Forty-one

Jordan

I...

I laid there just...

I died.

I just died.

I thought before I died.

But no.

I died today.

I died when he...

I can't even finish that sentence.

He comes out of me and walks towards the camera and says something but I couldn't understand what. I felt the cold tears travel down my cheeks to my neck. Some sliding off my face.

My body spasms from what he did. It feels like my heart,lungs, my soul disappeared.

Like it was never there. My body would jerk but I couldn't stop it.

I laid there.

Staring.

Starting at what exactly?

I don't know.

He laughs and I flinch. I gulp when I hear him walking around the room. More tears fall and hiccups start to form but I try so hard to swallow them down. His face comes in my vision and I close my eyes tight to hide away from him.

But I can't.

He's always there.

"Just the matter of time." He says while he placed his cold hand on my bare stomach. I jump but he leaves it there.

He kisses my forehead and I feel the tears leak out.

"Don't cry. It was fun. And why cry when you know I'm in you." He squeezes my stomach and I hiccup. He takes off the tape and cuts the rope that were around my wrist.

They fall limp on my sides.

I can't feel them.

"Leave me alone." I barely say in a whisper. But then end having my hiccup cover it up.

I still have my eyes close but I feel the bed dip and I fist my hands on my side. He straddles my waist I feel his jeans material on my hips.

"STOP!" I scream and pound on his chest screaming and crying for him to just disappear at this point.

He doesn't move just continues to run his hand on the side of my body and mostly has it on my stomach.

He gets up and leaves with out saying anything.

I sit up and scream while hot tears fall down. They fall on my bare chest. Some trailing down my arms. One tear falls on my stomach and I stop.

I stop moving and look at the wet spot.

My breathing gets caught. My shaking hand goes to touch my stomach.

My finger tips touch my warm stomach and I let them stay on me for a long time.

My fingers glaze around my stomach and stop. Tears continue to fall and I can't help but to grip my stomach.

I yell and start to punch at my stomach and claw at it.

I'm killing it.

I won't let myself carry something that I won't love and never think as it as my child.

I get up from the bed and push back the dizziness that's trying so hard to invade my thoughts. I look around for what ever he cut the restrains. I walk around and then completely stop.

I look to my left and see the camera bright red light blinking.

More tears rim my eyes. I slowly cover myself with my trembling hands. I walk slowly to the camera and I feel them leak out my eyes.

"J-Jaxon" it comes out like a ghost voice.

I walk till my face was the only thing it can see.

"Jaxon."

I grab the camera and take it off the tripod.

"Jaxon please. Please h-help me... save me." I cry out.

The door slams open and I almost drop the camera.

"No time for that love. He had a good show to watch. Let's get you cleaned up." He walks in and I start to back away.

"P-please leave m-me alone."

He walks in with jeans and a shirt and shoes. I didn't care I'm just trying to get away from my living nightmare.

He opens his arms wide and walks closer.

I put one hand out telling him to stop but he keeps coming. I throw the camera at him and run towards him. He didn't see it coming so he it hit him in his nose.

He yells and I run passed him. I run towards the door that he left open and I dash down the hall way. Tears make it hard to see so I keep wiping my eyes. I hear his footsteps running behind me so I run faster. He's breathing hard and so am I.

I round the halls and almost bump into a door that was opening.

"Conseguir Ella ahora!!" He yells.

Every so often doors would open but I would run faster. I saw a set of stairs and I ran faster. Sets of other feet pounded on the ground and I pushed harder. I made it so far I'm not stoping now.

Then that's when I heard her yell.

"STOP!- "

"SHUT UP MARIA!"

I turn my head towards the door.

She's right there.

I look back at the stairs then back at the door.

It's right there too.

She's yelling for him to leave her alone.

"S-Stop please!"

"I said shut up-" there was a smack and I knew he slapped her.

I didn't know I stopped running till he gripped my neck and yanked me back. He turned me around and slapped me. His face was red and I cried.

I cried because I knew what was coming next and I didn't have anything else to give only my body.

He was yelling in face and dragging me away from my only escape and Maria.

My only way out.

I dragged my bare feet on the wood and I didn't care that I was getting stickers in them. I want to leave.

He yanked me hard that I flung to his chest. He gripped my hair and me look up at him. He looked at me then behind me and that's when I felt their stares on my naked body.

His glare told them to leave leaving me and him alone in the hall way. He looked back down at me and kissed my lips. I tried to move back but his grip tighten on my hair. He pulled back and smirked.

"Always filled with surprises." He smiles and I close my eyes. "I actually thought you would escape me,but I guess I was wrong. I need to thank Maria for that." He releases his grip on my hair and grabs my wrist.

"Let's get you cleaned up. He's almost here for the surprise." I cry and just let my body get dragged.

He takes me in a room that just has a drain and a water hose.

He pushes me in front of him and he locks the door behind him. He pushes me till I fall on my knees.

"Stay." He walks to the water hose with his back towards me and that's when I get up and run towards the door. My hand reaches out for the handle but he grips my hair faster. He yanks me down till I fall down on my back and my air gets knocked out of me.

I gasp for air and arch my back up reaching for air. He takes his time turning on the water and walking towards me. He has is folded so the water doesn't flow.

I'm on my hands choking for air.

"This is your punishment for throwing the camera at me. You would've had a nice warm bath, but instead you acted up." He unfolds the hose and the pressure makes the water feel like needles on my skin.

The water is ice cold and the floor is not making it any better.

"Wash your hair."

I'm still gasping for air and choking.

"Wash your hair I said!" He aims the water on my face and I chock on the water. He turns the water on higher so the water shots out faster and I can't breathe. I slowly sat down on my knees and start to bring up my arms and wash my matted hair. He removes the water from my face and I choke out the water but continue to wash my hair.

"Stand up."

I slowly stood up and stopped myself from talking and crying.

My teeth chatter together and I wrap my arms around myself.

He walks towards the faucet and shuts down the water. He walks towards me with a smirk on his face and pats down my hair.

Water droplets drop from my hair towards the ground.

"Now lets get you dressed." He pulls me to his chest and he's warm so I'm just stay there. I don't move.

He sighs and picks me up bridal style. He walks out the door and makes his way towards the room next to the stairs.

Maria.

My eyes get wide and I start to shake against him. He knocks then walks in. Alfonso has Maria on his lap while she has tears rolling down her face. He kisses her neck and has his hand on her hips and her...

"Stop please." She whispers. Her eyes are close and she shaking.

I try to push off Sañtiago but he holds me tighter.

"I'm just getting something uncle."

Alfonso just grunts in responds and continues to attack her neck.

"S-s-sto-op. L-l-l-leave-e h-her a-lone." I say but it comes out soft.

He chuckles but continues to walk. We walk towards the end of the room and there's another door. He walks in there and it's a normal room.

He places me on the bed and wraps the blankets around me. I'm still shaking but he walks towards a closet and pulls out a jumper with flats. He tosses it to me. And he gets out a suit for himself.

He starts to undress and he chuckles when I look away. "Don't act like you never seen me before love. Get dressed."

I shook my head no and closed my eyes trying to warm up. I heard him sigh and the blankets get yanked off of me. He grips my arm and pulls me up. "Look at me."

I slowly open my blurry eyes. "Get dressed."

I didn't say no so he lets go of me and I slowly start to get dressed.

"I'll come back in a little. Got to get my uncle to get Maria ready."

He shuts the door behind him and leaves me to cry.