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"Sometimes things happen and we have no control over our response or the outcome."

Amelia's POV

Come to the hospital.

That's all the text from Ryan said.

Come to the hospital.

Who would've know such a small thing like that could send multiple horrendous thoughts flying through my mind? Just put those four little words in that particular order and my heart was hammering and I was a mess of nerves. That being said I was there in record timing.

I didn't bother going to the front desk. I didn't have time and part of me just didn't want to. Cold crisp hospital air wrapped around me and I shuddered softly.

I walked briskly down the hallways. White. All I saw was white.

The clean tiled floor was white and my shoes made weird noises against them. The drywall was white, its rigid paint a bumpy work of art. The chairs I passed were white. The chairs full of sick people waiting or families urgent for news. They were mostly if not all from my pack. The people whispered with each other some crying and in pain. I glanced over them and made my way again down the hallway.

The never ending hallway.

I passed a nurse in a white suit, but that suit was smeared with red. Red of a blooming rose, red of a robins feather. The red of an apple sitting patiently on a desk.

The ominous signature of the crimson life source we all must upkeep. Fore without this ruddy liquid we cannot live.

So I stared at the blood on her suit and frowned, because someone needed that blood, but instead it was there on her suit.

"The Ravenwolf boy is that way." She said suddenly pointing down the hall. How did she know that's who I was looking for? Had she been with him? Was the scarlet marring her pearly white clothing his?

I glanced toward were her finger had pointed and gulped softly. My heart pounded. I went to ask her what had happened, but she'd vanished.

So I made my way down the hallway. I felt sick. My stomach churned with wariness and uncertainty.

I finally reached a door and the aluminum knob groaned as it turned in my clammy hands. The door let out a screaming creak as I opened it almost as if it were warning me to leave and not enter.

I saw Nancy first, then realized Ryan, and Kaden's parents were in the room as well as a few nurses and a doctor. I stepped inside and instantly regretted it as the door closed behind me bringing most of the attention to myself and also encasing me in a room of horrors.

"Amelia, you're here." I heard Nancy say, but I was too in denial to acknowledge her as I stared at the trickery on the hospital bed.

There Kaden lay cut up and marred with blood, blood dried and fresh. His hair was a mess and his mouth was slightly open in a silent whisper. Cuts lined his arms and neck. What appeared to be burn marks riddled his arms as well.

The heart monitor beeped slowly. I looked at it and frowned, not liking how long it was taking in between the not so subtle sounds emitted.

I was too fearful to look at Kaden again... not because I was scared to see him, but I was scared of the look of death the shadowed his features.

"What happened...?" I managed to get out and Katlyn cried on Clayton's shoulder whereas Ryan growled, "He did it to himself."

My chest tightened as I risked a glance at my mate and I backed away grabbing frantically at the door handle. I needed out; I needed to breathe.

I managed to open the door and sprinted out of the room. White blurred past me and I ran on. Unfortunately, I didn't make it far. My eyes burned with unshed tears and soon I lost my footing and toppled to the ground, my legs giving up on me.

I curled up beside the wall as my body shook with sadness. Rain howled inside of me desperately trying to somehow contact her mate, but nothing was returned.

I never wanted him to hurt himself, I just wanted him to know our pain... Rain howled in anguish.

I sat there and tears ran down my eyes. My lips quivered as I fought to control the horrid sobs raging in my throat fighting to come out.

After some time I got up and went back toward the room.

I entered and tried my best to put on a brave face, but I was hurting.

I walked right up to my lifeless mate. The only thing telling me he was still alive was the slight rise and fall of his chest and the eerie electric noise of the monitor.

I watched the jumping lines for a moment before settling my eyes on the sickly person that was my mate.

His eyes were shut and he almost looked peaceful, if it weren't for the horrible frowns that would mar his brow ever so often that made him seem like a man being tortured.

My heart ached at the sight and I whined lowly.

"Kaden." I breathed in a tight voice and brushed the matted hair off of his forehead. He was unresponsive to my touch, he didn't show any signs that he felt me or heard me. Nothing, yet sparks still zapped my fingers though they were incredibly dull.

Rain whimpered and more tears pricked my eyes. I backed away from him, unable to be so close to, yet so far from the man I'd grown so fond for and so resentful of.

I raised my hands and covered my eyes as I cried and my back pressed against the hard surface of the wall as my cries flew into hysteria. I looked up and everyone was just standing around, no one was doing anything.

"Help him! Make him wake up! Why won't he wake up?" I cried and everyone just looked at one another, not a word was uttered.

I looked at the nurses and doctor, "Give him something! Wake him up!" I was yelling now and the doctor blinked slowly.

"We can't do anything child... It's in Goddess's hands now." The doctor said and I growled.

"He loves you, ya know?" Someone said and I growled softly.

"Help him." I spat. I didn't want to hear that he loved me unless it was coming from his own mouth.

I looked at him laying on the bed and my vision blurred until I blinked the tears away.

Suddenly a chilling continuous blare was heard I looked at the monitor in dismay. The line was flat and it raced across the screen as the noise wailed like a siren.

I covered my ears trying to block out the heart shattering noise. My legs gave out and I scrambled to his bedside. I gripped his shoulders and shook him.

"No! Kaden no!" I yelled and everyone was as silent as the dead.

"Amelia!" Someone yelled and I buried my face against my lost one.

My tears fell onto him as I cried in agony.

"Amelia!" The yell repeated.

"Amelia!" I felt my body jolt and I looked around in shock, my breath labored and ragged.

I was in my room and it took me a moment to register that Noah was holding me and shaking me urgently.

"I'm okay." I croaked and he sighed and turned me to face him. His dark eyes were etched with worry and he cupped my cheeks.

"What happened? You wouldn't wake up." He said and I let out a breath.

"I had a nightmare." I breathed and he wiped under my eyes and kissed my forehead.

"You scared me." He sighed and kissed my nose and I gave a weak smile before he kissed my lips.

"What was the dream about?" He asked softly and I swallowed.

"My mate..." I sighed and Noah paused.

"Oh... what happened?" He asked and I shuddered.

"He died." I croaked and Noah sighed.

"You still love him?" He asked and I was silent. I didn't know how to say it. Hell I didn't even know the answer.

"I don't know..." I whimpered and Noah pulled me down for a long kiss.

"If you do I understand." He said as he pulled away before hugging me to him.

"You were never mine to keep in the first place." He added softly and I pulled away from hin.

"This has to stop, Noah. I can't do this." I sighed and he held me tighter before letting go.

"I know. We had a nice run Amelia." He said and sighed before getting out of bed.

"I'll head home." He said and I nodded.

"I hope everything works out." He sighed before leaving and as soon as the door shut I grabbed my phone.

Ryan is everything okay? Is Kaden okay? I texted the beta and laid my phone beside me.

After a while I got a reply.

Fine... why? I let out a breath of relief.

Just wondering. I replied and settled down for sleep. I sighed and stared at the ceiling.

I wanted to go to him... but how could I face him now?