Chapter 887 God and Me (4k, 2 in 1)

Qian Renxue's shadow opened her mouth, but in the end, she said nothing.

……

I remembered.

I remembered why I left without saying goodbye and hurried to the sun alone, leaving Ye Xishui, Shen Yuanyi, and the Two Emperors of Ice and Snow, the most important people in this life, in the universe around Douluo Star, and even let them go back to Douluo Star by themselves.

After coming out of isolation at the Sun, I should have gone back to Douluo Star to report my safety.

but I do not have.

Even before taking them to the universe for retreat, he had secretly left a letter in the Pope's Palace.

Looking back now, it’s really a bit funny. I wanted them to know, but I also wanted them not to know so soon. It was such a stupid and inconsistent behavior.

…Because my humanity is constantly being washed away, it is difficult for me to think and view things from a human perspective.

I know this day will eventually come. Ever since I returned to the mainland from the Star Dou Great Forest a hundred years ago, I knew that this day was destined to come - but I always hope that this day will come later.

From the moment I embarked on this journey, I had already begun on a path of “giving up” my human identity.

Now when I look at Shen Yuanyi, it’s as if I’m seeing myself after I embarked on this journey.

I even hate her a little bit like this, just as I hate myself in the past.

I had hoped that she would slow down the loss of my humanity, but now she had made me see things that I should have already left behind.

A person is most sincere, without any other distracting thoughts, when he is most panicked and fearful, and when he is most happy and forgetful.

But I didn't know how to respond to her enthusiasm.

I can feel that it is her strong obsession that has made her persist for the past hundred years.

But I finally used my ability to catch her and prevented her from slipping away from my illusory figure. Was this an instinctive and unintentional act?

Or does it come from the last bit of weakness in me, the part of me that has not yet completely disappeared - my human self?

I looked at her closed eyes, as if she was trying to use her body temperature to make me feel what "existence" was.

Her tail was shaking slightly. The real Jade-faced Qingqiu of the Ten-Tailed Fox was wrapping me with her furry tail, as if this could make me feel what "warmth" was.

That was clearly the attitude I had already given up, and that was clearly something I had decided to say goodbye to completely before I fell asleep this time.

Because I can no longer be touched by anyone, and I can no longer be felt by anyone.

Are these tears?

I looked down at my chest, which was slightly rising and falling, and there seemed to be crystal liquid hanging on it.

……

Suddenly, the stars shifted around Shen Yuanyi, and she seemed to have traveled through time and space and arrived in an unknown starry sky.

Beside her were two identical Qian Renxue.

"This is where?" She was shocked.

"It's inside my body." The little angel said expressionlessly.

Seeing the expressionless face of the little angel Qian Renxue, Shen Yuanyi was shocked.

"Ignore her." The little devil patted Shen Yuanyi's shoulder. "This guy is about to become an immortal, so he looks a little abnormal."

"I'm not abnormal, I just..." The little angel closed his eyes.

She was a little weak, and seemed to have used up all her strength when she spoke: "I don't know what to say."

The little devil was silent for a moment. She could naturally see the problem with the little angel. This guy was becoming more and more ruthless, but the little angel was also deliberately avoiding all this from happening - just like the other party had directly and violently smashed the "mirror" and pulled the little devil out of his spiritual plane - at the last moment before they went to the sun.

It is just like the first thing the little angel did after coming out of confinement in the sun was to resurrect Qian Daoliu.

But she seemed to have changed since then.

Cold, ruthless, cruel and fierce.

The little devil still has the habit of playing with his enemies, and the little angel regards it as a task. He draws his sword and chops people, then turns around and walks away.

So the little devil will teasingly call the little angel "dear" to touch the other person's inner defense line.

"I have been traveling all the way just to achieve my goal." The little angel whispered, "It seems that I am moving forward all the way, but in fact I am still blind."

Shen Yuanyi closed her eyes gently. She understood what Miss Angel meant. To keep moving forward for a certain purpose could actually be considered a blind move forward.

Just like she has been in this hundred years.

"So, when you say this is inside your body, what do you mean? How did I get into your body?" Shen Yuanyi looked around.

