Chapter 79 I Can't Delay You
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Feng Liu Xiao Er
"Qin Feng, when you read this letter, I have already left Bishan. Don't waste your time looking for me. I said that if I leave, I won't let you find me."
"Coming to Bishan is just a temporary decision of mine. Work comes second, and it's more about relaxation. Before I came here, I had agreed to stay here for only two years, but now that the two-year period has passed, even if I want to continue to stay with them It will not be allowed, whether I agree or not, I have to leave."
"Of course, the biggest reason for me to insist on leaving is not them, but you."
"You like me, love me, I can see that. You said you were going to marry me, and I'm very happy, because I found that I started to fall in love with you too. But some things can be said, but can't be done, It can't be true."
"You are 25 years old, and I am 35 years old. When you are in the prime of life, I will already be gray-haired. I have been married, but I can't have children. I am not your good match. I can't give you a perfect home."
"I have completely despaired of marriage and feelings, even fear. I will never have the courage to take that step in my life. And your youth, your life and your world have just begun. I can't delay you, let alone ruin you."
"The year and a half before Bishan was the quietest and most peaceful period of my life, and the half year since you came here was the happiest and most exciting half year of my life. It’s all going to be a black and white landscape painting, but I didn’t expect your occasional stop here to leave a touch of eye-catching color on my black and white paper. For me, this is enough.”
"Yu Bishan, I am just a passer-by, and for you, I am just a passer-by in your life. You may be sad and sad after I leave, but time will drown everything, just like the ancient city of Loulan in the desert. How wonderful, when the wind and sand blow, everything will be a memory."
"..."
Holding letter paper in one hand and a cigarette in the other, Qin Feng sat on the ground beside Hu Jiayun's bed, leaning against the edge of the bed, smoking one after another.
It was dark outside, and the room without the light turned on became darker and darker, darker and darker, the dark room was quiet, only the cigarette in Qin Feng's mouth glowed a little, reflecting half of his haggard face. Face.
Time seemed to stand still, and to Qin Feng at this moment, time had no meaning.
I don't know how long it took, but with a bang, the room suddenly became brightly lit, Qin Feng couldn't open his eyes under the glare of the light, he stretched out his hand to cover his eyes, after getting used to it, he put down his hand, and saw a The woman stood at the door watching him.
"Why are you here?" Qin Feng squeezed out a forced smile with all his strength.
Seeing Qin Feng's haggard appearance and the pile of cigarette butts on the ground, Hong Yue felt very distressed. She put the lunch box in her hand on the table, walked over slowly, and gently took half of a cigarette from Qin Feng's hand. The cigarettes were taken away and extinguished on the ground.
"Smoking too much is bad for your health. Let's eat something first!" Hong Yue said softly.
Qin Feng nodded, stood up, went to the table and opened the lunch box, which contained the meals made by Hong Yue himself.
Qin Feng was eating, although he didn't have an appetite.
Hong Yue took a broom and cleaned up Qin Feng's cigarette butts, then sat beside Qin Feng and watched Qin Feng eat.
Hong Yue could feel the pain in Qin Feng's heart, and she could also guess that Qin Feng and Hu Jiayun were not siblings.From the moment she entered the door and saw Qin Feng's painful appearance, she knew how much Qin Feng loved Hu Jiayun.
Although she was sad, Hu Jiayun had already left, and she couldn't let go of the man in front of her, especially when this man was in such a difficult moment.
"It's delicious, and the craftsmanship is very good, but... I'm not too hungry." Qin Feng ate a few mouthfuls, but he really lost his appetite, and said to Hong Yue apologetically.
"It's okay, I know you have no appetite." Hong Yue nodded.
"Thank you!" Qin Feng said gratefully.
"I...can't comfort people..." Hong Yue said with some self-blame.
Qin Feng smiled: "It is the greatest comfort that you can come here."
"I can see that you love her very much!"
Qin Feng did not deny it, but said to Hong Yue apologetically, "Sorry!"
"I'll tell my brother that I don't like you, and tell him to stop talking about me and you." Hong Yue gritted her teeth.She wanted to cry when she said this, but held back.
