Chapter 720 You are the most important
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Ming Hua
Mrs. Yun slowed down for a while before returning to normal.
She bent down to pick up the phone, but the phone was still working, showing that she was on a call.
Mrs. Yun hurriedly asked: "Jinjin, what's wrong with you? Why do you need to see a psychiatrist?"
Yun Jin said calmly: "Antepartum depression."
Mrs. Yun's heart skipped a beat!
She was pregnant with twins for the first time, and because of an unexpected miscarriage, she was depressed for a long time.
I know that feeling too well.
Deep in the quagmire, there is no love for life.
No interest in anything, the whole person is like a walking corpse, shed tears all day long, and once wanted to commit suicide.
Those who have never experienced it will never understand the feeling, they will only feel that they are hypocritical, pretentious, and have too much to do.
Mrs. Yun lost her voice and said, "Why are you suddenly depressed? You were fine during the reunion dinner on New Year's Day."
Yun Jin said without emotion: "I don't know, not long after pregnancy, it's not normal, sometimes it's good and sometimes it's bad."
"Which psychological clinic are you in? I'll go find you right away!"
"No, I'm not in a stable mood right now, and I'm afraid of making you unhappy."
"I am your mother. It is right for a mother to tolerate her daughter."
Yun Jin smiled silently, "When I needed your tolerance the most, you gave it all to my sister, and now I don't need it anymore."
Realizing that the words were a bit harsh, Yun Jin immediately apologized: "I'm sorry Mom, I can't control my emotions for some reason. You'd better not come, I'm afraid that if I accidentally say something nasty, it will make you sad."
Mrs. Yun's eyes were red, "Stop talking, kid, send me the address quickly, otherwise Mom will feel guilty for the rest of her life."
Yun Jin was silent, and sent the address.
After half an hour.
Mrs. Yun rushed over.
Yun Jin is receiving psychotherapy.
After seeking consent, Mrs. Yun was led into the house by the staff.
Yun Jin sat in a special music relaxation chair.
Her face was calm, neither sad nor happy, and her beautiful big eyes seemed to be covered with a thin layer of dust.
Mrs. Yun sat down opposite the psychiatrist and asked, "Is my daughter diagnosed with depression during pregnancy?"
The psychiatrist nodded, "Miss Yun is a special kind of depression called smiling depression. She is cheerful, enthusiastic, lively, and confident on the surface. When she is alone, she will feel sad in her heart. Because she suppresses bad emotions with a smile for a long time, the patient will also develop ' This is not the real me' and other feelings, I feel that others cannot understand me, and when it is serious, I will self-mutilate or even commit suicide."
Mrs. Yun was too sad to speak.
The psychiatrist continued: "Frozen three feet is not a one-day cold, pregnancy is just a flash point. There are many triggers for this mental illness, most of which are related to childhood experiences. Of course, she is an athlete, and high-intensity training and competitions also have a lot to do with it." Relationship. You go to the hospital to make a diagnosis again. Simply relying on psychological treatment can’t solve the problem, and you need to cooperate with taking medicine or be admitted to the hospital for treatment.”
Hearing the word "take medicine", Yun Jin's complexion suddenly changed.
His hands subconsciously covered his lower abdomen.
Leaving the psychiatric clinic and getting into the car.
Mrs. Yun hugged Yun Jin, choked up and said, "It's all mother's fault. Mom shouldn't have put you in grandma's house. Mom neglected you too much. Seeing you are well-behaved and sensible, she thought you were fine."
Yun Jin smiled, "It's okay, Mom, I've grown up."
When she smiled, Mrs. Yun felt even more uncomfortable.
She held Yun Jin's face in her hands, "Don't laugh, don't laugh, just cry if you want to. Crying is also a way to vent your emotions."
Yun Jin still smiled, "I can't cry now."
The driver starts the car.
The mother and daughter came to the Municipal People's Hospital, Department of Psychiatry.
