Chapter fifty three

Victoria John Philip

"I will take my car and follow behind yours " I told him instead of asking as we exited of my office building, with curious eyes of my employees, probably wondering what is our pregnant boss doing with a soon to be married man.

"Come on Victoria, if we take my car it will save us from unnecessary stressed."he said running his hands through his hair in frustration. My hands itched to replace it.

I can't stay in the same car with him when I feel like jumping on his bones,curse my pregnancy hormones.

"What do you mean?" I asked stupidity,my mind already going to different places of how to tear his shirt into pieces and jump on his bones.

" you are very pregnant and shouldn't be driving,I will be stupid to let you drive alone. It will be too dangerous for you to drive ,what if you hit something or worst you hit something. " He said throwing his hands in the hair,he was so dramatic. I was only about five months pregnant.

"I prefer dying rather to be in the same car with you,the fact that I'm pregnant with your baby doesn't mean that I'm sick and handicap, I'm very much capable of driving on my own." I snapped and went towards my car, thankfully I have a spare Ferrari I keep pack incase of emergencies like this.

I really dont know why he keep pissing me off. I mean cant he just live and let me live. I hated him already, I'm only following him calmly because some how I care for my son deep down,even though I hardly show it. After carrying xavier for nine months,I have a bond with him even though I try to deny it.

His words were running in my mind. Mental illness... Marriage..uh. It is true that I haven't been the best mother and I definitely don't deserve the mother of the year award. But marrying Noah can't be the only solution to solve xavier sudden illness, I'm no doctor but I was sure they should be another way out.

I was following his car though out. I don't want to get lost anyway.

His car stopped in front of a big building, he opened his door and came out, I also stopped my car and gave keys to valet and went with him.

As we were getting closer to meet the I was getting nervous and fidgeting with my purse that I always carry. What was the doctor going to tell us? Was Amy son going to die before he gets to meet his siblings.

We took elevator and reached to 10th floor of the building. This didn't look like xavier school.

"This doesn't look like xavier school." I said voicing out my thoughts. Yes I don't know xavier school but I was sure this was not how a school looks like.

I can't believe you don't know your own son school ,my inner conscence mocked, making me feel worst that already was.

"Yes,but the teacher had a doctor come in to check on xavier and now we are going to see him to check and get the results." Noah said.

I could tell he love xavier,very much and I was sure he would be the best person to take care of xavier,why don't I just give him custody of xavier. I could see in xavier eyes when he rant about how cool and awesome Noah his to my father and jealousy always ends up burning my heart.

There was a office of doctor on the right whose name I supposed was Mr. Burke.

" Hi we have an appointment" Noah said walking up to the desk in front of me where a receptionist sat.

"Of course Mr. Noah Williams, he is expecting you and the lady. Please come"

We entered in the office. It was antique style room,with bookshelves on every corner of the room. On some walls, there were his degree hanged and at some places his pictures.

There was a big window just behind his chair. His table was neatly organized.

"Welcome Mr Noah, Its great to see you. I'm happy you came,when I heard that poor kid was your son I was greatly touch,that handsome young man doesn't deserve everything he is going through from the hands of his mother,that women is not fit to take a care of him."he said sorrowfully.

"I am sorry about your son. But I can assure you your son his save if you can follow this procedure I'm giving you"he continued giving Noah a pat on the shoulder.

Mr. Burke was saying truth as it was seen in his eyes. Later, he composed himself and looked at me.

"And please who are you?"he asked politely.

"This is Victoria the mother of xavier."Noah said giving me an apologetic look.

I saw the doctor face became red from embarrassment,it wasn't his fault he was right,I was sick in the head and unfit to be a mother,I just hope I'm not too late to be a good mother.

I forwarded my hand for shake , which he took and I said "Its a pleasure meeting you doctor,you are right about all what you said there's no need to hide the truth"

" I'm sorry for being unprofessional and rude and speaking bad-"

" No problem doctor, I'm happy you care about my son when I couldn't. Thank you."

"Please have a seat and we will begin". The doctor said.

He continued " I know you people have so many questions. I will answer them all. Be patient and listen carefully."

I took a deep breath as he begin talking.

"What Xavier is passing through mentally is not what a young boy at his age is not meant to go through,he hardly play with kids at school and he is always lonely. The teacher asked him to draw his family and he drew just this." He brought out a drawing of four people which includes,Noah,my father and me but on my picture he wrote dead. My heart broke into million pieces,I can't believe I'm dead to my son.

