I NEED TO KNOW THE TRUTH

I feel my body pain. My body is so heavy and I am tired to get up. But I need to go to the office because Asher won't allow me to be absent. Though I am not feeling well, I need to go to work because not my salary will be affected. But I will receive more punishment.

Before I could enter the office Asher sent me a message. He said I went through the OB and asked for contraceptives.

I am allergic to any pills. So all I can accept is injectable. I think it is ok, for just once. Then six months was valid then. Just right until the end of my contract with Asher.

When I finished from OB gyne I immediately went up to his office. I saw him there sitting while reading some documents.

"Good Morning," I greeted him but he didn't answer. He just stares at me badly so I ignored him. I just took a deep breath and went to my seat.

Asher's keep looking at me even when I'm sitting down. Although I was a little disgusted, I just ignored him and became more focused on what I was doing.

"Asher, can you review this contract and sign after? This is from the investors of pharmaceuticals. I need to give it to your secretary ASAP because the Pharmacy needs it so the supply will deliver soon."

"And who will stand for me to sign that, me?" There was annoyance in his voice so I stood up and brought him the paper. He grabbed the paper and laid it on his desk. "Did you do what I said?" I nod at him as an answer. "Good, what kind of contraceptives did you apply?" he asked while looking badly at me.

"Inject."

"Wise girl," He smirked then stood up and faced me. "I want quicky." He kissed my earlobe and crawled his tongue on my ear.

But I didn't feel any tickle.

"The effect of the injection is still seven days because my period is still not coming," I said and he stopped immediately. He's a doctor so I guess he knows what I mean.

"Go back to your seat, useless," he said and go back to his seat and so do I.

When I returned to the chair I rested loosely. I really can't stand Asher's presence. I don't know but it seems like there is always a threat of danger in his actions.

Asher kept looking at me. I don’t know what’s running through his mind but sometimes I caught him looking at me.

I saw him stand up then go out the door without saying anything.

I would have liked to ask him but I chose to remain quiet.

Where would he go?

Even though I was wondering I just ignored it.

I just continued what I was doing while staring at the clock. I want to pull the time and get home early because I am not feeling ok. I just drink pain reliever earlier to feel at ease but my head is still hurt.

Asher also disappeared for a few hours and when he returned he was carrying a small elongated box. He put it on top of his table so see it.

"Prepare yourself, we're going somewhere later. After office wait for me at the parking lot," he told me.

Where are we going?

"Did you fucking hear me?" he asked as he slapped the table.

"Yeah," I replied. He didn't answer and we both continued what we were doing. I thought I can go home but it seems that he is planning something.

Where are we going?

Where will he take me?

What do we do?

Though, I did my job well. I'm still wondering where we can go. So sometimes I catch a glimpse of him and I catch him looking at me.

When the time comes he approached my table.

"Wait for me at the parking. I will arrange something before we leave." He commands.

"Where we-----"

"Don't ask, just follow what I said,"

I obeyed what he told me to wait for him in the parking lot so that there would be no more big fight. I went down immediately so I could just wait for him there.

Trembling, fear, I can’t explain what I feel right now. I don't know what will happen but I prayed that everything will be ok. I also know that he doesn't have a meeting so I can't predict where we will go.

I just leaned against his car and thought he would do nothing bad to me.

While waiting for him, I saw a car coming. It looks familiar and looks closer to my seat. Until it stopped in front of me.

"Ashley,"

Eugene came down immediately when he saw me and then approached me so I stand properly.

"Eugene, what are you doing here?"

"I forgot to take your number when I dropped you home. I came to your house earlier but there was no one so I thought you were at work. That's why I decided to come here to talk to you."

What could he need from me and he come at my work?

"Why? Is that so important?" I wondered.

"Someone wants to see you," he said to me seriously.

Does someone want to see me?

Who is it?

"Who?" He did not answer immediately. He took a deep breath and exhaled before speaking.

"He said he made you run away." Shocked, surprised, fear, hatred alive.

I do not know how to react. I leaned against Asher's car and suddenly my knees seemed to soften.

"He's dying and he wants to see you, so he can say everything he wants to say. And who their leader is."

"Eugene." I weakly call his name.

Does he already know what happened to me?

"I know everything Ash, he told me everything to convince me to take you there. His ally told him that she saw me drop you home. Asher would have been the one they would have asked for help but they saw that you weren't ok, so they approached me." Should I be happy because they did not go with Asher?

"No, I will not go anywhere nor meet him."

"He's dying. If you want to know the truth. Come with me." I shook my head hesitantly.

For what else?

Nothing can be changed even if I will know the truth. Everything has happened in my life and my relationship with my husband has been ruined.

"Ash, you can't escape the past. You need to face it so you can find peace. You need to go back all the way to get started again. Ash, if you can’t talk to him now, it will forever be a question in your mind why they did it to you. Why you out of all people."

"Nothing will change even if I will know the truth, Eugene, my life is ruined. My husband was angry with me and my father died of resentment. I'm so broken Euge, and that can't be changed. "

"But the truth can give you peace. You will lose the answers that you'll take for the rest of your life."

"No, I don't need it."

"Ashley, this is your last chance, he is dying and any moment from now you will never see him again. Don't lose this chance, this is the only chance you have. You deserved to know the truth, you deserve to have peace of mind."

Should I?

Do I need to know the truth behind those painful happenings that change my life?

"This is all about you Ash, a part of your past that needs to be answered."

I think he is right. It looks like I need to talk to that man and I need to know the truth. For my peace. I had to answer all the questions that were bothering my mind.

'Why did they choose me?'

'Why did they do that to me?'

"Fine, I think you're right." I immediately went to the passenger seat of Eugene’s car. But even before I opened the door I heard a loud shout.

"Ashley!" At the same time, Eugene and I turned to Asher who now gritting his teeth. "Ow! Eugene Taylor, a great catcher. And where are you going, Ashley? We already talk, right?" Asher asked annoyed but I didn't answer.

"Where are you going to take my wife, Eugene Taylor?" Yes, wife, he will fight for it because we haven't annulled it yet.

Eugene didn't answer. Instead, he turned to me.

"It's your call, Ashley," Eugene called to me. Suddenly all my courage had vanished earlier when I saw Asher. I suddenly wondered if I would go with Eugene.

"I can charge you with bigamy or adultery," Asher continued.

"Do what you want, Asher, but as far as I know, your case is only valid if you see us in bed on top of each other. Am I right?" Eugene asked him. " Wait for us until we do that. Before you talk about what you don't know." He then turned to me a second time.

"Eugene," I softly called his name.

"Ashley, it's now or never." And I heard the door lock click. The passenger set lock is open.

I look at Asher who is staring while clenching his fist at me.

"Ashley, this is all about your life," I looked at Eugene and looked at Asher. I don't know what to do.

It's now or never.

Dax is right, this is all about me.

That man is dying.

What if he dies?

How else can I know the truth?

I need to know the truth before he disappears completely or I am even more restless.

"I'm sorry, Asher, I hope you'll forgive me." Then I got in Eugene's car.

Eugene started the car and drove fast. I saw in the rearview mirror the angry face of Asher as he hit the bumper of his car.

I want to know the truth, why they did that to me, why me? I'm sorry Asher. If you want to punish me after this the do it. What matters to me now is that I need to know the truth.