Chapter 1711: Living is a torment

Qin Feng returned to the meeting room and continued the meeting as if nothing had happened.

After the meeting, Qin Feng called Zhang Yuguang over, arranged some work for him, then got in the car and asked Wang Junshou to drive him back to Dongyang.

Qin Feng rushed back to Dongyang in the afternoon.

Qin Feng asked Wang Junshou to drive the car to Dongyang First People's Hospital, which was also the hospital where Hong Yue worked before.

Hong Yue used to work here, but now she is hospitalized here.

Qin Feng took Wang Jun into the ward, where Li Jing and Li Li were.

"elder brother……"

"Qin Feng..."

Li Jing and Li Li stood up.

Qin Feng nodded and walked to Hong Yue.

"I'm sorry... I... I..." Hong Yue lowered her head in shame when she saw Qin Feng, and couldn't help but shed tears.

Hong Yue's wrist was bandaged with gauze and she was receiving an IV drip.

Qin Feng did not finish speaking to Hong Yue, but turned to ask Li Jing: "What did the doctor say?"

"He was sent to the hospital in time, so it's not a big deal. Fortunately, the nanny found it in time, otherwise..."

Li Jing didn’t say what was behind it, but Qin Feng knew what was behind it.

"What's going on?" Qin Feng asked again.

"I went to work at the company, and the nanny stayed at home to look after Hong Yue. In the morning, the nanny went out to buy groceries. I specifically told the nanny to go and come back quickly and not to leave her alone at home for too long."

"The nanny told me that she bought vegetables at the gate of the community, and it took less than 20 minutes to go there and back. When she came back, she found that she had taken a knife to cut her wrists in the kitchen."

"Luckily, she had just cut her wrist when the nanny came back, so she called 120 immediately. The nanny also temporarily bandaged it and pressed to stop the bleeding, otherwise the consequences would be disastrous." Li Jing gave a brief explanation of the situation.

"I'm sorry Qin Feng, you gave Hong Yue to me, but I didn't take good care of her. I'm sorry for you and for Hong Yue." Li Jing said this with red eyes.

"It's not your fault. I should be grateful to you." Qin Feng shook his head, then said to Li Jing and Li Li: "You two should go back and rest first. I'll stay here with her."

Li Jing and Li Li looked at each other and then left the ward.

Qin Feng slowly sat down beside Hong Yue, held Hong Yue's bandaged wrist and asked, "Does it hurt?"

In fact, after hearing the news that Hong Yue committed suicide by cutting her wrists, Qin Feng was very angry and wanted to scold Hong Yue.

But when he saw Hong Yue, all of Qin Feng's anger disappeared, leaving only pity.

"I'm sorry... I know I shouldn't have done that... You and Li Jing have given so much for me, cared about me and taken care of me, but I'm still causing trouble for you..."

"But sometimes I really can't control myself. I can't control my emotions, and I can't control my actions."

"Qin Feng, why don't you just let me die? I am a useless person now. I really don't know what the meaning of my life is. I can't do anything. I just wait to eat and sleep every day. I need someone to take care of me. I am causing trouble for you and becoming a burden to you."

"I am really tired of living. I don't want to be like this, but I really can't find the meaning of my life. I live in torment every day..."

As Hong Yue was speaking, her emotions suddenly exploded. She looked at Qin Feng and her tears flowed down like broken strings.

Qin Feng was very shocked. He didn't expect that Hong Yue would think this way.

Qin Feng also felt deeply guilty. He used to think that curing Hong Yue's illness and taking good care of her was good to her, but now he realized that it was not the case. He had never put himself in Hong Yue's shoes and considered her current feelings, nor had he ever really cared about her.

Qin Feng lit a cigarette, took two puffs, and asked Hong Yue: "You are not afraid of death, so why are you afraid of living?"

"Sometimes living is more painful and more terrifying than death." Hong Yue said slowly.

Hong Yue's words struck Qin Feng's heart again, causing his heart to palpitate.

"I'm sorry, I didn't care enough about you." Qin Feng said self-reproachfully.

"It's not your fault. You've been good enough to me and have done so much for me. I don't want you to spend more time on me. I don't want to be a burden to you. I don't want to be a burden to you when I'm already a useless person." Hong Yue cried and shook her head.

Qin Feng had thought of many words to comfort Hong Yue, but now sitting in front of Hong Yue and feeling Hong Yue's true feelings, he felt that the so-called comforting words he wanted to say became so pale.

"If you really commit suicide to free yourself, have you ever thought about how I would feel? Do you think I can get over this hurdle in my heart for the next half of my life? If you free yourself, I will only spend the rest of my life in agony." Qin Feng said in a deep voice while smoking.

"It may be cruel for me to say this to you, and I am also very selfish, but this is the truth, Hong Yue. If you care about me, then don't do this kind of thing again in the future."

"I know you are in pain and suffering now, but you have to believe me. I will find a way to help you get rid of this feeling. You also have to promise me that you will never do such a stupid thing again, and you can't even have such an idea again." Qin Feng said slowly.