breaking love

Chapter 27 (Becky's POV)

If you asked me about regrets right now I'd tell you I had none.

Life is great at the moment.

I finished all the wedding shopping with Rachel and she just dropped me in front of my house.

So I was just looking forward to a nice evening of relaxing with the man I love.

Yes you read it correctly.

I love him.

But I still didn't tell him.

Honestly he will be the first man to hear those words from me., besides Mason, but he is my brother so that doesn't count.

I decided to tell him today  because those words threatened to spill out of my mouth on their own.

But I was scared shitless.

I had no idea how Aron would react.

Sure, we had the best time together and even when we argued we made it better afterwards. In the bedroom of course.

Well I guess there's no better time than right now.

So I entered my house with a huge grin on my face and nervous butterflies in my stomach.

"Aron! I'm home."

First thing that made me pause in my tracks was the fact that I didn't get any response.

But maybe he just didn't hear me right?

Let's not make a huge deal out of it.

Breathe in, breathe out.

I exchanged my shoes for a pair of slippers and entered the living room.

To my surprise Aron was sitting there with his head in his hands.

I don't like this.

"Aron? Baby? Didn't you hear me when I came in? Is something wrong?"

I could see my voice startled him.

It was like he was lost in his thoughts.

But when he lifted his head I could clearly see pain and sadness written all over his handsome face.

And that's when panic hit me.

"Is Lizz ok? Is it Ana? Speak to me, damn it! What's wrong?!"

He gave me a soft smile at my words, but it didn't reach his eyes and it wasn't even one bit happy.

"Come here Becks. We need to talk."

Those words.

THE WORDS!

It made me freeze on the spot.

No, no, no!

Not now! Not when I finally found someone I actually love!

Damn you universe!

Thank God I managed to find my voice at that moment.

"I'd rather stand, thank you."

His eyes once more looked at the floor and a heavy sigh escaped his lips.

The silence between us stretched on and on and I was starting to become even more nervous.

But he finally spoke.

Even though it would be better if he stayed quiet.

Because his next words ripped my heart right out of my chest.

"This isn't working Becky. You and me. Us. It's not enough for me. Sure we have fun together but I don't see you in my future. And I don't want to lead you on. So I think it's best if we break up."

Those words, spoken with such calmness, ruined me.

But surprisingly I managed not to fall on my knees and burst into tears.

Yes it hurt like hell, but I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of seeing me break down.

No. That would happen later.

Once I'm alone with my ice cream.

"Get out."

Wait.

Did I really just say that?

Yes I did!

And I meant every word of it.

But it was obvious those were not the words he expected to hear from me, and honestly neither did I.

But it was what I needed right now.

I needed to be alone, so I could cry my heart out.

You want to know the worst part?

Well that would be the next thing he did.

He was just watching me for a few moments and then he stood and nodded his head and started walking towards the front door.

But I forgot I was still standing in the doorway of the living room and if he wanted to reach the front door, he had to pass me.

And when he did he stopped next to me and kissed my cheek with words that kept ringing in my ears even long after he was gone.

"I wish things would be different. But I promise, one day you will understand the reasons behind my actions."

I could swear his voice shook at the end like he was battling his own tears from falling, but I didn't dare turn around and check, or I'd end up being the one in tears.

After those words, he simply left.

And I just stood there, looking at the place where he was sitting just moments ago.

My legs started to shake and I slid down the doorway and sat my but on the floor.

How could I be so stupid?

I fell in love for the first time in my life, but I fell for a man that didn't even like me anymore.

I didn't even realize when I started crying and neither did I have any idea how long I was sitting there.

Suddenly my doorbell rang, but I just wanted to be alone and to be honest I had no strength to even stand up from my position on the floor.

But I guess I didn't have to worry about that, because my best friends just opened the front doors and barged into my home.

"I swear, he will die. I don't care if we are related, he is a dead man."

I lifted my head to see Ana and Rachel standing in front of me with frowns on their faces and anger written in their eyes.

When I saw them, the dam broke completely and I started crying for real, with huge tears, sobbing, hiccuping…you get the picture.

It really was a pitiful sight.

But everyone deserves to have a breakdown once in a while.

Girls helped me to get up from the floor and move my ass to the couch.

In seconds there were so many sweets on my table that I felt fat just by looking at it.

But there was also wine and whiskey.

You can guess only once which one I chose.

But I had to ask Rachel and Ana one thing though.

"I'm kind of glad to see you guys here, but how did you know I needed you?"

At my words they both hugged me, each from one side.

"Aron called me, and I called Rachel. He pretty much admitted what a bastard he is and sealed the future of his peanuts. Now we won't waste anymore time on that asshole I call my brother, instead we will drink, eat, watch movies and forget about reality for one night."

And so drinking away the pain and sadness began.

Hopefully tomorrow morning, my head would hurt me so much, I would forget about the pain in my heart.

Either way, I had my girls, and that was the most important thing right now.