THIRTY

I cleaned my face with a towel, took the sticks from the counter and moved to open the door. Roy was standing just a feet apart, her hand raised up ready to bang on the door. She took in my red eyes and puffy cheeks, her facial expressions calming. I walked past her to sit on the bed.

" So I take it, you are pregnant. " She asked, coming to sit beside me. I gave her the sticks for her to check herself. She took it from my hand, looking down at it and a grin graced her face.

The grin was washed off when she looked at my face.

" aren't you happy about this? "

" I don't know Vicky , a part of me Is happy and another is worried. The latter dominates the first. " I say to her, my hands placed on my tummy, rubbing it softly.

" What exactly are you worried about, Giovanni loves you and I'm sure he would be happy about the baby as well. "

" we aren't sure about that. He already has Alexander, we don't know if he wants another baby. We have never had such a discussion, I'm also scared, Vicky."

" She looked at me worried. ``Please don't tell me you are thinking of aborting this baby."

I gasped, shocked at her words. " what..... No way, never. I know it wasn't planned for, but this is my child and I would be damned if I let anything happen to him or her. "

She let out a breath of relief and a smile formed on her face. She put her hand on mine that was placed securely on my tummy.

" See, you are already protective of him or her. You are already a great mom Roy, look at Alexander. He loves you so much, and also you aren't doing this alone. I know both father and son will be with you every step of the way. "

" you think. What if he doesn't want any more children and he's okay with just Alexander or he gets angry when he finds out. " my voice quavered. I didn't know what to expect.

" I know he would love and cherish this child, it's his child after all as well as Alexander." She says, pulling me to a side hug.

" Besides you have me as well. I will always be there every step of the way, so I better be the godmother. Okay" She teases and we both let out a laugh.

I pretend to think about it, making her nudge my shoulders and we laugh again.

" Thanks Vicky , I don't know what I would do without you. Thanks. "

" no problem girls. " she says, waving my words off. ``When are you going to tell Giovanni."

" about that. " I let out a breath. " I think I'm going to hold off from telling him for now."

" what. Why.. " she voiced her surprise.

" Till we get a doctor's confirmation, we can't just depend on the test kit. So I need to book an appointment with my family doctor to be sure. " I explained.

" I understand, when do you plan on going."

" Probably this week, I need to talk to Doctor Madeline first to be sure. Will you accompany me to the hospital? "

" like hell would I let you go alone, of course I will follow you." she stated in a matter of fact tone.

I let out a smile, nodding my head. " Thanks a lot Vicky. I just have one more request. " I raised a finger up with a pleading look.

``What is it. " she asks playfully, rolling her eyes.

" Can we keep this between us until I have told Giovanni. I don't want Richard or my parents to know yet. ".

``Okay, I understand. It's best Giovanni knows before the others." she replies.

" You're having a baby. " Vicky says, with a smile on her face .

I laughed. ``Yeah, Vicky. I'm having a baby. "