Qin Feng was very surprised by Hong Yue's words, with a lot of thoughts in his heart, and finally moved his lips a few times before finally saying: "I'm sorry, thank you too!"
"Since you can't eat, I'll go back first." Hong Yue stood up and packed the lunch box.
"I'll see you off." Qin Feng also got up.
"No, Bishan is remote and backward, but it's safe." Hong Yue shook her head, and continued, "You should rest early, and don't smoke so much."
"Good!" Qin Feng nodded.
Hong Yue put away the lunch box and went out, Qin Feng sent it outside the corridor, watching Hong Yue leave alone with a flashlight.
From the moment Hong Yue turned around, she left Qin Feng with a strong back, but tears were streaming down her face, and her breathing hurt a little.
That night, Qin Feng did not leave Hu Jiayun's house, nor did he turn on the lights.
Early the next morning, Qin Feng went back to his room to pack his things, and then rode a motorcycle to the dormitory that Hong Haifeng assigned to him last time.
When Qin Feng walked into this dormitory, he realized that this is not a dormitory. This is an apartment with two living rooms, one bedroom, one kitchen and one bathroom. The most important thing is that the interior is well-decorated, and all kinds of furniture and appliances are fully equipped.
It was only later that Qin Feng found out that this dormitory also belonged to Chang Yong before.At that time, in order to please Qin Feng, Hong Haifeng allocated all the office and dormitory left by Chang Yong to Qin Feng.
Qin Feng glanced at this room, and shook his head helplessly. Chang Yong's room is decorated like this, so the standards of Wang Yunfei and Xu Guoli's rooms must be higher than this one.
Qin Feng heard from Li Dejun that Wang Yunfei used the 30 yuan left for road construction in Niujiaoshan Village to renovate the leadership dormitory.
A road in Niujiaoshan Village that is related to the lives and safety of all the people in the village cannot be repaired because of lack of money for more than ten years, but the leaders of the village live in extremely luxurious houses. Isn't this the biggest irony?Qin Feng suddenly had an inexplicable dislike for this room.
Qin Feng sighed, put his things into the house, closed the door and went to the office without tidying up.
"Coming to Bishan is just a temporary decision of mine. Work comes second, and it's more about relaxation. Before I came here, I had agreed to stay here for only two years, but now that the two-year period has passed, even if I want to continue to stay with them It will not be allowed, whether I agree or not, I have to leave."
"Of course, the biggest reason for me to insist on leaving is not them, but you."
"You like me, love me, I can see that. You said you were going to marry me, and I'm very happy, because I found that I started to fall in love with you too. But some things can be said, but can't be done, It can't be true."
"You are 25 years old, and I am 35 years old. When you are in the prime of life, I will already be gray-haired. I have been married, but I can't have children. I am not your good match. I can't give you a perfect home."
"I have completely despaired of marriage and feelings, even fear. I will never have the courage to take that step in my life. And your youth, your life and your world have just begun. I can't delay you, let alone ruin you."
"The year and a half before Bishan was the quietest and most peaceful period of my life, and the half year since you came here was the happiest and most exciting half year of my life. It’s all going to be a black and white landscape painting, but I didn’t expect your occasional stop here to leave a touch of eye-catching color on my black and white paper. For me, this is enough.”
"Yu Bishan, I am just a passer-by, and for you, I am just a passer-by in your life. You may be sad and sad after I leave, but time will drown everything, just like the ancient city of Loulan in the desert. How wonderful, when the wind and sand blow, everything will be a memory."
"..."
Holding letter paper in one hand and a cigarette in the other, Qin Feng sat on the ground beside Hu Jiayun's bed, leaning against the edge of the bed, smoking one after another.
It was dark outside, and the room without the light turned on became darker and darker, darker and darker, the dark room was quiet, only the cigarette in Qin Feng's mouth glowed a little, reflecting half of his haggard face. Face.
Time seemed to stand still, and to Qin Feng at this moment, time had no meaning.
