Chapter 73

I stopped the car and did what he said.

"Why?"

"Is there a problem, Sir?"

"What the f**k are you doing?!" I suddenly stopped the car and suddenly it sat on my thigh. I looked at him seriously.

"Haven't you had sex yet?" Where did that question come from?!

"Are you crazy?" I asked him.

"I'm sorry!" It fixed itself.

"Maybe he's okay?"

What is he muttering there?!

"Is it okay to take care of you huh? Just asking Sir Xander, are you independent??" He asked one question after another.

one more question, I'll leave him here on the road alone!

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"Hey! Elyse!"

"I didn't do anything to you, I just scolded you and then you cried?!" I asked with a frown.

"Why are you crying stupid!" It's looking at me now.

"B-Why are you rich people like that? A-Will you go with the m-poor?"

"What?! I don't know what you're talking about. Treat your wound, don't wait for me to treat it again because if that's what you want, don't expect anymore. You have a hand so-- "

"Are you crying because of the wound on your hand? Does it really hurt a lot huh?" I just asked him.

"No, I'm sorry I just suddenly remembered something. If you want, you can go to your room Sir Xander, I'll take care of it. Don't worry, I will clean it and polish the floor." He insisted.

"Are you floating?! Look at that, look at you f**king hand! Do you want me to lend you a mirror so you can see the wound on your hand?! Don't wait for me to fill you, you really are stupid, are you!?"

I pulled his hand. "Sit down," he pointed to the sofa behind him.

"But I'll clean it, won't I say m--arayy!"

He moaned when I pushed him on both shoulders so he sat on the sofa.

"U-Uhm, are you the ma--"

"What are you doing?"

"Huh?"

"Give me your other hand, stupid!"

"Should I cut it? Can't you just borrow it--it's just a joke." He said this while making peace. But it's a joke!

"Can you wash it to get rid of the blood." He looked at me before speaking.

"Don't worry, just put alcohol straight on." It said.

"Awww!" It moaned softly when I put alcohol on it.

"Take it easy!"

"Am I the alcoholic?" I asked philosophically.

"You look like a stupid, for real." I shook my head.

I took a tissue and gently dabbed his wound, then he put alcohol on it again.

She moaned again because of that but... "Ohhhh..." That moan was like enjoying it.

"Ahhhh, ohhhh sir take it easy..." It growled.

He slowly raised his head and I looked at him with a frown. "Are you crazy or just horny?"

"Sir Xander..." He seductively mentioned my name and because of that I let go of his hand.

He slowly came to me and held me by the shoulder with one of his uninjured hands.

"Do you want to try?" He whispered in my ear and kissed my neck.

I can't say what she is doing to me now...f**k this woman! She's crazy!

He pushed me to lie down on the sofa and immediately put me on top of him, a few seconds later I looked at him seriously.

done? What will he do next?

He was about to leave on top of me but I pulled his hand and brought our faces together now.

"Is this what you want?" I will ask.

"B-Just kidding!" He stuttered and couldn't look at me directly so I grabbed his jaw and made him face me.

"No matter what you say or do, I won't be attracted to you, just lie there in front of me or open your mouth if I tell you that I don't care." I whispered in his ear.

I heard his moan when I pushed him and stood up.

"It's art, aren't I beautiful?!"

"Look at yourself in the mirror then ask yourself." I promise.

I was surprised when he touched my chin. "Damn, you!!"

"A-Ah, ehhh I'm sorry!!!" He said and ran away.

"Xander? Why are you here drinking alone?" I turned and saw him.

Elyse...

I don't know why...my heart beats like this. Maybe because of the alcohol?

"Why should I take the crazy person out for a drink, right?"

It laughed and shook its head.

"You are really a philosopher, I will ask properly."

He also climbed up here. He put the bottle of wine behind me and sat next to me. I didn't say anything, I just continued drinking.

"Is there a problem?" It broke the silence.

"Nothing, I just want to be alone..."

"You...do you want me to leave you?" He asked but I didn't answer it right away.

"O-Okay, I'll leave. I'll just go back to the room."

"Stay, please stay, don't leave me."

I held his hand and looked him in the eye.

"Yes, I'm just here." He smiled greedily. "Still drinking," he said and took a bottle of wine from behind me.

He was about to open it but I grabbed it. "What the hell! I'm still drinking too!" He said with a frown.

"You will not drink, no one will drink, only I will drink." His forehead frowned even more but I didn't care.

He frowned while looking in another direction..

"Oh, just a little." but what I gave him was only a little of the meat.