"Because of Qian Renxue's peculiarities, the sea of ​​consciousness in her head did not stop evolving after it evolved into a small plane. Instead, due to the dual souls of life and death, the chaos of yin and yang, and her own perceptions and experiences, it became something capable of evolving into a universe." The little angel said softly, "And we, in a great battle, blew ourselves up with the Supreme God King Dragon God, and tried to deceive this universe with an illusion. Erase ourselves from this universe."

"So, Qian Renxue actually no longer has a physical body. What exists is just a concept, an illusory concept called [Qian Renxue]. She is like a dot, an imperceptible dot. She can be any shape, the hair ornament on the Silver Dragon King's head, the pattern on Xu Jiujiu's hairpin, dust, or gravel... In short, she is no longer a human being."

"But hidden inside this point is a universe." Shen Yuanyi said calmly, "And humans, that is the past that you can no longer touch."

"Because I hate the feeling of being bound by rules." The little devil said, "This is not just your feeling, Miss Angel, but also my feeling. That's why we embarked on this path, the road called Infinity."

"But, you are no different from completely disappearing like this." Shen Yuanyi said softly, "You can no longer be sensed, you can no longer be touched... In fact, except for me, no one can [prove] your existence."

"You?" The little devil tilted his head and looked at her.

"At least, the moment my tears flowed, I heard my heartbeat." Shen Yuanyi turned her head away, "How long has it been since you heard your own heartbeat?"

"More than a hundred years." said the little angel.

"No, you are wrong." Shen Yuanyi slowly raised his head and looked at the two Qian Renxue, "There has never been such a thing."

两个千仞雪诧异的看向沈媛熠。

“您不在的这段时间里，我翻阅了武魂殿几乎所有的历史书籍。从您祖先建立斗罗殿，到后来演变为教会，再到一万多年前变成武魂殿的形式，其中每一个细节我几乎都能背诵下来。”沈媛熠慢慢的说，“天使家族的血脉里就有爱人的基因，您的祖先里不乏有那种铁石心肠之人，但他们总是会不由自主的去【爱人】，爱那些普通人。”

"Even though you have been lurking in the Tiandou Palace for twenty years and seem to have killed many people, you even joked that you were an executioner... But in fact, if the Spirit Hall wanted to conquer the continent at that time, it was completely possible. However, you and the Spirit Hall were more or less worried about the casualties of civilians."

Qian Renxue's body stiffened. How could they dig up all the past history and even look like they were trying to whitewash it?

However, what she said was not completely whitewashing, because there were indeed concerns in this regard at the time, otherwise the war might have broken out long ago.

"Humans are eager to prove their faith and become gods, but after becoming gods, those beings with the blood of gods are eager to become ordinary humans again." Shen Yuanyi said, "This is my summary of the angel family. Otherwise, there are so many of your ancestors, and there are people who are better than your grandfather, but there is no one who inherits the throne of God again."

"So you haven't heard your own heartbeat, because you haven't lived for yourself." Shen Yuanyi's voice, which had originally become normal, slowed down again. "The so-called living for yourself this time is just a pretense to deceive yourself, because you also know your own shortcomings in your heart. If you don't force yourself to believe in something, then you won't be able to get to where you are today."

The little angel was silent for a long time, then hummed lightly.

The little devil shrugged. She was too lazy to comment on such things.

"Okay, I brought you here because I want you to do something for me." The little devil spoke at the right time.

"What's the matter?" Shen Yuanyi couldn't help but ask when he heard this.

"In this universe, I cut Tang San's spiritual imprint into countless pieces, so as to deduce what would happen if Qian Renxue had not been reborn." The little devil waved his hand and enlarged a star map.

"Among them, there is a slice of divine consciousness that did the best. He completed many plans and eventually reached the level of the Supreme God King, and formed a divine alliance made up of multiple divine realms." The little devil said, "After my mother's observation, she found that this slice is the most original part of his divine consciousness. I will forcibly reverse the time on him and let the story go back to the beginning. Go and help me bring back the origin of his divine consciousness."

"At the very beginning?" Shen Yuanyi frowned.

"That's right, it was ten thousand years before you were born, the time when I failed." The little devil patted her shoulder, "We will wait for you, wait for you to take back his spiritual source, and then..."

