Fifty

Jaxon

"NO!" I screamed while I punched the wall.

"SHE-S-" I fall down on my knees. I fist a handful of my hair and tug. "NO!!" I scream, while my eyes blurred with tears.

I slowly lift up my head and see her....laying.....dead.

She.....she.....left me.

She's gone....

I cry even more while I crawl towards her on my knees and cry on her limp legs. My head hurts. My throat closes up that makes me hiccup. My eyes sting.

"M-Mr. Hunt....I have to take her now....she's been here for more than a hour." The doctor says from behind me.

I clench her legs tighter and cry more. "I can't." I whisper.

"Mr. Hunt....I'm sorry for your lost but she needs to leave now."

I lift my head up and start to get up. I move towards her and play with her hair.

She had a heart attack in her sleep, and she died asleep.

I place a kiss on her forehead and whisper, "I love you ma....don't ever forget that. I love you so much....bye ma."

I pull back and take a couple of steps back. The doctor comes and starts to undo the locks on the wheels and start to roll her away.

I suck in a harsh breath in, while my heart clenches.

"Bye ma." I whisper.

The door shuts gently behind them and a few tears slip out but I silently wipe them and release the breath.

My heart hurts.

It hurts so much.

I sigh and went to the bathroom in there, I blew my nose and splashed water on my face.

I looked at myself and my eyes were red and puffy. My nose was red while my hair was ruffled in every place I can see. My eye is somewhat swollen from Landon's punch. My eye has went down but there is still a bruise around it. My nose is not that bad, just hurts.

I sighed and stood straighter and walked out. I walk out of the room and made my way towards Jordan. I past some doors with a blank face on. Some doctors looked away from me. Some pretended to look at something on their clipboard until I past them.

I was about to past the last set of doors to get to her but that's when Landon comes out of a room slamming the door shut. Some nurses walking by jumps but I just stare at him. He sighs and runs a hand through his hair. It looks like he's been crying. I bring my eyebrows together and was about to walk towards him but his head snaps up to me and we meet eyes.

I stop completely and stare at him. He's shoulders grow tall while I do the same. I start to walk to him and he does the same. We meet in the middle and stare at each other.

"Why you crying?" I asked.

"Why are you?" He asked back.

I narrow my eyes at him and I see a small smile come upon his face. I stare at him with no expression while he's trying to make me smile. I close my eyes and pull him in a hug. He doesn't hesitate to hug back. I pat his back and pull back.

"Sorry about your eye and you brows." I say while I took a step back.

He chuckles, "yeah, sorry about your nose and your eye."

I give a ghost smile, "it fine brother."

He smiles. "Brother."

I nod. "Brothers. Always brothers."

He pulls me back in a hug and pats my back. I hug back and this time he pulls back.

"So, why the fûck are you crying."I said while I walked around him and started to walk towards Jordan's room.

"Umm." He reaches out and grips my arm. I look over my shoulder and he has a blank face on and he pulls my arm. I pull my arm back because he's just staring at me with wide eyes. He leads me to the cafeteria and he stops. He then faces me.

I raise my eyebrow and he sighs. "When you were gone....Jordan sorta....had a seizure."

My heart dropped.

"What?"

"Sh-she had a seizure Jaxon."

"Where is she now?!" I said while I looked out of the window in here, then back at him.

"They just took her away. I don't know what they are doing to her though. I was there when it happen. That would always traumatize me."

I started to pace around.

Not her.

Not her too.

I start to breathe heavily and I gripped my hair. I grabbed one chair in here and threw it against the wall.

"NO!"

"NOT HER TOO!" I yelled. Tears started to rim my eyes but I shook my head.

No time for tears.

I need to find her.

I snapped my head to Landon and I see him staring at the ground letting me have a fit.

"Where did they take her."

"I don't know."

I slowly breathe in and close my eyes. "Where the fûck did they take her Landon."

"I don't know! I just fûckin said I didn't know where they took her!"

I exhale and open my eyes.

"And what do you mean 'not her too'?"

I clench my jaw. "Nothing." I start to walk out but he stops me.

"Don't fûckin leave again Jaxon. I was there when you weren't. So fûckin wait. I was there when she woke up, and you know what she said to me. 'Where's Jaxon?' She was fûckin looking for you before she had that fûckin seizure. So don't leave her again. And that's a good question. Where were you!?" He said while he pushed at my chest.

I clenched my jaw and started to breathe heavy. My heart pounded against my chest and my fist clenched together.

"You want to know where I was." I said in a angry tone.

"Yeah. Where were you." He said in the same time. His face was starting to turn red from his anger he was building up.

I took a step closer. "I was up stairs." Another one. "With my ma." One more. "Watching her die in her sleep." Now we are face to face. Not one backing down from our glares. Once that left my mouth his face fell. "That's where I was. I was up stairs watching my ma have a heart attack in her sleep and I couldn't do anything about but to call a doctor and watch her. Watch her chest move with the last breath she would ever take in this fûcked up world. The last time I would go to her. The last time she would see me. The last time I would see her smiling at me before she fell asleep. That would be the fûckin last time. So that's where I was. Watching my ma leave me." I said while I pushed his chest and walked away.

And finding my way towards Jordan.