"It's really only a little because it's only a little bit full, what do you think of me, kid? I'm just going to taste a little bit? You're so stupid, you still have three wines in there!"

I laughed because of what he said. "You complained?"

"Okay, I'll just take it--"

"It's annoying! It's just a joke!" He was annoyed by the promise and quickly drank it all.

"You're really stubborn, aren't you?" I noticed that he has been drinking more. I didn't notice that he took alcohol again.

He gave me a peace sign and then smiled. "Just sometimes heheh,"

"Why is it that when someone makes a mistake, they are judged immediately?" I suddenly asked.

"Even though you've done so many things right, you only make one mistake...that and that's all they'll remember. the kind where they suddenly forget the things you did right with them because you did wrong. There are also people who only see your mistakes, as if they are waiting for you to make mistakes." I added.

"Maybe we're only human? hmm, I don't want to come clean because I've also experienced judgment immediately like you said. I mean, maybe we are all people in the world...maybe others don't even notice that they are being judged by other people. Anyway, we all make mistakes, are judged and judged. all we need is to pray, ask for the call of the one we have judged and pray that the same will be the prayer of others."

I sighed. "I'm tired, Elyse,"

"I'm tired of this kind of society. I'm not going to say that I'm tired of this world because the world has nothing to do with it, we're just living in this world. The number one problem is the people around us."

I feel his hand patting my shoulder.

"What can we do? this is your new world, the one that just keeps up with the flow of the surroundings. Let's just try not to mind them, we have different lives to care and to live."

"I want to ask you something,"

"Hmm, what is that?"

"This is related to what we are talking about now." I swallowed when I saw that he read his own lips with his tongue.

"How does it feel to have someone who loves you?"

"Uhm, happy! He feels good of course." He promised.

"What do you think of me Elyse?" I asked him and he was obviously confused by my question.

"Huh?"

"What do you think of me? Do you think anyone will like me?" He suddenly laughed.

"I thought so. Of course there is! With your handsomeness, many people will like you!"

"Is it really like that? What if I'm not so handsome, no one will like me?

Why is that usually what I hear from women, when you are handsome, many will like each other..."

"Can't it be based on a man's behavior? Do you have to be handsome for someone to like you?"

"That's not what it means. it's true that many people will like you because you're handsome, it's also true that most of the time women look for handsome but the word like is different from love, because when you love a man or when you learn to love him first, you accept him for what he is . like whether you're ugly or handsome, whether your behavior is ugly or whether you're kind, as long as he accepts everything."

"There is also a woman who looks handsome and then falls in love with someone who is not handsome, in the eyes of other people that man is ugly but in the eyes of the woman he is the most handsome. That's how I was when I fell in love with Daren, I'm not saying that Daren is ugly, but I'm also not saying that he's so handsome, that no one can really compare."

"What I mean is it's really different when you love first, because you're only looking at him and even if another man passes by in front of me, I don't care. I remember then, there was a handsome man standing next to me, but when I think of him, it's always compared to Daren who is even more handsome, that I wouldn't trade him for that."

"What an idiot, he's already lucky to have someone like you." I shook my head and drank the remaining wine from the bottle.

"I wish someone would love me for who I am, not just because I'm handsome."

"You're kind enough that someone will definitely like you, the only thing missing is time for him to get to know you... wait! You're not interested in dating either! What's that? You can only hope for that girl by chance."

"I'm just asking duh,"

"Don't torture me Xander, you're gay!"

"Tell me Elyse, am I happy with you?"

"Yes but sometimes not...joke!" He laughed again.

"You're laughing, are you happy right now?"

"Yes, I'm happy." He smiled at me and so did I.

"Thank you." I hugged him and I felt him hug me back.

"Thanks for being here, thank you for coming into my life." I'm so...comfortable now as long as I'm with him. It's like, I don't need to act.

"You're welcome...always."

I slowly got out of the grip and that's it. I looked her in the eyes, I noticed her swallowing one after another.

Our faces are so close and I can't help but look at his lips.

"Can I kiss you?" even I was a bit surprised by the question that came out of my mouth.

"Can I...?" I'm nervous but I don't know if it's noticeable or not.

I brought my face closer to him and he closed his eyes. The next thing I felt was his soft lips touching mine.

I touched both of his cheeks and he gradually raised his hands and then put them around my shoulders.

My lips didn't move and I noticed that he was laughing. He opened his eyes when I moved my lips away from him.

"I-I don't know how to kiss."

I'm ashamed to say. He laughed at me.

"I'll teach you," he said and he was the one who kissed me first.

This is the best feeling. I've never felt this before.