"Then what?" Shen Yuanyi asked.

"Let's talk about it when you come back." said the little devil.

"I'm actually very curious, why are you so persistent in studying him? He's already dead, died in your hands."

"Because there is also a person exactly like him in this universe. They don't seem to know each other, but they are vaguely connected, just like me and her." The little angel turned his head, "We need that origin to break through [a layer of separation]."

"Okay, I understand." Shen Yuanyi nodded.

"Remember, you are about to face a guy who reversed time from the Supreme God King to the past, because this slice has reached a very high level before." The little devil said slowly, "Do you want to review his past?"

"No need." Shen Yuanyi said, "I will help you do this, but you still owe me an answer."

"What's the answer?" The little angel turned and looked at her.

"Let's talk about it when I come back." Shen Yuanyi closed his eyes.

"Wait." The little devil stopped her, "I'll change your martial soul for you."

“……?” Shen Yuanyi opened her eyes and tilted her head.

"I'm afraid you'll die." The little devil shot a beam of light at Shen Yuanyi. "The Qian Renxue from ten thousand years ago was a fool. She didn't know how to look people in the eye. If you want to get her attention, you'd better be at the peak when you debut, at least stronger than an angel spirit."

The little angel glanced at the little devil unhappily but did not refute.

"If she does something stupid, can we beat her?" Shen Yuanyi felt the beam of light and asked casually.

Hearing this, the little angel was stunned.

"Beat her, beat her hard." The little devil waved his hand, "But don't disturb her when you see her looking in the mirror. She's a little introverted and will be shy when looking in the mirror... and she will get violent and hurt people if she's discovered."

A streak of light flashed by, and then Shen Yuanyi followed the guidance of the little devil, turned into a point of light, and flew towards the location of the star map.

The little angel returned to God, and then said, "Dare to hit me, this damn girl wants to rebel?"

The little devil hugged the little angel and said, "Why is it that she speaks so fluently once she leaves you?"

The little angel said slowly: "I don't know either."

The little devil shook his head: "You guys, sometimes you are a little dazed, no matter in the past or now."

"Because she is right." The little angel said, "The Angel Family is like this. Love is engraved in their bones. They believe in the principle that [the greatest self-interest is to benefit others]. But unfortunately, in the past, this highest principle was not fully applied."

"It's okay. Now we will become our home." The little devil hugged the little angel from behind and put his head on her shoulder. "Then we can do what we want to do."

The little angel looked down and she saw the little devil had one arm around her waist and the other hand stretched out.

On that hand, shining brightly was the mark of Chang Gongwei's divine world.

"This divine mark contains the aura of the angel of light we killed. Do you still remember his name?" asked the little devil.

"I don't remember." The little angel shook her head. "Who would remember the names of the enemies she killed? My brain is too precious to tolerate such impurities. Erasing some memories at the right time can make me feel a little more relaxed."

"That's not important." The little devil said, "His seed of godhood was dispersed at that time, so it didn't remain in our universe. But fortunately, we got this..."

The little angel said, "Do you think this plan is reliable?"

The little devil shook his head: "I'm not sure, but now that we are the masters of our own universe, everything we see is telling us... the various possibilities of time and space, isn't it?"

"Hmm..." the little angel responded softly.

"This time, we have to take the initiative to attack and directly destroy the other side's time and space. Otherwise, if they continue to develop, they may also sense that something is wrong." The little devil said, "The supercomputer in the hands of the God King named Tianhen can calculate many things. This is beyond our technology based on soul power, heavenly power and so on. I have to worry."

"We'll go to the Undead World and capture that dead rabbit." The little angel regained his composure, and then said calmly, "It's probably not enough to rely on the Tang San consciousness imprint that Yuanyi brought back. It will be difficult to add the aura of this angel of light... They believe that love can transcend time and space and create miracles. We can use this in reverse."

"A thousand years." The little devil said, "We need a thousand years to use the information from the angel of light to locate that vague parallel world."

The little angel nodded slightly: "He also served as a leader in some great circle of gods, and could locate the time and space he was in at that time."

"After acquiring the beacon, we can set off."