Chapter 58

"O-Oh!" I also did a finger heart with him.

"What is that??"

"M-My gift to you."

Is that still being asked?? Well, I didn't ask him because he said he was going to give me something, but it was an f-finger heart.

"Did you co-confess your feelings to me now? What if I accept your heart and we're together right away?"

"W-What are you talking about there??"

I asked confused. Shall I co-confess with him? What??!

"Nothing hahah! I'd like to trip you but I guess you're not the type of person who can be tripped up especially when it's about love."

Tsk, why did he say that?

I just drank wine and looked up, I watched the stars that were still twinkling.

A few seconds later I looked back at Xander and he also looked up while staring at the sky. It's not that dark out here because the moon is so bright today, it serves as the light around.

I can't take my eyes off of him now. I just thought that the girl who will fall in love with him must be very...very lucky? Am I crazy if I dream of being that girl?

When did I start liking him? That day my son had an accident? He was ugly but he helped me get to the hospital, didn't he...

Maybe those days when we always fight, those days when I get annoyed with him...maybe I like him now?

Or maybe once we agreed on something? About sex and love. That was our first conversation, a long conversation.

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I just held my breath. In just a few minutes, it was like a flashback of everything that happened. I haven't even been here for a month but a lot has happened, in the few weeks I've been here, in just a few days...I'll just re-realize that I've fallen in love with a man again.

Even with my boss who is asexual? Out of so many men, is he still---

"Are you thinking too deeply?" I turned to Xander and I saw that his face was red.

"Are you drunk yet?"

"N-No, I'm not drunk!" He laughed and frowned.

"Hmm, is there a problem?" I will ask. He suddenly raised his head and looked directly into my eyes. I groaned when he suddenly squeezed my cheek.

"A-Oh my gosh! What the hell is the s-pain!"

I tried to remove his hand and looked at him badly.

"Are you crazy?! It's so painful!" I said in annoyance as I hit him.

"Ouchh! You're so cute, hayst!" He frowned while rubbing his head. He is like a child who was scolded by his mother.

"Sorry," I said.

"Tsk!" I was surprised when he threw away the bottle of wine he was holding. I heard it was broken somewhere.

"I'm sorry! Why do you have to throw it away!"

"You're still angry now?!"

Does he really want to challenge a fight now!!

"You didn't even greet me! You're bad!" It sounds like a child.

I suddenly remembered that I didn't really greet him. I just laughed at his behavior now.

"Happy Birthday! I mean, belated happy birthday Xander."

He was about to speak but he couldn't because I immediately hugged him. "Sorry." I hugged him even tighter.

"Belated happy birthday too." He greeted me then hugged me back. I let go of clinging to him and was about to walk away a little but he hugged me tighter and pressed his head on my neck.

I swallowed one after another because I could feel his breath hitting my neck.

"Don't leave me, Elyse." It's a sudden promise.

"Huh?" I understand what he said, what I don't understand is why is he telling me that? That I should not leave him?

"Whatever happens, don't leave me, okay?"

"Y-Of course!" I said and patted his back. "H-Wait! I can't breathe because your hug is so tight." I complained to him and I felt that he relieved me a little.

"Are you alright Xander?"

I can't see his face because his face is pressed against my neck. I can't even look at the expression on his face.

"I'm okay."

Maybe he is sad because Mrs. Ferrer? He didn't even congratulate his own son. Maybe he's busy? But even if he's too busy to even call Xander or I can't, he can tell Xander to say happy birthday to me.

"Are you sad because Mrs. Ferrer didn't wish you happy birthday?" I dare to ask.

"No, I'm used to it anyway. I can't even count how many times she has forgotten my birthday. Anyway, she's always busy...she doesn't like wasting her time--" I touched both shoulders and moved him away from me a little.

"Xander! Don't say that, what do you think of yourself? You think you're not worth it to waste time? If she's busy with work then she is busy but it doesn't mean that you're not worth it !"

"Am I worth it? Am I?" He looked me in the eye.

"Yes! You are worth it! Whoever says no, I will cut out the tongue!" I saw him smirk and he tried to hide it from me.

"What am I to you Elyse?" I was suddenly stopped by his question.

No, you can't confess now Elyse! Let's wait for the right time to tell him. I want to get closer to Xander and if I confess to him, he might be awkward with me and he might avoid me.

I swallowed before speaking.

"A friend..."

"Friend? That's all?"

Why do I feel like that's not the answer he wants to hear from me?

"A special friend...?" I asked for an answer. What does he want to hear from me?

"That's it?"

He sounds disappointed right now, and I don't understand why.

"Come on, let's go inside. You're already drunk." I'll change the topic. It's like he's serious and I'm going to be awkward, but even so, my heart is restless right now, it's beating constantly, especially since Xander is staring at me.

