Chapter 3020 Don’t even think about it

Hearing that Nanako wanted to try again, Master Jingqing didn't think much about it. He nodded in agreement and said, "If the donor wants to successfully enter the unconscious world, the safest way is to abandon the seven emotions and six desires."

Nanako was silent for a moment and murmured: "If you cut off the seven emotions and six desires, what's the point of living?"

Master Jingqing said without hesitation: "Only by cutting off the seven emotions and six desires, can we have the chance to become a Buddha and better save all sentient beings."

Nanako shook her head and said seriously: "With all due respect, if you wholeheartedly seek Buddha, isn't it a kind of seven emotions and six desires? If you wholeheartedly think about saving all living beings, isn't it also a kind of seven emotions and six desires? Pursuing all living beings is certainly true, but it is also Not everyone is dissatisfied with his current situation. If he lives a happy and contented life, why does he need others to help him?"

Saying that, Nanako added: "Furthermore, since I have my own family and sweethearts, I can't get rid of them from my mind; even if I can put them all behind me, since I want to enlightenment wholeheartedly, how can I pursue enlightenment?" Enlightenment is another desire of mine. The moment I entered the sea of ​​consciousness and jumped down, it was for enlightenment, but I wanted to deceive myself, or deceive the sea of ​​consciousness. I obviously came for it, but I wanted to let it go. If you think I have no desires or desires, wouldn’t that be tantamount to deceiving it?”

Master Jingqing was startled for a moment, then sighed softly: "What the donor said... is not unreasonable..."

After that, he asked her again: "Then what does the donor plan to try this time?"

Nanako shook her head: "I don't know either, I just want to try again. Regardless of success or failure, I won't bother Master anymore today."

Master Jingqing said: "The poor monk has plenty of time, so the donor does not need to be in a hurry."

Nanako nodded gratefully, then closed her eyes, and once again used the method of introspection to bring her consciousness to the sea of ​​consciousness.

As before, Nanako was still trying his best to push his consciousness to a higher level this time. However, the previous attempt consumed a lot of energy. This time, it was obviously much more difficult to push up.

However, despite the difficulty, Nanako is still trying her best to make this attempt.

It was also during this process that she finally understood why it took Master Jingqing eight years to reach enlightenment. He always tried so hard to move his spiritual consciousness to higher places, which consumed a lot of energy and physical strength. After trying it twice, I don’t know how long it will take to relieve this mental fatigue.

In addition, enlightenment is a matter of thousands of continuous attempts. A few years of enlightenment is already considered a short time in the long process of cultivation.

Nanako tried her best to push her consciousness to the extreme that her state could reach. When she realized that all her energy had been exhausted, she instantly relaxed completely and allowed her consciousness to fall freely from the height. .

In the process of her whereabouts this time, various thoughts were still frantically impacting her consciousness. Just like the last time, they were all about her parents, relatives, and Ye Chen who she thought about day and night.

Nanako finally realized that the reason why so many thoughts suddenly came to her at this time must be because of this feeling of free fall, which gave people a feeling of dying.

And this feeling of dying will naturally make people think of many people and things.

Nanako did not try to forget everything and abandon the seven emotions and six desires as Master Jingqing said. She just subconsciously thought: "Master Jingqing said that you cannot jump directly into this sea of ​​​​consciousness, but you must integrate into it. Then Does this mean that divine consciousness and sea of ​​consciousness are inherently fusionable? The only difference is that some people have mastered the way of fusion, but some people never get the point?"

Thinking of this, Nanako's heart suddenly moved: "The sea of ​​consciousness is in my body and in my Zifu, so it should understand me best. It must know that it is impossible for me to abandon the seven emotions and six desires. If so, it It also requires me to abandon the seven emotions and six desires in order to blend with it, which itself becomes an unsolvable paradox..."

"Does this mean that my consciousness has no chance to integrate with it?"

"If that's the case, I won't be able to achieve enlightenment in this life."

At this moment, Nanako's consciousness fell into the silent and picturesque sea of ​​consciousness again.

The powerful impact smashed her consciousness into the depths of the sea of ​​​​consciousness, and Nanako's consciousness was severely damaged again. The entire consciousness had no strength to resist.

Then, the huge pressure of the sea of ​​consciousness swept over her again, and her consciousness was about to rush towards the sea.

Ito Nanako was a little desperate at this time. It was not that two failures made her give up, but she knew herself. Even if she could let go of her deceased mother and her father who had recovered from health and was enjoying his old age, she could not let go. Next Ye Chen.

Her new life was given by Ye Chen.

At this moment, although she was still being pushed to the surface by the sea of ​​consciousness, she felt ready to struggle and resist for the first time.

Her consciousness couldn't help but silently mutter: "If I never realize the truth, I will die one day. Death is not terrible. My mother passed away long ago, and my father will also pass away before me. What about Ye Chenjun? There must be someone. Will you walk with him? If so, then I hope the person who walks with him is me!"

