Oh Well

"Sometimes we have to be alone."

I walked back inside my mind empty, my body numb. My wolf had vanished for now the strong side of her momentarily breaking and she retreated to mourn in solitude. I made my way down the hallway and paused when I heard a groan.

Stay cool Melia. Stay cool. I told myself as I walked on toward the room. Again I heard a groan followed this time by a thud and a high pitched moan, obviously Amy. I gulped softly and stopped in my tracks.

Open the door sweetie. It's okay. My mind stated and I took a deep breath and opened the door.

My heart banged against my chest and I told myself I wouldn't cry as I saw a shirtless Kaden laying in bed with Amy who was only in skimpy undergarments.

I felt like I was in some movie. Like a movie add I'd seen once.

Something about a woman seeing the "perfect couple" and telling herself not to look... but she looked. That was me. I looked and it hurt.

Amy was on top of my mate while she ground herself against him and everything in my vision faded to red. I wanted blood. I wanted them dead. But instead I closed my eyes and let a growl slip out. They weren't worth it. He wasn't worth it.

Of course by now they'd noticed my presence. I opened my eyes to find them looking at me with not an ounce of shame. Not a flicker of guilt. My jaw ticked slightly.

I shook my head softly and walked over to the dresser ignoring the two and grabbed my hoodie out of it and slipped it on. I loved how the dark cloth enveloped me. It was warm and comforting and I threw on the hood smiling bitterly as it almost covered my face.

I reached in and grabbed my training tape that I used for my knuckles. I pushed aside my boxing gloves in the process. It'd been a while since I sparred, the gloves were a gift from Heather when I told her that I'd punched through a wall one night. I chuckled softly remembering her startled reaction.

I stood silently and taped up my knuckles before flexing my hands and putting the tape back and pondering whether or not to bring the gloves along. I decided not to and I shut the drawer with a soft slam.

I didn't even bother giving them a glance as I walked out.

****

I glared at the tree in front of me and punched it again. I couldn't comprehend the anger and turmoil inside of me.

"Fuck him. He can fuck her all he wants." I growled and punched it again.

"Stupid son of a bitch. Why Goddess? Why?" I added and punched the tree harder.

"Don't you know how much shit I've gone through? How much pain? And y-you pair me up with that? That heartless monster? Is this a joke?!" I snarled and punched the tree hard not caring about the shocks rippling up my arm.

"I wanted so badly to kill them right there... he's supposed to be mine. Is this my purpose Moon Goddess: to be tormented every day of my life? Is that what you want?! Just kill me already! Let me die please! I'm begging you!" I cried and pulled at my hair.

"Amelia." A deep voice made me turn to see Ryan. He walked over and gripped my shoulders.

"Don't say that, don't think like that... it'll be okay. Death isn't the answer." He said staring into my eyes and I scoffed and pushed him away from me.

"Don't tell me it'll be okay! How?! How will it be okay?! He's in there having sex with another woman! It will never be okay!" I screamed and punched the tree with all my might and my fist smashed through the bark. I looked at the hunk of trunk missing and sobbed softly.

"He's what?" Ryan whispered softly.

"He's fucking that bitch!" I yelled and my body started shaking violently.

"Fuck... What the hell is he thinking? That's going to damn far. I-shit-come here Amelia." Ryan growled and hugged my and I clenched my hands on his shoulders. My head laid on his chest and I broke down. Sobs raked my body and I cried and screamed into his shirt. His breath was becoming ragged as he held me and rocked me gently whispering something to me that I couldn't grasp, but it was soothing.

"He doesn't love me... Ryan he doesn't love me." I whimpered and the beta growled darkly.

"Come with me." He said and pulled me toward the house.

Once inside he led me through the halls and I flinched as I heard groaning. He growled and pulled me into a room and shut the door. I realized that it was his room and the door being shut cut out the noises. I whimpered softly and he grabbed my hand and slowly began taking off the tape. Once he was done he did the same to my other hand.

He massaged my fingers for a bit before pulling my hood from my face and brushing my hair back. Soft sobs still escaped me. I just couldn't stop crying.

"I'm going to beat his ass Lia." Ryan groaned and I couldn't help but be a bit confused by the nickname. He chuckled bitterly apparently noticing.

"Sorry I just thought of it... if you don't want me to call you th--" he began and I gave him a weak smile.

"It's fine Ry." I said and he smiled softly. He brushed the tears running down my face and he tugged me toward his bed.

"I haven't had a woman in here since my mate passed." Ryan said softly and I looked at him in shock.

"I'm so sorry." I said past my tears and he surprised me by giving a humorless laugh.

"Don't be... My mate cheated on me with... Kaden. I was so blind I never realized they were screwing around until the day I walked in on them... I'd just marked her. I was so angry and I rejected her. She cried to me, begged me to reconsider, but I was done with her. She... she killed herself a few weeks afterwards." Ryan growled and stared at nothing then he blinked.

"Part of me hates Kaden, another part just pities him. Be the way he behaves he'll never now real love; he'll never experience what me and my mate once had." Ryan sighed and I didn't know what to do.

I didn't know what to say.

"Just be glad you're not marked. I'd marked her. I could feel it... her having sex with him, that's how I caught them. It was like being stabbed over and over; everything they were doing was torturing me. My wolf kept howling 'How could she? How could she?' While he whined and snarled. I almost couldn't restrain him from murder that night, but I managed. Just be glad you're not marked..." Ryan said sounding distant and I nudged him. He shook himself and cleared his throat.

"Don't cry over him." He said softly and clambered into bed.

"You're welcome to share my bed Lia." He said and I trudged over and plopped down beside him. I was facing him and he smiled softly. He hesitated before wrapping his arms around me and pulling me against him. For a moment I froze against his warm body. My head ended up in the crook of his neck and my body was pressed against his. He growled in approval as I cuddled against him.

"I'm liking this too much." Ryan said softly and I sighed. He felt so warm and his body fit nicely against mine. He actually was making me feel better and safe.

"Me too." I sighed and he laid his chin against my head.

"You got my back if Kaden tries to kill me?" Ryan said and I smiled bitterly.

"If he tries I'll be fighting right beside you." I breathed and he let out a breath and pulled the sheets over us.

"Goodnight Lia." Ryan said softly.

"Goodnight Ry." I breathed and he held me tighter. Soon sleep swallowed me up.