I don't know how long it took, but with a bang, the room suddenly became brightly lit, Qin Feng couldn't open his eyes under the glare of the light, he stretched out his hand to cover his eyes, after getting used to it, he put down his hand, and saw a The woman stood at the door watching him.
"Why are you here?" Qin Feng squeezed out a forced smile with all his strength.
Seeing Qin Feng's haggard appearance and the pile of cigarette butts on the ground, Hong Yue felt very distressed. She put the lunch box in her hand on the table, walked over slowly, and gently took half of a cigarette from Qin Feng's hand. The cigarettes were taken away and extinguished on the ground.
"Smoking too much is bad for your health. Let's eat something first!" Hong Yue said softly.
Qin Feng nodded, stood up, went to the table and opened the lunch box, which contained the meals made by Hong Yue himself.
Qin Feng was eating, although he didn't have an appetite.
Hong Yue took a broom and cleaned up Qin Feng's cigarette butts, then sat beside Qin Feng and watched Qin Feng eat.
Hong Yue could feel the pain in Qin Feng's heart, and she could also guess that Qin Feng and Hu Jiayun were not siblings.From the moment she entered the door and saw Qin Feng's painful appearance, she knew how much Qin Feng loved Hu Jiayun.
Although she was sad, Hu Jiayun had already left, and she couldn't let go of the man in front of her, especially when this man was in such a difficult moment.
"It's delicious, and the craftsmanship is very good, but... I'm not too hungry." Qin Feng ate a few mouthfuls, but he really lost his appetite, and said to Hong Yue apologetically.
"It's okay, I know you have no appetite." Hong Yue nodded.
"Thank you!" Qin Feng said gratefully.
"I...can't comfort people..." Hong Yue said with some self-blame.
Qin Feng smiled: "It is the greatest comfort that you can come here."
"I can see that you love her very much!"
Qin Feng did not deny it, but said to Hong Yue apologetically, "Sorry!"
"I'll tell my brother that I don't like you, and tell him to stop talking about me and you." Hong Yue gritted her teeth.She wanted to cry when she said this, but held back.
Qin Feng was very surprised by Hong Yue's words, with a lot of thoughts in his heart, and finally moved his lips a few times before finally saying: "I'm sorry, thank you too!"
"Since you can't eat, I'll go back first." Hong Yue stood up and packed the lunch box.
"I'll see you off." Qin Feng also got up.
"No, Bishan is remote and backward, but it's safe." Hong Yue shook her head, and continued, "You should rest early, and don't smoke so much."
"Good!" Qin Feng nodded.
Hong Yue put away the lunch box and went out, Qin Feng sent it outside the corridor, watching Hong Yue leave alone with a flashlight.
From the moment Hong Yue turned around, she left Qin Feng with a strong back, but tears were streaming down her face, and her breathing hurt a little.
That night, Qin Feng did not leave Hu Jiayun's house, nor did he turn on the lights.
Early the next morning, Qin Feng went back to his room to pack his things, and then rode a motorcycle to the dormitory that Hong Haifeng assigned to him last time.
When Qin Feng walked into this dormitory, he realized that this is not a dormitory. This is an apartment with two living rooms, one bedroom, one kitchen and one bathroom. The most important thing is that the interior is well-decorated, and all kinds of furniture and appliances are fully equipped.
It was only later that Qin Feng found out that this dormitory also belonged to Chang Yong before.At that time, in order to please Qin Feng, Hong Haifeng allocated all the office and dormitory left by Chang Yong to Qin Feng.
Qin Feng glanced at this room, and shook his head helplessly. Chang Yong's room is decorated like this, so the standards of Wang Yunfei and Xu Guoli's rooms must be higher than this one.
Qin Feng heard from Li Dejun that Wang Yunfei used the 30 yuan left for road construction in Niujiaoshan Village to renovate the leadership dormitory.
A road in Niujiaoshan Village that is related to the lives and safety of all the people in the village cannot be repaired because of lack of money for more than ten years, but the leaders of the village live in extremely luxurious houses. Isn't this the biggest irony?Qin Feng suddenly had an inexplicable dislike for this room.
Qin Feng sighed, put his things into the house, closed the door and went to the office without tidying up.
