Fifteen

DEARIL POV

PAST.

The other pups were shouting profanities at me again, they were chanting and calling me a murderer. I hadn't killed anyone so I didn't know why they did that. All I knew was that it hurt and it made my heart squeeze tightly in my chest.

I would be Alpha one day, and when that day comes they'll not be able to call me names or bully me. I'll grow big and strong.

"And we're going to kill them all" a voice growled in my head. I wanted to shake it off, to disagree but I couldn't. I was looking forward to that day, I wanted nothing more than to shut their grating voice off, to make them feel every vile feeling of pain that coursed through my veins as they sneered and laughed at me, their faces morphing into one to form a terrifying image that made my head throb.

"Leave me alone" I screamed as their voice grew louder and their mocking much crueler. They were being led by Black and Detinos. Detinos was supposed to be my family, he wasn't supposed to gang up with the outsiders against me.

"Why? Does the truth hurt. You killed your twin you monster, you don't deserve to be the Alpha of any clan".

"I will be Alpha" I yelled and the punch that struck my stomach knocked the air out of my lungs. I hunched over before I stumbled to the floor, gasping as I clutched my stomach, hoping that the horrible painful went away.

"Don't you dare speak back!. Do you think just because you're Vaughn Lyall's son, you have a right to disrespect us" Black yelled, his spit flying as his fist bunched in readiness for more assault.

"If Father finds out about this, you will all be in trouble" I warned, hoping to get them to back off, but they just burst into laughter instead and I knew why. It was because there was no way our father would ever take my side. The only time he saw me as his son was when he wanted me to kill something or when he had a dirty errand for me to run, but I cherished all those moments.

I was lucky to have that considering how much everyone else hated and avoided me. They only got near if they wanted to cause me pain.

"Run and tattle to your daddy then, but we all know who will be in more trouble you freak. You don't deserve to be a member of the park, you pup killer" Detinos said, bending towards me to get his words across.

My lips trembled as I tried to hold back tears. "I didn't kill anyone. I didn't!" I screamed, my arms flailing as I tried to hit one of them. They dodged my attack easily, but my fighting back seemed to act as a trigger.

Their punches came at me from all directions, each one more powerful than the last. My healing power was slower than the rest so I didn't get any reprieve from the pain. I curled up as I tried to shield the softer part of my body.

Black foot got me in the eyes and I cried out, my hands digging into the sand as more punches landed. My vision blurred together as black dots filled them up.

My heart burned, the pain fueling a riotous feeling of outrage in my chest. It built and built and then I was screaming and lashing out. But it wasn't me. It was like I took a back seat and let an evil beast I didn't know I possessed out.

I could hear a rumbling animalistic sound coming from my throat. It was as if I'd suppressed myself for so long and now I was losing all control. My ear was a buzz. I couldn't make out any sound, hence why I didn't hear the blood-curdling scream booming all around me.

Blood splattered onto my face before I realized I was about to crush Detinos skull In. Stronger arms than a kid's pulled me off Detinos and I fought his hold until I saw that it was my father. He let me go and I stumbled onto the charred floor.

My mother's angry screams sounded as if they came from a Faraway place. The other kids had run off. I steadily got to my feet, my fist clenched and drenched in blood while mother cradled Detinos, a pained and angry look on her face when she cast her gaze on me.

"Monster. Bloody monster. Are you going to kill Detinos the same way you killed my son?"

I gasped, my chest heaving from exertion, one of my eyes mangled shut from Black's punch. My lips were split and swollen, but even before I spoke, I knew that they wouldn't take my side. "They attacked me first. I was just trying to defend myself" I screamed, my whole body trembling.

Father glared at me, his anger sharp and clear on his face. "Do not try to defend yourself. You're going to be an Alpha one day, Is this how you're going to react in the face of provocations? Are you going to kill your subjects" father shouted, his voice tearing through my organs like blades?

My head hurt and everything felt and looked hazy. "You told me never to let anyone trample on me as an Alpha. I was only defending myself" I maintained as the pain started fading to a slow burn. I held my father's gaze hoping that he would tell me that I didn't do anything wrong.

The slap that struck my cheek was jarring and unexpected. I glanced up at my mother, my hands covering my throbbing cheeks in shock, the tears finally streaming down my cheeks.

"Don't you dare try to defend your actions? You already took a child from me and you want to take another. Your skull should be bashed in instead of Detinos, you should die Instead of Detinos" she screamed in my face before father pulled her away from me, a disappointed look on his face that screamed that he agreed with mother. I wiped the tears off, smearing Detinos blood against my pale skin.

No one wanted the monster, they all hated me, and as I stared at my bloody knuckles. I hated myself too.

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"I'd rather go to Detinos than kneel at your feet".

I winced as her words replayed in my head over and over again. My mother's rejection hadn't even hurt as much as hers did. It made me want to strangle Detinos in front of her just for the fun of it. It made me want to destroy everything in my path. It made me want to destroy her!

The laptop I was typing on split into two, the wires sparking and I got up from the chair I sat angrily, flinging the remnant of it off the table.

"Argh" I growled in rage, then punched at the wall and watched in satisfaction as the wall cracked and crumbled.

Jade was so fucking infuriating. I'd been lenient with her, which was something I never did and she'd had the guts to defy me once more, had the guts to mention submitting to Detinos.

My wolf was bloody raging. The thought of her submitting to anyone but us made it feel like we were being flailed with hot coal. It was fucking absurd. She wasn't even our mate and yet, she seemed to hold so much influence over us, over me.

I glanced at my palm which still tingled from the feel of her skin. I could remember the rosy color of her butt, the way she had braved through each hit. She'd cried at the end, had allowed herself to be vulnerable just for some seconds before the devil in her came back alive.

Jade was mine. I was going to keep her or kill her. No one will ever get within an inch of her except me. I'd given her an ultimatum, but with the way she'd spoken those horrible words, I knew there was a hundred percent chance that she wouldn't take my offer.

Jade was a leader, and she acted every bit like one. If she was an Alpha_I chuckled at the thought_, she'd probably would have torn my head off. I definitely won't have gotten anywhere near that perfect skin of hers.

Dragging my fingers through my hair, I inhaled deeply and then let it out. She was a maddening woman, and it messed with my head that she didn't want me, that she preferred someone like Detinos to me.

But I wasn't someone who gave up easily and I was going to make sure Jade become so consumed with me that she would wake up to thoughts of me and go to sleep with thoughts of me. I just had to take it a step at a time, that is, if my wolf calmed down enough because with the way I felt each passing hour, I wouldn't be surprised if I killed everyone.