After a detailed examination, he was diagnosed with smiling depression.
It is better to take medicine and cooperate with treatment, and it is better to be hospitalized.
After listening to the doctor's words, Yun Jin was too sad to speak.
If you need to take medicine, you can't keep the baby in your belly.
This is her and Gu Jinyao's child, Gu Xianyun and Gu Xiao, the in-laws are married, and the clothes, toys and crib are all ready.
Why not?
At the thought of losing her child, Yun Jin's heart ached like it was bleeding.
After a long time, she stood up and said to the doctor: "Doctor, I'm pregnant, can you go back and discuss it with my husband?"
The doctor pushed the glasses on the bridge of the nose, "Yes, I really don't want to take medicine for treatment, so I will treat it conservatively and come to the hospital regularly for psychological counseling. I usually ask my family to accompany me more and not be stimulated. Although the effect is slow and will repeat, but other than that In addition, there is no other way. All antidepressants have an effect on the fetus."
The doctor looked at Mrs. Yun again, "Family members must pay attention to it, don't take it seriously, let alone blame the patient. Many patients with depression, because of negligence, aggravate their condition and lead to suicide, especially prenatal and postpartum depression."
Mrs. Yun hurriedly replied, "Okay, thank you doctor."
Yun Jin stood up.
The steps are heavy as if filled with lead.
Usually very agile, but now it is difficult to lift a leg.
Mrs. Yun hurriedly supported her.
Yun Jin moved instinctively, but then thought that this was her own mother, so she stopped and said softly to her, "Don't tell Ah Yao."
Afraid that he would be worried, and even more afraid that he would dislike her because of it.
It took her nearly two years of hard work to catch him.
Knowing that he has a good character and is a solid, reliable and responsible man, but because he cares too much about him, he will still worry about gains and losses.
Mrs. Yun hurriedly agreed, "All right, all up to you."
Return to Riyue Bay.
Mrs. Yun helped Yun Jin to sit on the sofa.
She walked into the kitchen, wanting to cook something delicious for Yunjin.
Only then did I realize that she is not picky about food, she seems to eat everything.
Mrs. Yun had no choice but to call her mother, and after asking in detail, she found out that Yun Jin was actually a picky eater, but she was not picky in front of them.
After spending the whole afternoon, Mrs. Yun personally cooked a table of dishes and served them on the table.
This is not a small difficulty for the rich wife who has been pampered since she was a child.
His hands were scalded by the splashed oil.
Yun Jin stared at the dazzling array of dishes and smiled.
This is the scene I was most looking forward to when I was a child, and it finally came, so I should be happy.
But Yun Jin couldn't be happy no matter what.
Mrs. Yun picked up a spoon and scooped up a spoonful of soup, put it to her lips and blew it, then handed it to her mouth, "Come on, Jinjin, drink the soup, mom will feed you."
Yun Jin looked at the soup in the spoon, her nose was sour.
When I was a child, my mother brought Yun Tian to my grandmother's house as a guest.
Mom feeds Yun Tian.
She also wanted to feed her mother.
But as soon as her mother fed her, Yun Tian cried and made noises, so her mother had to feed Yun Tian instead.
It's all small things.
Somehow, after all these years, she just couldn't forget it.
Yun Jin slowly opened her mouth and drank the soup fed by her mother. She didn't find it delicious, but just tasteless.
It's not about the soup.
It turns out that there are some things that can't be made up just by making up for them.
night.
Gu Jinyao returned home earlier than usual.
Although neither Yunjin nor Mrs. Yun told him, the driver's itinerary betrayed everything.
His mind was heavy.
I just changed my shoes when I entered the door.
Yun Jin came out to greet her with a smile on her face, she didn't seem to be in trouble at all.
Gu Jinyao took off his coat.
Yun Jin reached out to take it, hung it on the hanger, and wanted to help him take off the watch on his wrist.