"Do you like me?"

I was even more nervous about his question.

Is that a sign? Should I confess to him? But I just realized that I like him and then he will confess to me right away? Can't it be tomorrow or maybe the next day!

"X-Xander you're drunk, let's go to the loo--"

"If you don't like me, slap me, but if you do think of me as more than friends..."

"...kiss me then."

I didn't show that I was surprised by what he was telling me now.

What if I kiss him? Won't he know that I like him? What will happen? It's a bit unfair if he is the only one who knows my feelings and I don't.

"What about you? Do you like me? If you don't like me, then you can just leave me here and if you do, then stay..."

A few seconds later, I stared at him and I thought he was just going to stay...

"I'm sorry,"

It was like my heart was pierced when he said that. I was stunned when he came down and entered the house, he left me alone without even looking back.

That feeling that I haven't even co-confessed and then I'm already busted.

I immediately wiped the tears from my eyes. It's a good thing I didn't say I like him, because it would have been more embarrassing if I had said it earlier but...why do I feel like he's making me think he doesn't like me?

He's the one who brought up this topic and now I'm the only one left here?! What the hell entered his brain and it became our topic! Annoying! I was so annoyed that I kept crying!

Wrong word Elyse! First admit that you are hurt.

I just cried and drank the rest of the wine in the bottle.

"I'm still really experiencing this. I'm almost thirty years old and I've just now experienced being busted!"

I jumped and almost lost my balance. "You pushed me, didn't you?!" I looked at Xander's car.

"You think you're handsome? What made you think you're the only man I'll ever meet!!" Because of annoyance, I kicked the wheel of the car.

"TANG"*YOU'RE A STUPID!!!!!" I screamed.

I was gasping for breath and I suddenly grabbed my throat because it hurt a bit.

I rubbed my eyes and started walking. I went inside and locked the door.

"Maybe that bastard is sleeping now!"

I slowly climbed the stairs and felt dizzy so I just crawled upstairs.

After I arrived I was now standing in front of Xander's door.

I was about to kick the door but it suddenly opened and Xander spat out. I laughed out loud while staring at him.

"You really left me because you didn't like me!!" I yelled at him.

He didn't finish what he had to say when I slapped him hard on the cheek.

"You idiot!! I want to tell you that I don't like you either!"

"Ouchh! I left because I was peeing okay! That's why I apologized, right?!"

"Huh?"

I blinked as I stared at him now that he was holding the cheek I slapped.

"You slap me just now so, you don't like me--"

"I-I want you!" I said bravely after kissing him on the lips.

"What??"

"I SAID IT! I LOVE YOU! JUST REPEAT--" I didn't finish what I was saying when he pulled my hand into his room.

I moaned weakly as he pushed me hard against the door. I stiffened when he kissed me on the lips and his two hands were now around my waist, I could feel one of his hands crawling towards my chest. He quickly took off his top cover and kissed me again.

I couldn't move my lips because it was like a dream happening to me. He stopped and put our foreheads together.

"I'm sorry. I should have asked your permission before doing--" I put my hand around his neck and I kissed him first.

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I woke up because something heavy was resting on my stomach and thigh.

When I opened my eyes I was surprised to see Xander next to me. He hugged me and put his foot on my thigh.

What the? Did something happen between the two of us??

I stared at him in shock now, I couldn't believe that what happened to us wasn't a dream. I smiled while staring at him, I touched his cheek, I crawled my index finger to his nose and to his lips.

I bit my lip for a moment remembering the kiss we shared last night, I was about to kiss her because I remembered that Elizabeth is at work today and she might be surprised when she wakes up that I'm not by her side.

I slowly removed his hand from my waist, as well as his foot. I got up and picked up my cover from the floor, I was surprised to see my panties. "Why is it torn?"

I frowned and turned to Xander who was now sound asleep.

"Tsk, is it necessary to tear it, you can take it off." I promise poorly.

I just put on my pajamas and t-shirt. I slowly came out of her room and I was surprised to see Elizabeth in front of me. I immediately hid my hand behind my back, I was just holding the torn panty.

"Mommy?"

"O-Oh, s-sweetie...you're awake hahah!" I scratched my shoulder because I knew what I was going to say to him or how I was going to explain to him how I ended up in Xander's room.

"Where did you sleep last night?"

My eyes widened at this question.

"H-Huh? Aren't we next to each other..."

I'm lying and I can't even look straight at my son.

He is staring at me now with his arms crossed. "Then what are you doing inside his room? Well, I don't remember waking up with you by my side, Mommy. Be honest with me. Did you sleep with him??"

I was about to speak but I suddenly froze when someone hugged me from behind. "Yeah, we did sleep together Elizabeth."