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"Sometimes we have to just take a leap of faith and hope for the best."

Kaden's POV

She wanted me.

I could see it in those gorgeous eyes of hers as she yelled and cursed at me.

Her eyes had clouded with emotion the moment she laid them on me. The scent of desire radiated off of her. I knew she wanted me. But she wasn't giving in.

Admittedly it pissed me off. How could I be so close to her yet so damn far? She watched me with scrutinizing eyes.

It was painful watching her. She'd turned into everything I'd once thought I wanted as my Luna: Authoritative, fierce, strong... but I didn't want that now. Now I wanted the old Amelia back. The one inwardly begging for some love and compassion. The one I screwed over so many damn times.

Here I was, trying to be better, trying to love her... and she wasn't kneeling to my affection. No, instead she'd dodged it like it would harm her. I just wanted her with me.

Hell, I'd give up my Alpha title if that meant she'd be mine. I'd love her till my last breath. Damnit, why didn't she accept that?

She was mine. All mine. I didn't want any other. And if by some act of the Goddess that Amelia suddenly not be my mate, I wouldn't care. I'd still go for her. No one would change that. No one. No second chance mate for me, because I didn't want a second chance... I wanted the lovely young woman whom was still mine. The one that I knew wanted me too, but she was denying me her affections.

She was the only one. Her.

Right here with me. She was the only one I'd ever allow to sneak into my heart. The only one I'd do acts with that I'd never wasted on pitied whores. The one that I'd fall to me knees and beg to if I must. The one I'd make love to all hours of the night. Her.

No one could be better. No one else could suffice. No other woman could top her.

She was intelligent, beautiful, lovely, and in more recent times a stubborn bitch, but I loved her still. She was my everything.

So you can imagine why I kissed her.

And in kissing her I knew very well she'd probably push me away, but I didn't care. I wanted this to work. I wanted to show her we could make it work.

So in that moment I had her against the wall I knew exactly what to do and how I'd come about it. Of course she tried to push me off, but I wouldn't budge, because looking into her angry eyes gave way to the longing buried deep in her orbs. I caught the soft flicker of want and the sliver of pain. I knew it was hurting her too, to be so close to the one we'd open our hearts to.

I kissed her. I kissed her roughly; I didn't care. She whimpered and I deepened the kiss, pressing her body against mine. Her hands gripped my shirt and I continued to kiss her. Then I got my answer as her lips moved with mine and I growled in approval.

In that moment nothing else mattered. It was just me and her and the love she tried her damnedest to hide. I grabbed her hips and her soft moan sparked every feeling I'd ever felt for her.

She was everything I wanted and everything I'd have.

"Everything was just so complicated and confusingly fantastic."

Amelia's POV

My eyes closed as he growled and pulled me roughly against him. My fingers curled into fists against his shirt as the kiss deepened. His lips were vengeful and angry as they smashed against mine. His mouth overpowered mine with ease and my legs grew weak with every passing second.

Kaden... His name clouded my thoughts and all I wanted was for him to keep kissing me.

I finally managed to come back to my senses and I pulled away out of his grasp. My breaths came out in shocked pants and I covered my mouth with my hand trying to push away the sparks and focus on the fact that I was still angry even more so now. A smirk tugged at his lips.

"Don't." I spat and slapped him as he tried to come at me again. The smirk faded.

How could he?

"Don't touch me again. Don't kiss me. Just get the fuck out." I snapped and pushed him toward the door.

Why'd he have to come here? Why'd he have to make me feel this? Why couldn't he just leave?

"Amelia I swear to Goddess I'll--" Kaden started.

"What? What will you do?! Nothing, now get out, please." My voice cracked a little and I turned away from him as he scoffed and backed up.

"Baby--"

My heart ached as he tried to walk to me, his hand out. He stopped walking abruptly and let his hand fall.

"Please." I said and covered my face in my hands.

Don't you cry. I told myself as I took a deep breath.

"How many times do I have to apologize?" Kaden grumbled and sighed before going towards the door.

I forgive you. You don't have to apologize... I couldn't say it aloud though. My hands dropped from my face.

I looked at the ground and held my tongue.

"Nice ceramic, eh?" He said and I glanced up to see that his eyes had found my birthday present from Heather; the two wolves; us.

"Stop acting like you don't want me. I love you and this really hurts Amelia..." Kaden growled softly.

His head hung low as he opened the door and I didn't look at him as I shut and locked it.

I backed away from the door, my hands shaking.

I went into my room and hopped in the shower trying to ignore the intense emotions taking over me. I wanted to run out after him. But I was still angry at him I wanted him to know that.

I didn't want to be angry, but I was. I couldn't help it....

I clenched my jaw and washed my hair flinching as I remembered that night where he'd bathed me. I could suddenly feel his hands all over me and I sighed in longing.

By the time I was out of the shower I was admittedly frantic, yet I held myself at bay. I let out a sigh and climbed into bed after slipping on some clothes, underwear and a large shirt... actually one of Kaden's shirts that I'd taken, by accident.

I don't know how long I laid there, but I couldn't take it any longer. I needed to at least let him sleep over. He did look very tired and depressed and what do I do? I just toss him out. Plus he could still try to kill himself...

And I also wanted to see him... I'd regrettably missed him.

I hurried out of my room, not bothering to put on shoes. I grabbed my car keys also telling myself I was ready to make a journey if needed.

My heart was pounding as I gripped the doorknob.

I opened the door and began to go outside only to halt immediately with one foot out the door.

There he sat. One leg splayed out against the floor the other bent upwards his elbow propped on his knee. He was leaned against the wall next to my door, his head down. His hair was disheveled and his hand laid over his eyes. I looked at him in shock and he lowered his hand and met my eyes with his reddened ones.

Kaden... don't cry. I groaned inwardly and the sight of his tearful eyes brought stinging tears to mine; I looked away from him as I blinked them gone.

He went to stand and I backed into the house.

"Come on." I said and he followed me inside. I heard him close my door and I threw my keys on the coffee table by the couch. I started toward my room.

"Take the couch." I said softly and walked on. I could feel his golden gaze on me as I walked and you can best believe I didn't make it too far.

I froze as I felt his hand grip my wrist and he growled painfully.

"Lay with me." He whispered and I sighed my chest rose and fell in hidden pain and I risked a glance at him.

Kaden's eyes instantly captivated mine and bored into my soul. His eyes were glossy and heavy with unshed tears. I looked away from him and started again toward my room. He wasn't moving and I then stopped trying to walk since I wasn't going anywhere. I took a deep breath and briefly closed my eyes.