Gu Jinyao held her hand, stared at her pale face, "What did you go to the hospital for?"
Yun Jin smiled sweetly, "It's nothing, it's just a routine inspection."
"You may have forgotten that I have been in the supernatural team for five years, and my reasoning ability is better than ordinary people. I am your husband, the person closest to you, and the person you should trust the most. If you don't tell me, tell me Who? It's not difficult to know the truth, just go to the hospital to find out, but I want to hear it from you. "
Seeing that she couldn't hide it any longer, Yun Jin had no choice but to truthfully say: "Depression, depression with a smile, I've been diagnosed."
Gu Jinyao's grip on her wrist suddenly tightened.
It hurt her to hold it.
Seeing her frowning slightly, Gu Jinyao realized it and hurriedly let go of her wrist.
He took a deep breath, "Treat it, you must be cured no matter what, you are more important than the child."
Yun Jin had mixed feelings in her heart.
She lightly raised her right hand to cover her lower abdomen, and smiled brightly at him, "Don't worry, I can hold on. I am an athlete and have super willpower. I will use super willpower to protect the two children. until they are born safely."
Gu Jinyao's emotions were too complicated to describe.
He hugged her into his arms and buried his chin in her hair, "There will be children in the future, you have to be good, you are more important than children. Did you hear that? You are the most important."
If it were in the past, Yun Jin would be delighted to hear Gu Jinyao say such things.
But now she just feels sad, heartbroken.
Hate yourself for not living up to expectations.
I have always been very strong, why did I suddenly lose my strength after pregnancy?
The chain is dropped at the critical moment.
Yun Jin said in a low voice: "Give it a try, I really can't bear it anymore. There will be children in the future, but it's not these two. These are Gu Xianyun and Gu Xiao, Xiao Yifeng's daughter-in-law, It's Nanyin's little son-in-law. We've been looking forward to it for so long, don't let them down."
Gu Jinyao was speechless, but hugged her even tighter.
I can't wait to conceive and have a child for her.
Bear all the pain for her.
She bent down to pick up the phone, but the phone was still working, showing that she was on a call.
Mrs. Yun hurriedly asked: "Jinjin, what's wrong with you? Why do you need to see a psychiatrist?"
Yun Jin said calmly: "Antepartum depression."
Mrs. Yun's heart skipped a beat!
She was pregnant with twins for the first time, and because of an unexpected miscarriage, she was depressed for a long time.
I know that feeling too well.
Deep in the quagmire, there is no love for life.
No interest in anything, the whole person is like a walking corpse, shed tears all day long, and once wanted to commit suicide.
Those who have never experienced it will never understand the feeling, they will only feel that they are hypocritical, pretentious, and have too much to do.
Mrs. Yun lost her voice and said, "Why are you suddenly depressed? You were fine during the reunion dinner on New Year's Day."
Yun Jin said without emotion: "I don't know, not long after pregnancy, it's not normal, sometimes it's good and sometimes it's bad."
"Which psychological clinic are you in? I'll go find you right away!"
"No, I'm not in a stable mood right now, and I'm afraid of making you unhappy."
"I am your mother. It is right for a mother to tolerate her daughter."
Yun Jin smiled silently, "When I needed your tolerance the most, you gave it all to my sister, and now I don't need it anymore."
Realizing that the words were a bit harsh, Yun Jin immediately apologized: "I'm sorry Mom, I can't control my emotions for some reason. You'd better not come, I'm afraid that if I accidentally say something nasty, it will make you sad."
Mrs. Yun's eyes were red, "Stop talking, kid, send me the address quickly, otherwise Mom will feel guilty for the rest of her life."
Yun Jin was silent, and sent the address.
After half an hour.
Mrs. Yun rushed over.
Yun Jin is receiving psychotherapy.
After seeking consent, Mrs. Yun was led into the house by the staff.
Yun Jin sat in a special music relaxation chair.
