Chapter 1338 Brave Cowardice
No one could come to see her off, and she wouldn't even have a tombstone.
But it doesn't matter, does it?
Nothing to regret.
Someone knows I have been here, someone remembers my name, someone has been with me.
At the end of my life, I still remember...
Yes, I remember, I...
Me~
I actually... don’t want to die~!
I would also feel unwilling~!
But why? Why is it still like this after becoming a conscious being? Shouldn't a conscious being be insignificant?
But why has my life become like this?
I clearly look forward to every morning and every tomorrow.
But I...there is no tomorrow anymore.
There is no tomorrow, why do you want me to remember everything?
Forgetting...isn't it good? If you forget, you won't feel unwilling.
You wouldn’t know that cherry blossoms are pink, the sky is blue, candy is sweet, flowers are fragrant, the sun is bright, the sea is level with the blue sky, and hugs are warm.
Look, it turns out that I still have so many things to do, and it turns out that the world is not all gray.
It turns out that I am really beautiful when I smile.
It turns out that I once had the warmth that I could never get.
...
"Really, I really want to hear the ringtone again."
That might be her only hope at this moment.
But she knew that she shouldn't think like this.
I will hurt Padu.
So she shouldn't, shouldn't expect to hear that ringtone again.
Even so, that was the sound she looked forward to every day for the past fifty thousand years.
...
Jingle Bell……
"Hi~! Abai."
"Phyllis?!"
"What's wrong? Why do you act so unbelievable? Are you unhappy to see me?" The girl walked lightly to her. She was not surprised that she still remembered her, nor was she afraid of her uncontrollable nature.
She just came to her naturally as before, making her feel as if everything was just a dream, and all the things that made her fear and despair were just illusions in the dream.
Now, after waking up from the dream, she can still look forward to every tomorrow and every ringing of the bell as before.
But...she knew it was an illusion.
Facing Padu's question, the girl lowered her head.
"No, I just..."
"Hey, don't think too much, come (smile mysteriously, ears perked up)"
"I'll show you my new... er, ahem, new merchandise. They're all good stuff. They haven't been priced yet, so I'll show you first."
"Look at this, this, and this! This one has such a big gem on it, I like it the most! It's worthy of being called Eden!"
……
"What's wrong? Why aren't you talking?"
"Phyllis..." Her voice was low, unable to conceal her fatigue.
"Ok?"
"Don't come to see me anymore in the future." Looking into her eyes, the girl wanted to smile at her, but she couldn't.
The pain of separation is always hard to suppress.
"........."
"Why? Did we...make you unhappy?"
"In that case..."
"give you!"
Pursing her lips, Padu was a little reluctant, but still reluctantly handed her favorite goods to the girl.
……
"I almost killed you yesterday..."
"well……?"
"How do you know...! (covering mouth)"
"It turns out that it wasn't a dream..." She once had an illusion that it was really just a dream.
She couldn't forgive herself for hurting Paddo,
But...it's true after all.
"I think Ai Li and the others should have persuaded you not to come to see me anymore."
"Ah... I did say that, but don't get me wrong! They don't hate you, it's just..."
"I know..." She curled up and sat in the corner, lowering her head sadly.
"I know."
"I'm going crazy, so I hope you won't come again."
"Let me be alone here, in peace..."
"what are you talking about!"
That was the first time that the girl named Padua Felice got angry, the first time she was so brave and strong.
"We are good friends. Remember, we are the cowardly duo? We are both very timid, so we hide when we can and escape when we can. The most important thing is to have a good time."
"Besides, if something goes wrong, we have Boss Kevin, Sister Ellie and the others. Sacrificing ourselves and using our own pain to exchange for the happiness of others is not something that cowards like us should do~!"
"I know, but I will really kill you. I'm really, sorry..." The girl raised her eyes and pursed her lips. Like a wounded bird, she folded her wings and no longer yearned for the sky.
But if possible, she actually wanted to say, I am really, really, really happy.
I am happy to see you, to talk to you, and to know that I have not been abandoned.
But... she had to suppress herself, because this time... she hoped that Padu would abandon her.
"It's okay, listen to me, even though I'm not as strong as you, I can run fast. You've never caught me before. If you really go crazy, look (turns around)"
"I flicked my tail and disappeared."
"So can you give me some time? Boss Kevin and Sister Ellie are already thinking of a solution. We will definitely save you."
…………
"So...what if one day even Kevin and Ellie are gone?"
"Ah?" Padu had never thought about this question. She had never thought about what it would be like to be alone one day.
"By then, will we...still run away?"
……
"Of course!" After a long silence, she nodded.
"If even Boss Kevin and Sister Ellie can't do it, then we'll just die if we go up there and show our bravery, right? So of course we have to run."
"If...if that day really comes, you, you will be with me!"
"Let's run away together!"
……
"Well, I understand." The girl raised her eyes and smiled softly. That... might be the last smile she left.
"Thank you……"
"Sister Phyllis."
...
"Phyllis...sister..."
Is that so?
Bai Mo closed his eyes.
It turns out that Paddo wouldn't call me Sister Bai, because she is Sister Phyllis... a sister who has been with me for 50,000 years.
"Even until the end, she is still by my side..." He stretched out his hand, and the scene in front of him disappeared, turning into starlight and dissipating.
But in the swirling starlight, there was a coin.
That's Paddo's, lucky coin.
"Meow~!"
Can's call sounded again, and a door reappeared in front of him.
If the door just now told Bai Mo and Paduo about their past, then this door is the truth of everything now.
Perhaps, that would be cruel, but Bai Mo wanted to know...
I want to know what she, the most timid girl, has endured.
Where has this courageous cowardice gone?
