually busy with the sleeping Cassy. He was staring at her face and sometimes tracing it, tch. "Don't rape my sleeping friend," I warned while glaring at him.

"Don't worry, I'll only do that if she's awake." He smirked.

Then I felt an arm around my shoulder "Me too, let's go?" Tch. Adrian.

"What?" I looked at him, he's so close to me... I miss him, I miss this...

But... that moment when I needed him the most, I couldn't reach him nor see him, when I saw Adrian again, popularity was already with him.

My father died 2 years ago and I was there watching those men killed him. I called Adrian first for help using my phone but he's not answering so I called someone else.

Through that pain and sufferings, he wasn't there to comfort me, he was out of reach. Months after that I decided to go to this school and saw him with popularity and fame. It hurts, the person I trusted the most, the person I love with all my life, left me in the darkness, suffering alone.

It was not just my father who died at that moment but also Adrian who was out of my life.

"To our honeymoon." He smiles as he teases.

I took his arm out of my shoulder "Don't start Adrian, my friend is in critical condition because of you and your friends." My voice was hard and the boys immediately looked at me with their serious faces but I can also sense guilt from them.

"So, you won't tell me why?" I tested.

They must have a better explanation for this.

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Venice Claire's POV

"So, you won't tell me why?" Drena tested the boys.

I felt Lucas tapped Xenon's shoulder. "They're already involved Xen. They have the right to know." He said probably to Xenon.

"I think Lucas is right Xen." Persuaded by Adrian.

"This is also for their safety, it would be better for them." I heard Coby added.

"I know. But it's been a long day for us, leave that conversation for tomorrow. For now, off you go and take your rest." His voice was hard, what happened when he was away?

"Dren, stay here with Cassy. It's for your safety and with her state, she needs you." Adrian said to Drena in his soft voice.

"Yup, and we have the guest room for you girls," Coby stated.

"How about me? I'm her cousin, I'm also needed." I can sense Zoey pouting.

She's good at playing people that's why it's not suspicious when she reached that position. She can manipulate humans by the use of her words and smart brain, but not a Tarre especially me. That's her talent.

"There are two guest rooms, one room will be occupied by Cassy and Drena, if it's okay for you, stay on the other one." Xenon stated.

"Of course, that would be cool!" She exclaimed.

"Btw, what's your name?" Coby asked her.

"I'm Zoey." She said smiling.

"I'm Coby and that's Lucas," Coby said and pointed at Lucas.

"I'm Adrian," Adrian said extending his arm which was also taken by Zoey.

Xenon is holding my hand most likely playing with it, calming his self. It feels so good...

"I'll take you to your room." Lucas offered to Zoey who immediately nodded and I heard them walking away.

"Come on Dren, Coby will take care of her," Adrian said to Drena who's staring at sleeping, Cassy. Then, I heard them walked out of the room followed by Coby, probably carrying Cassy.

Xenon let go of my hand as I suddenly felt cold. I heard him closed the door and went back to his seat.

I don't want to talk to him, not yet. I can't face him after I heard those words before I fell asleep. My hearing never made mistakes and I knew what I heard...

I felt a hand caressing my hair slowly, it feels so good. I want to feel him, I want to hold him but I can't face him yet. Why does he love me? Does he really love me? Did he mean to say it? But why?

I am a monster... he must love the Claire he knew but not the monster I know. He can't love the real me, that part of me...

And I, I don't know how to love, I can't even feel pain, how can I ever feel the love? Can he also help me feel... love?

It's starting to get dark and I need to go for a run because she wanted to come out. But I can't if I'm here. Sleeping is the best solution I know.

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I wake up when I felt someone hold my hand. Xenon. Then he... kiss my forehead... "Goodnight." He whispered in my ear and let go of my hand.

He went towards the switch, turn the lights off and continue walking towards the couch, then he... lay down?

I remember I'm lying in his bed. He will sleep on the couch because I'm using his bed. He should have carried me to the guest room. He? Oh yeah, the others should have carried me to the guest room.

This is my cue then. No, he can sense my presence... if ever, he might sense my movement. This is difficult but there's away.

I waited until I hear his steady breathing telling me he's asleep. It's midnight and just enough time. I called her.

"Couz! What's up?" I can sense her smiling.

"I'm going, cover-up," I ordered. She's been watching me for two years and she already knows my ways of living.

I know because I sensed her most of the time especially before when I wake up from my Silencer mode. I didn't know her before but I just ignored her as long as she doesn't touch me.

I have some memories of what the Silencer has been doing. I can see it sometimes because we're using the same eyes but most of the time all I can see is red.

"Yes ma'am! On my way." She said happily.

The moment I sensed the door opened I was already in the window "Touch him and you're dead." I threatened in a hard but low voice and jumped down.

I run for almost two hours and she wakes up for an hour then I decided to go back. 3:30 am, I climbed towards his window and saw Zoey standing up as she started walking out of the room smiling while shaking her head. Tch. She's been teasing me.

Earlier... was I... jealous? Oh no, I was not.

I lay down and went back to sleep while listening to his steady breathing and smelling the scent that surrounds the whole room.

Early in the morning, I felt Xenon take my pulse when he recognized it's normal same with my breathing he breathed deeply as he calmed himself.

He kissed my forehead "I'm sorry you have to go through this... if I would have known this will happen... I should have not- I should have not met you..." he said in sadness.

I felt my heart quench, no, don't say that... Why? Why am I feeling this? Do I feel... hurt? Am I feeling pain? Why can't I feel pain in my stomach? But rather I feel pain in my... chest.