Her face was calm, neither sad nor happy, and her beautiful big eyes seemed to be covered with a thin layer of dust.
Mrs. Yun sat down opposite the psychiatrist and asked, "Is my daughter diagnosed with depression during pregnancy?"
The psychiatrist nodded, "Miss Yun is a special kind of depression called smiling depression. She is cheerful, enthusiastic, lively, and confident on the surface. When she is alone, she will feel sad in her heart. Because she suppresses bad emotions with a smile for a long time, the patient will also develop ' This is not the real me' and other feelings, I feel that others cannot understand me, and when it is serious, I will self-mutilate or even commit suicide."
Mrs. Yun was too sad to speak.
The psychiatrist continued: "Frozen three feet is not a one-day cold, pregnancy is just a flash point. There are many triggers for this mental illness, most of which are related to childhood experiences. Of course, she is an athlete, and high-intensity training and competitions also have a lot to do with it." Relationship. You go to the hospital to make a diagnosis again. Simply relying on psychological treatment can’t solve the problem, and you need to cooperate with taking medicine or be admitted to the hospital for treatment.”
Hearing the word "take medicine", Yun Jin's complexion suddenly changed.
His hands subconsciously covered his lower abdomen.
Leaving the psychiatric clinic and getting into the car.
Mrs. Yun hugged Yun Jin, choked up and said, "It's all mother's fault. Mom shouldn't have put you in grandma's house. Mom neglected you too much. Seeing you are well-behaved and sensible, she thought you were fine."
Yun Jin smiled, "It's okay, Mom, I've grown up."
When she smiled, Mrs. Yun felt even more uncomfortable.
She held Yun Jin's face in her hands, "Don't laugh, don't laugh, just cry if you want to. Crying is also a way to vent your emotions."
Yun Jin still smiled, "I can't cry now."
The driver starts the car.
The mother and daughter came to the Municipal People's Hospital, Department of Psychiatry.
After a detailed examination, he was diagnosed with smiling depression.
It is better to take medicine and cooperate with treatment, and it is better to be hospitalized.
After listening to the doctor's words, Yun Jin was too sad to speak.
If you need to take medicine, you can't keep the baby in your belly.
This is her and Gu Jinyao's child, Gu Xianyun and Gu Xiao, the in-laws are married, and the clothes, toys and crib are all ready.
Why not?
At the thought of losing her child, Yun Jin's heart ached like it was bleeding.
After a long time, she stood up and said to the doctor: "Doctor, I'm pregnant, can you go back and discuss it with my husband?"
The doctor pushed the glasses on the bridge of the nose, "Yes, I really don't want to take medicine for treatment, so I will treat it conservatively and come to the hospital regularly for psychological counseling. I usually ask my family to accompany me more and not be stimulated. Although the effect is slow and will repeat, but other than that In addition, there is no other way. All antidepressants have an effect on the fetus."
The doctor looked at Mrs. Yun again, "Family members must pay attention to it, don't take it seriously, let alone blame the patient. Many patients with depression, because of negligence, aggravate their condition and lead to suicide, especially prenatal and postpartum depression."
Mrs. Yun hurriedly replied, "Okay, thank you doctor."
Yun Jin stood up.
The steps are heavy as if filled with lead.
Usually very agile, but now it is difficult to lift a leg.
Mrs. Yun hurriedly supported her.
Yun Jin moved instinctively, but then thought that this was her own mother, so she stopped and said softly to her, "Don't tell Ah Yao."
Afraid that he would be worried, and even more afraid that he would dislike her because of it.
It took her nearly two years of hard work to catch him.
Knowing that he has a good character and is a solid, reliable and responsible man, but because he cares too much about him, he will still worry about gains and losses.
Mrs. Yun hurriedly agreed, "All right, all up to you."
Return to Riyue Bay.
Mrs. Yun helped Yun Jin to sit on the sofa.
