Chapter 389 The power of despair, found in vain 2
Every scene in his life over the past few decades has been deeply imprinted in Tang Ye's mind. The smiling faces and crying faces, from the innocence when he started to remember, to the loneliness that nearly swallowed Tang Ye up when he first came to the market, to turning into a zombie. The humanity that was gradually disappearing is now back!
The feeling every place gave him, every time he cried or laughed, were all so clear. The incomplete life kept surrounding his memory, and the names of the people he met were constantly intertwined!
Finally, the memory returned to Honglin High School, that girl's smiling face, her dependence on him, her kindness, Tang Ye brought back all the humanity that Tang Ye had lost!
That goodbye seemed to be Tang Ye's last hope. Before, he had not noticed why he had to live when he became a zombie. He was as confused as a boat that could not be found in the sea, with no way back, no worries, and nothing to do. And the direction to go!
Shouldn't this be given up? Why is Tang Ye still alive?
He couldn't figure it out, but at this moment, everything became clear, just for the word "goodbye"!
Wasn't everything he did an innocent wish for that girl? What I want is the goodbye she said!
Will definitely see you again!
In his dilapidated life, the mediocre warmth in the dormitory of Honglin High School became Tang Ye's last life-saving straw!
Madness and violence are constantly washing away his humanity, and the warmth is also desperately helping him regain his only humanity!
In his mind, he heard the people he met in his life talking non-stop, densely intertwined, making Tang Ye miserable!
What a contradiction! It’s so contradictory!
At this moment, Tang Ye's nerves were like a thread. One end was pulled by the zombie's emotionless roar, while the other end was the shattered human nature that resisted desperately!
The moment Chang Jue's foot stepped on the rubber band, Tang Ye felt despair. All his hopes disappeared at this moment. This kick not only humiliated him, but also tore apart his yearning for the future!
The images in his mind flashed faster and faster. In the end, Tang Ye couldn't remember who he was. But at this moment, Ning Yuer's smile froze and occupied his mind!
That smile was the moment she turned around on Hongyi Street. It was a light smile, but her eyes contained too many emotions.
Reluctant to give up? Nostalgic? fear? Worry? Sad? Or even a touch of love?
There were so many that Tang Ye couldn't even see them. The picture was like a yellowed photo. Although it was fixed, it was a bit blurry.
The moment at that time actually only slowed down a little in Tang Ye's mind, and then passed by...
Chang Jue's feet twisted hard on the rubber bands. He looked at the soil below being turned up by his steps, and he felt no more in his heart.
Tang Ye can't explain how he feels now. Is he sad? Heartache? ashamed? None of these! But despair!
At this moment, when Chang Jue stepped on the rubber band with his foot, he already had a clear positioning of this humble object in his mind!
It is your own hope! The hope of living!
The scenes that kept popping up in his mind like a movie just now made Tang Ye understand that his life was not without perfection, but with some! It's just that this perfection is very faint. Tang Ye, who is so dull, doesn't dare to look directly at it, so he simply ignores it.
But what cannot be denied is that it is always in his life!
It's just that Tang Ye didn't feel it himself!
He hates perfection, especially the perfection of others, but he also particularly hopes that he can have the perfection of others. When he was a human, he did not dare to reveal the darkness in his heart and hid it deeply in his heart. After turning into a zombie , this darkness gradually surfaces on the surface as time goes by.
Everyone has the same characteristic, that is, they are particularly passionate about what they lack. Even if the thing is very insignificant, if it is missing, everyone must get it. This is the perfection that people pursue, and it is also human nature.
Tang Ye now has this characteristic, which shows that his humanity is still there!
But it was this human nature that made him feel desperate, because the only perfection in his heart was placed in this rubber band. When the rubber band was stepped on by others, he wanted to tear the other party into pieces, but his strength was not enough. Allow him to do this!
Tang Ye knew that he also had perfection, but he had never noticed it, but now that he had noticed it, he wanted to go back and relive it, but of course the way to relive it was not to travel through time and space, but to go out!
It wasn't a flash of emotion. At this moment, he especially missed Ning Yu'er and the tenderness she gave him. He wanted to go out! Want to see her!
This desire is getting stronger and stronger! But how can I see it?
Gotta go out!
How does he get out? His powerful and impressive strength is nothing compared to Changjue. He can't run away! Can't beat it!
But the desire in my heart is getting stronger and stronger!
Under this endless cycle, Tang Ye felt despair in his heart, and this despair broke through his mental defense!
ah!
He raised his head and looked at Chang Jue and Yin Xiang behind him with malicious eyes.
How perfect! It's so perfect!
What a match made in heaven, but unfortunately, such perfection is not his own, and the owner of this perfection is destroying his own weak perfection!
How can I bear this?
"Put your feet off!" he roared angrily, his voice hoarse like the roar of a wild animal before its death.
There was a joke in Chang Jue's eyes, and he stepped on the rubber band a little harder.
"Let go? You won't do this. Do you know your situation?"
"You are just a weakling, and I am a god? How can an ant fight against a god? If I want to kill you, one finger is enough!"
Chang Jue's words were sarcastic, and Yinxiang looked at him indifferently. Only when he looked at Chang Jue did his beautiful eyes flash with deep love.
"Hahaha, are you a god?"
Tang Ye wanted to laugh, but after laughing for a while, the momentum he had just raised shrank back.
"Maybe... yes, I am an ant, but ants can also bite people! Release your feet, I want to live!"
"Stay alive. Do you think you have a chance? You're desperate. Your obsession is getting heavier and heavier. I really like it!"
Hearing Chang Jue's words, Tang Ye was left with deep despair in his heart. What he just said seemed to be asking questions about Chang Jue, but the answer was already obvious.
The regret in his heart filled Tang Ye's mind, making him unable to control himself. Countless thoughts came to mind. Just when Tang Ye was about to give up, suddenly, Chang Jue twisted his toes hard again, only twisting off the velvet of the elastic band underneath. A few.
boom!
Tang Ye's head was smashed all at once, and despair slowly burst out and spread out. He wanted to scream as hard as he could, but he couldn't make any sound. His anger and violence appeared again, matching the despair in his heart, It actually activated the anti-life substances in Tang Ye's body!
They felt the unbearable pain in the host's heart, and quickly spun, exploding with overloaded power for Tang Ye!