Damn... this won't be the last we'll be doing this Elyse!

After a few minutes, he suddenly fell asleep, I held his shoulder carefully so he wouldn't fall. "Hey??"

"Elyse?!" What the hell? Seriously?! Did he sleep with me?

I shook my head and smiled when I looked at his lips. "F**k! Why do I feel this?"

I just picked him up because he didn't want to wake up. I took her to her room and put her next to Elizabeth. I kissed them both well and kissed them on the forehead.

"You didn't eat yet, didn't you?" I asked him.

"Your mommy came suddenly,"

"Okay, you should eat now then." I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the kitchen.

"Why are you going home with Elizabeth? Aren't you going to take her to school first?" This is a question for me.

"His teacher is sick so there is no school." My answer.

"Owws, how did you know it was sick?"

"I have talked to other teachers in that school and that's what they said."

"Mommy, do you know that those teachers are crazy, they keep looking at Daddy Xander and their mouths are open when you have something going in their mouths."

"It's obvious that they're going to be handsome with my Daddy Xander! tsk, no one else should snatch you from my Mommy Daddy Xander is it clear?!"

"Okay," we both raised our hands at the same time and we both laughed.

"This, eat now."

"Okay, okay, I'll just watch the movie first heheh...just stay there, I'm leaving because you might kiss and I'll see, I'm still young, right Mommy?"

"You really are a child what you say!"

"P-I'm sorry for him,"

I sat next to him.

"Aren't you going to eat yet?" he was surprised.

"I-I'll eat it." He stammered his answer and began to eat.

"Uhm, y-yong last night..." He bit his lip so I swallowed. I blinked at him.

"Hmm? Why? Is there a problem?"

We both stared at each other and he himself looked away.

"W-Nothing...so, ahm..."

"Wait, did something happen last night? Did I say or do stupid things?"

"You better just forget it, if I did something or say to you. I am sorry, I didn't mean it, you know that we're both drunk and I know in myself that if I'm drunk I do or say stupid stuff.I hope you understand what I mean."

I want to laugh in his face now. I can't paint its face.

"Are you done eating?" He asked me.

"Not yet," he suddenly frowned.

"Eh, what else are you doing? Why are you only feeding me? just eat there!" I want to smile...but I just stop myself.

He was about to take a bite of the rice but I held his hand and put the spoon with the rice in my mouth.

"What don't you want to eat? It's up to me if you don't want to--"

"Wait! I'm still hungry!" He said angrily. "A-That's mine! That's my spoon, take yours!"

"It's tiring to wash, you know that?"

"Don't worry Sir Xander, I'll do the washing up."

"Do you hate me? Why don't you want me to use your spoon?"

"Why do I feel like you're mad at me...right now?"

"No!" This is a firm promise.

"I can see it in your eyes Elyse," he looked away.

I slowly brought my face closer to him and he moved his face away.

"When are you going to teach me again hmm?" I will ask.

He suddenly pushed me.

"Please ask for water." I looked at Elizabeth. I gave him water and after he drank it, he left.

"So?"

"W-So?"

"When is that teaching lesson of yours?"

"Huh?"

"You said you'll teach me...how to kiss."

I whispered at the end.

"I...I already did, r-right?"

"Nah, you said that you'll teach me more..." I said making her eyes widen.

"You said that there will be a part two."

I raised my two fingers at the same time and crawled into his hand.

F**k! His face is epic now, he laughs sh*t deliciously!

"E-Eh? I-Did I say y-that??"

''Yeah,'' I sighed ''You already forgot?'' I added.

He didn't really say anything like that. I just made that up.

"So? When?"

"Elyse?"

"I-I don't know you!" He got annoyed with me and got up and left. I followed him until we reached the top, I immediately pulled his hand into my room.

"W-What do you s-need?" I feel the nervousness of it.

"You," you answered curtly and his eyes widened.

"What??" this surprised question.

"I want you..."

"I want you to teach me how to kiss. Is that difficult?"

"Hello? Why do you seem to have something else in mind?" He shook his head.

"No! Don't do anything!" He looked at me.

"Then just excuse me! that's enough okay, I won't teach you how to kiss anymore. It's so bad you still don't know what to do? Eh, it's like a few minutes so we can...do what...just!"

"It wasn't that long because you fell asleep."

"I guess, I'm boring because you fell asleep when we're still kissing. so shouldn't I be angry now not you? Where is the respect for Elyse? You put me to sleep then if I hadn't grabbed your waist, you would have fallen to the ground. Your neck would have been broken by now if it happened."