Chapter 35

I haven't talked to Troy since yesterday. I know he's mad and he doesn't really agree on this but, I just want to make sure Auntie will be back home safe. Maybe I wasn't really ready for this. I just went to visit Grandma Candice and all these things happened with a blink of an eye. I like Troy no, I love him. The intense feeling of being pulled toward him is making me think twice. I'm sure he's mature enough to understand the situation. He should respect my own decisions too. Now the thing here is, Can I endure not to see him for a long time?

I started to pack my things with a heavy heart. The fact that Troy will not be sending me off today is already crushing me. I gathered all my things except what Troy gave me. The dresses that are exceptionally beautiful, the long t-shirts that I found comfortable and the letters that we wrote before. I took out my phone and Shane already messaged me. She said she'll pick us up at the airport. I stared at the clock and I know it's time to go. I went to Auntie Beth's room and helped her with carrying her things. I think she doesn't want to stay here any longer. I understand her personal reasons, she lived there with her husband long enough to remember. My Uncle's grave is there, Auntie never failed to visit. She loved him much, death will never stop her from showing it.

The car is waiting outside and I silently prayed for Troy to come around and at least give me a hug. He must be mad at me, or pissed or frustrated on whatever my reasons are. Matthew will be driving us over to the airport and I'm confused if I should go or not. I waved Madam Rosette a goodbye, she waved back to me. I took a last look at the Mansion, farewell. I got in and Matthew kicked start the car.

I guess he doesn't want to see me.

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The whole trip is fine, except for me. I'm helpless, what the hell is wrong with me Troy is hunting my mind. I tried to ask Matthew if he ever saw Troy around or if there is any message from him. He didn't answer and just wished me good luck.

I opened the door of our house . Shane lifted one of Auntie Beth's belongings and entered.The familiar home-like scent welcomed me as I switched the lights on to harshly collapse on the couch. I cough, it's filled with dusts! I stood and brushed it off. Shane giggled and I threw the nearest pillow.I went upstairs to my room, I opened it and breathed deep. I'm tired and I need to sleep. I can sleep during the flight but it's just not happening. I missed my room a lot, it might be small but for me it's cozy and perfect. Auntie brought my bag and I thanked her,

"I'll clean this up. You two go somewhere and go back to dinner okay? I really need to clean this, before we get to visit your Uncle." She said and I nodded

I"Okay, we will be back later." I said and headed down. I saw Shane enter and slop around anywhere she wants and constantly typing on her phone.

"Shanie, let's go hit the Starbox." I said and tapped her shoulders. She didn't bother to look at me and he nodded in response. What's with her? Did she get herself a boyfriend? She'll normally slump her butt her and talk about anything under the sun.

"Who's that?" I asked and she smiled flirtatiously.

"Matthew." She said and put her phone in her pocket. "Okay. Let's go." I was about to grab her phone to see who's keeping her busy until she snarled at me like an ugly dog.

"Let's go Audyyy!"

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I missed this place. I always went here whenever I had some free time or some homework to do, as I'm a student who enjoys the company of coffee and books, this place is perfect. I entered school a bit early, I was only eleven when I entered highschool. I thought my teacher won't allow it but my Auntie did the job and they said yes. I like to study when I was a kid. I am intrigued with the wonders of the word and became the not so famous nerd. I'm studying as a hobby, a pastime. I started studying at an early age, five. I giggled remembering those memories. I turned to see Shane and she's still busy typing.

"Is Matthew and you are some sort of.. you know, in a relationship?" I asked. She's here to have fun with me!

"No!" She blushed. "Maybe?" She asked as if she's not sure about it herself.

"Oh really? Should I prepare for another set of crying sessions with you?" I said sarcastically and laughed. Shane is a beauty, with her talents and wit. However, she always ends up with a crazy relationship.

"Oh yeah? Look who's talking, you said you love him and left your Knight in Shining Armour behind? He saved you from death and you two have promises, see? You two are meant for each other. I can see how happy you are with him, and those eyes? they shine when he's with you." she pointed out." You know what? Destiny brought you back together again."

I know I will regret this but, if he's really in love with me he would understand. He waited for ten years for me, a couple of weeks won't hurt right?

"Girl! We're BFF's! I know when something is wrong. You can't hide from me. You can tell me, I'll listen." She said and I nod. Maybe the reason why I have this heavy feeling is that I need to open up. Luckily, Shane is here with me.

"Okay, I'm just a little confused about my feelings. I'm, I'm-- I just can't think of an answer why I feel this way. I love Troy , too. But what if I'm not ready and made a mistake? I felt helpless--"

"Whoah whoah easy girl! I think I know your problem and it's simple. You're frustrated because you can't get him out of your mind and can't think of an answer why, you felt helpless because you love him and you left without a word. You're confused on what he feels. In simple words, it's all you. You over think too much and you look at things the opposite way." She said. "Audy, I swear he loves you! "

"Really?"

"Audrey, you're lucky to have him. Sometimes you will know what's his worth when he's already gone. You need to decide. You know--"

"Your right." I said.

"Yes I am." Shane said proudly.

"I'll told him what I feel when I get back there. I think I'll shorten my stay here. I will work there instead. What do you think?" I asked.

"That's it! But you just came here. What if we can go there together? I still have my vacation schedule free. Let's go for ummm.. Overmorow." She said. "The day after tomorrow."

"Okay but, Shane. How about our dream to work in the clinic? Both of us promised to work hard for it." I pouted.

"Oh come on. You know I hate biology and I want to work there because of the uniform. Your happiness matters more than that. Besides, we will always be friend no matter what." She said and hugged me.

"You know you're always a good listener. I will only tell you this once, thank you."

"Sheesh. That is a good heart to heart talk. So it's a deal?" She asked and smirked at me.

"Oh. Deal." I said and she nodded in agreement. "The people who advise often have the most problem Shane." I spat. "If something is bothering you, feel free to consult me as well."

Her phone rang and she excused herself to head out. She seems very delighted with the caller, it must be Matthew. I can't say they're a good match. Shane is a very good love adviser but her former love life are insane. The latest breakup is the craziest. The boy chooses the game over her, what in the world is that? That is the lamest excuse I've heard. The other day we saw him with a new girl. Another set of crying sessions and crazy stuff happened. As for Matthew, I think he's a virgin.. He's silent and prioritizes responsibility over love life.

Shane came back. She's smiling out of nowhere, it creeped me out. She took her bag and held my hands and pulled me over. She immediately opened the door excitedly after slamming the payment to the table.

"Hey hey! Why? Where are we going?" I snarled at her but she didn't answer. "Why such a hurry!" I groaned.

What is she doing? I can feel it. Something is up.