At this thought, her consciousness couldn't help but become excited. While she struggled hard and tried to dive deeper to resist the buoyancy of the sea of ​​consciousness, she said loudly in her subconscious: "I know! I know that Ye Chenjun is a married man. I also know that falling in love with a married man is shameful and immoral, but I just love him deeply and I can’t stop loving him no matter what!”

"I can't destroy Ye Chenjun's marriage and family, but I don't want to give up the opportunity to cultivate with him. This is as contradictory as you need me to abandon my emotions and desires, but I can't do it at all!"

"However, there is still a chance to resolve all these contradictions. If you and I can become one and let me successfully realize the Tao, I will also have the opportunity to seek a longer life. As long as I can survive, I can keep waiting. I don’t care if it’s eighty years, one hundred years, or even two hundred years!”

"So, don't try to push me out!"

In an instant, Nanako swam desperately toward the depths of the sea of ​​consciousness.

In order to resist the ubiquitous buoyancy of the sea of ​​consciousness, Nanako exhausted almost all her energy to fight against it. She was like a marathon runner who exhausted all her strength in the competition. Her legs had lost all strength and could not even stand up. At this time, I was still moving forward mechanically.

As she continued to resist desperately, she felt that her consciousness was gradually blurring in the resistance, just like the blackout that divers fear most, her consciousness was gradually blurring.

At this moment, her consciousness suddenly stagnated in the sea of ​​consciousness.

The huge buoyancy of the sea of ​​consciousness seemed to disappear instantly at this moment.

Originally, her consciousness was like a bubble, being pushed rapidly to the surface of the sea by the force of buoyancy.

But now, her consciousness is being squeezed crazily by the sea of ​​consciousness, and the pressure and buoyancy have actually reached a delicate balance in the sea of ​​consciousness.

Nanako's consciousness had almost been lost, but at this moment, she was still instinctively trying her best to continue diving.

The original delicate balance was instantly broken, and her consciousness seemed to lose all buoyancy and began to slowly fall deeper.

All her consciousness gradually disappeared, and then the world fell into a dark silence, and even her consciousness had completely disappeared.

I don’t know how long it took, but a small light spot suddenly appeared in the dark sea of ​​consciousness. As soon as this light spot appeared, it quickly sank to the bottom. Immediately afterwards, more light spots inexplicably appeared in the sea of ​​consciousness. These light spots Like small cells, they all began to converge towards the bottom of the sea of ​​consciousness.

Nanako Ito, who had lost all consciousness, suddenly woke up. After waking up, before she opened her eyes, she felt that the entire Buddhist hall seemed to be in front of her, and she seemed to be outside, overlooking the entire temple from a God's perspective. Buddhist temple.

She could see that in the Buddhist hall, Master Jingqing was looking at her while silently reciting scriptures, his expression seemed a little anxious, but she was still sitting cross-legged on the futon, as motionless as a wax figure.

At this time, she felt an unusual commotion on the roof of the Buddhist hall, so she thought slightly, and her consciousness came to the unusually turbulent roof, where she saw a gecko cautiously approaching a fly. , and then, the gecko suddenly stretched out its tongue and rolled the fly into its mouth at an extremely fast speed.

At this moment, Nanako could even hear the sound of a gecko swallowing a fly.

Then, she felt a subtle rustling sound again, and with a thought, she came to the corner of the Buddhist hall and saw a row of ants crawling in line.

This wonderful feeling surprised Nanako. She couldn't help but want her consciousness to leave the Buddhist hall, but her spiritual consciousness could not leave the Buddhist hall at all.

Just when she was doubting, she suddenly felt a sharp pain in her head. Then, the God's perspective completely disappeared. The next moment, she opened her eyes, and her consciousness returned to herself.

However, what was different from the last failure was that when she woke up this time, Nanako felt refreshed and indescribably comfortable.

Seeing her open her eyes, Master Jingqing breathed a sigh of relief and said subconsciously: "The donor has been in meditation for more than ten minutes this time, which is much longer than last time. How do you feel?"

Nanako said truthfully: "It felt like I could get out of my body, but the feeling disappeared after it didn't last long. I don't know if it was an illusion."

Master Jingqing nodded: "When the soul leaves the body, it actually uses spiritual energy to sense the surroundings. This can only be realized after the enlightenment is successful. People like poor monks who do not have spiritual energy to leave the sea of ​​consciousness do not have this ability at all. The donor just continued After two attempts, I must be too tired and hallucinating.”

Nanako nodded slightly and was about to speak when suddenly there was a slight movement on the roof. She quickly looked up and saw a gecko chasing a spider. That gecko seemed to be the one she had just seen from God's perspective. .

She stared closely at the gecko and couldn't help but say: "It seems...it's not an illusion..."