She walked into the kitchen, wanting to cook something delicious for Yunjin.
Only then did I realize that she is not picky about food, she seems to eat everything.
Mrs. Yun had no choice but to call her mother, and after asking in detail, she found out that Yun Jin was actually a picky eater, but she was not picky in front of them.
After spending the whole afternoon, Mrs. Yun personally cooked a table of dishes and served them on the table.
This is not a small difficulty for the rich wife who has been pampered since she was a child.
His hands were scalded by the splashed oil.
Yun Jin stared at the dazzling array of dishes and smiled.
This is the scene I was most looking forward to when I was a child, and it finally came, so I should be happy.
But Yun Jin couldn't be happy no matter what.
Mrs. Yun picked up a spoon and scooped up a spoonful of soup, put it to her lips and blew it, then handed it to her mouth, "Come on, Jinjin, drink the soup, mom will feed you."
Yun Jin looked at the soup in the spoon, her nose was sour.
When I was a child, my mother brought Yun Tian to my grandmother's house as a guest.
Mom feeds Yun Tian.
She also wanted to feed her mother.
But as soon as her mother fed her, Yun Tian cried and made noises, so her mother had to feed Yun Tian instead.
It's all small things.
Somehow, after all these years, she just couldn't forget it.
Yun Jin slowly opened her mouth and drank the soup fed by her mother. She didn't find it delicious, but just tasteless.
It's not about the soup.
It turns out that there are some things that can't be made up just by making up for them.
night.
Gu Jinyao returned home earlier than usual.
Although neither Yunjin nor Mrs. Yun told him, the driver's itinerary betrayed everything.
His mind was heavy.
I just changed my shoes when I entered the door.
Yun Jin came out to greet her with a smile on her face, she didn't seem to be in trouble at all.
Gu Jinyao took off his coat.
Yun Jin reached out to take it, hung it on the hanger, and wanted to help him take off the watch on his wrist.
Gu Jinyao held her hand, stared at her pale face, "What did you go to the hospital for?"
Yun Jin smiled sweetly, "It's nothing, it's just a routine inspection."
"You may have forgotten that I have been in the supernatural team for five years, and my reasoning ability is better than ordinary people. I am your husband, the person closest to you, and the person you should trust the most. If you don't tell me, tell me Who? It's not difficult to know the truth, just go to the hospital to find out, but I want to hear it from you. "
Seeing that she couldn't hide it any longer, Yun Jin had no choice but to truthfully say: "Depression, depression with a smile, I've been diagnosed."
Gu Jinyao's grip on her wrist suddenly tightened.
It hurt her to hold it.
Seeing her frowning slightly, Gu Jinyao realized it and hurriedly let go of her wrist.
He took a deep breath, "Treat it, you must be cured no matter what, you are more important than the child."
Yun Jin had mixed feelings in her heart.
She lightly raised her right hand to cover her lower abdomen, and smiled brightly at him, "Don't worry, I can hold on. I am an athlete and have super willpower. I will use super willpower to protect the two children. until they are born safely."
Gu Jinyao's emotions were too complicated to describe.
He hugged her into his arms and buried his chin in her hair, "There will be children in the future, you have to be good, you are more important than children. Did you hear that? You are the most important."
If it were in the past, Yun Jin would be delighted to hear Gu Jinyao say such things.
But now she just feels sad, heartbroken.
Hate yourself for not living up to expectations.
I have always been very strong, why did I suddenly lose my strength after pregnancy?
The chain is dropped at the critical moment.
Yun Jin said in a low voice: "Give it a try, I really can't bear it anymore. There will be children in the future, but it's not these two. These are Gu Xianyun and Gu Xiao, Xiao Yifeng's daughter-in-law, It's Nanyin's little son-in-law. We've been looking forward to it for so long, don't let them down."
Gu Jinyao was speechless, but hugged her even tighter.
I can't wait to conceive and have a child for her.
Bear all the pain for her.