"The teacher ask him why he wrote that and he said his mother doesn't care about him and love him so she is dead to him. But he told his teacher she his pregnant with his sister so he might still love his mother if she gives him a sister to play with,he doesn't care if she doesn't love him ,he his use to it"

"I doubt that." Tears now running from my eyes ruining my mascara.

"I want to do everything I can to make sure my son is alright,I feel like the worst mother on earth."

I was about to collapse and I ran outside as to save myself from misery.

"Victoria,it's not your fault,it's all mine,so don't blame yourself." Noah said ,I could see his eyes fighting back the tears.

"So doctor,what do you think is best for us to do as parents."

"The only thing that can help xavier in this case ,is if he has a normal family,so my advice for you so to get married and make him have a normal, healthy, and happy family. "

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I drove back to my apartment in tears,I will do anything to save my son it's the least I could do after being a disgraceful mother.

I came back to home at five with out Noah who said he still had a lot if things to discuss with the doctor,a part of me was still waiting for his explanation. I took shower and took out one of the fancy outfits I had. The meeting has been postponed to six in the evening.

It was black sequins backless dress which had chiffon fabric that shows on neckline and area below ribcage just above the waist line.

I quickly curled my hairs and wore red lipstick. Applied liner and mascara and little blush on cheeks. I wore silver long earrings and white sandals.

It was exactly five thirty when my doorbell rang. It was my driver who told me he was ready.

I went down from my apartment to parking area where I saw my black shiny Ferrari.

The driver opened the door and I sat inside already. I just went in and driver closed the door.

I reached my office after what felt like a long drive. The driver opened our doors for me to step out.

I walked into my office building to see naoh wearing a very elegant grey suit with black shirt that had white buttons. Neatly combed slicked back hairs.

We haven't discussed yet about what the doctor said and I was feeling nervous,does he want to marry me. I was twenty eight years and the idea of marriage only crossed my mind whenever I was with him.

What about your fiancee Andrew?those he know about this,he traveled half way across the continent to leave with you.

The meeting consisted of the board of directors,Noah , Andrew and I and through out the meeting my mind always raced to my son.

The meeting was really boring. I kept on walking with Andrew meeting people and getting introduce to new investors. They discuss mostly of business and later on Andrew got a call ond disappeared from my side.

The meeting was over and i saw Noah came to me and to my astonishment he kept his hands on my waist just above me hips. His fingers touched my bare area and he pulled me closer.

I looked at him for answers when he smiled and whispered in my ear .

"Come with me Victoria"

"But we are in public Noah,we could get caught ."

"Don't worry about what other thinks, just relax yourself,we are only two mature adults walking together"

We climbed up the stairs where we were greeted by the organizing people,after the meeting the board of directors had secretly organized a small party for celebration.

There was a table reserved for everything and that had two chairs.

Thank god my feet my were killing me.

Food was served to us and it was superbly delicious. Then Noah again went to meet some people and I kept sitting on the chair alone,my feet and back were hurting me.

Then people started to dance. I looked them but back in mind, I wanted to go home and sleep.

Noah came back to me to keep me company.

"Come dance with me, wife. "

Sirens were ringing in my head

telling me not to go,Andrew was here in this party,I don't want him to suspect a thing.

"I can't dance"I made an excuse,the last thing I wanted was to get caught,Andrew already believes he is the father of my kids.

He grabbed my hands lightly and pulled me gently to dance floor.

I looked around here and there but no one saw what had happened since everyone was busy in eating or dancing.

He put his both hands again on my bare area making me gaps from the shiver and shock running down my spine.

" Keep your hands on my shoulder" He said with a smile.

I did what he told me and follow his lead.

"See that was easy" he said with a winning smile.

"I want to go home" I said. It was the only way to escape from him.

"Not yet" he said and he pulled me closer

"Wh- what are you doing ?" I said in slow voice.

He moved his one hand from my waist to my bare back. And that time I don't regret wearing this dress.

He trailed his fingers from down to upward and then again downward. I felt chills run through my spine.

My subconscious was telling me to run but I couldn't move. He had hold me strongly.

then he bought his moving hand from my back to my neck that was hiding behind my hairs and he came close to back but I was in his strong arms. He kept moving forward towards my lips.

And with in blink, he brushed his lips on side of my lips. I could feel his breath and it was intoxicating.

"What the hell is going on here."