Chapter Thirty five

Noah Williams

My son." I called him,my voice breaking in between. I we slowly walked into the room.

"Papa." He whispered unsurely.

I tried touching him but he cowered away in fear. My heart shattered into a million pieces by his actions. Now I understood why I had a connection with him.  Back the event when he asked for food to eat and gave him, when I watched him eat I had that feeling of satisfaction like I provided for him,and also that feeling of making him a happy all those emotions were now explained.

" My little boy xavier, I'm so sorry ,I didn't know you were my son." I did feeling hot tears stain on my cheeks.

"Please don't run away from me, please don't run away from your father I love you."his eyes brightened at my words ,he came a little bit closer to me but not too close.

I feel down to the ground infront of him,my hands flew to his face to feel them, his cheek was also stained with tears. I can't believe I have a son,I will never forgive her for this. I asked her if xavier was my son and she lied to me to my face. She was heartless and cold blooded,back then she was so kind and loving.

"My precious boy , Papa is here." I muttered lovingly to him.

"Are...are you really my father." He asked stammering, his little hands also held my face. My son was so wise and intelligent, I was truly lucky to have his has a son.

" Yes I am xavier,you are my son, I'm your father."I said reassuringly.

"Then why did you leave. Why did you abandoned me with that evil women. Is she really my mom." He asked weeping sorrowfully ,his eyes darkening as he looked at me.

"I never intentionally wanted to abandon you, I didn't know you existed until some minutes ago."

" My mother never said anything about you not knowing about me,she said you knew I existed ,you just wanted nothing to do with me. I hate her ,she such a heartless bitch."he spat out in anger imitating his mother characteristics. The way she glared or how her nose scrunched when she's angry.

"you don't say such cruel words about your mother xavier,no matter what she dies. Yes she is your mother and she's not evil she just went through some had time during her youth and that lead her to make some wrong decision."I defended her knowing fully well I shouldn't,but I also had to understand her point of view. I would have done the same if I was in her shoes.

"Then If you are my father why did you leave me. My mother said I wasn't good enough for you."his said sobbing. Why would Victoria say such cruel words to a child. Even if she hated me , xavier was still her son. You don't tell little children there weren't good enough.

"You are perfect xavier, I'm the one who isn't good enough,I didn't search for you and your mother to fix things rightly." I said to him bowing my head down in shame.

" So will you stay with me , please don't leave me again Noah, please don't leave me alone with her." Xavier said begging me,I looked at him in sorrow,I  threaded a hand through his long brown hair in comfort. My some was very handsome,he got all my looks. I wondered what Victoria has done to make our son loathe her. Our son I loved the sound of that.

"I swear on my life I wouldn't ever leave you xavier, you are my son,the most important person in my life ,now are now stuck with me."I said patting him lightly on his shoulder.

"I want to be stuck with you forever Naoh." His words warmed my heart.

" I want to be stuck with you too." This beautiful moment would have been more beautiful if Victoria was here.

I used my hands to wipe his tears, his sadness had turn into a full smile making happy too.

"Are you going to leave here with us or are you leaving again" his last words held sadness again, he was insecure of himself,I have to make sure I remove all the doubt in his mind and replacing it beautiful memories.

"No Xavier but I promise to come   check up on you every y."he nodded his head in happiness.

" Will you take me to school,I want to show all my friends I have a father too."he said in an excited tone , I couldn't wait to the day he called me father, I will be the happiest man in the world.

" Now lets go meet your grandpa,we have a lot to talk about "

I held his hands in mine and led him down the stairs,I was feeling all kinds of emotions right now. Happy,sad, furious, grateful.

I pushed all the emotions to the back of my mind,this wasn't the right time to feel sorry for myself.

"Grandpa, grandpa I have a dad,now all my friend in school wouldn't  laugh at me anymore." Xavier said running into the kitchen where his grandfather sat eating.

The man choke on his food not obviously expecting the Xavier's words said

"What do you mean you now have a father,who told you that." Mr John asked using the napkin to clean his mouth. He looked a sip of his wine and choked again when xavier pointed to me happily.

" I told him." His eyes turned from Xavier to meet mine.

"You told xavier you are his father."

" Yes I told him so ,cause that what I'm and am very sure you know that too ,now the question is why wouldn't you tell me Mr John, we have done alots of business together ,we were friends, didn't you think for a second I deserve to know that I have a son ."

" It wasn't my place to tell you." He muttered bowing his heads. I could feel his remorse,it wasn't his place,it was Victoria.

" So you knew."

"Yes I did,I found out through a private source of mine,my daughter never said anything to me. All my previous attempt to get answers from her failed so I had no other option but to find out through an investigator."

I let out a long sigh, now that we have a son together I was going to wait for Victoria to come back and tell me the reason why she didn't tell me. It was confrontation time.

The sound of my ringing phone snapped me out of my thoughts.

"What is it." I asked the person calling not bothering to check.

"Noah my love,I have the test results with me. Baby am pregnant with your baby."