Chapter 1736 Kiana 100%
"Huh huh huh~?"
The girl walked lightly and came to the door.
The girl pushed the door open gently and saw everything familiar.
Ding dong~!
The rice cooker gave a pleasant reminder and the girl stopped.
"Huh... let's get started."
Beat the eggs into a bowl and mix well. Chop tomatoes, dice carrots and cut green onions into sections.
"Then……"
First, fry the carrots in hot oil, and fry the eggs as well...
"Like this, like this, like this again..."
"Well, that's fine... I guess."
The girl stretched out her hands happily and picked up the plate of egg fried rice.
That was her... no, that was the first dish that the girl named Bai Mo learned to cook, and it was also all she could do now for whoever she wanted.
"I'm really sorry. I wanted to make a lot of delicious food for you."
“But I went through those memories, and I found those delicious dishes. I know every step of the way to make them, and remember every moment of learning them.”
"But I found that I can't...I can't do it."
Her eyes flickered here, and she wanted to tell her, wanted to tell her everything about that girl.
"You know what, silly goose? These short 50,000 years are so precious to me."
"I can obviously ignore them. They are obviously insignificant to me."
"But I didn't, silly goose, I didn't, I was very patient and very careful, I looked at them all."
Gently, she raised her hand and slowly closed her eyes.
"These 50,000 years are really long."
"They don't matter in my life."
"But I don't want to waste even a minute or a second. They are just like film reels, passing by my eyes one by one."
"It contains her laughter, her tears, and everything she had fought for."
"That's everything to her, but it's a tiny part of my life."
[I searched for a drop of memory in the ocean, but I found it was a tear that lit up the stars.]
"There's so much in there, but you know what, silly goose, I only care about you."
"I watched her laugh with your memories, watched her cry with your memories, I tried to hold on to you, but it was just a memory."
"That day, I became brave. That day, I would not be bullied by you anymore."
"That day, I sat there and thought about it for a long, long time."
"I wonder if you will fall in love with me now?"
"I was wondering... whether I had ever expected this love."
"But I kept thinking and thinking... My thoughts drifted to the other side of my dream, but I found that there was only you there."
"I am still the Xiaomo who is often bullied by you, and you are still the dull and stupid goose."
"We held hands and hummed songs. I like you, I really like you, I like you so much that I suddenly realized that you are the only one left in my world."
"Can……"
"That's not me, silly goose, that's not me."
"But that... should have been mine."
[Love comes from nowhere, and it is so deep.]
"I think this sentence is very suitable for me at this moment."
"When the poison called regret takes hold, I am beyond cure."
"Since its birth, every time since then, I have suffered for every step that follows."
"I will stop and think more often, I will look more, I will hesitate, just like I will fall in love with you, I can no longer move forward firmly like before."
"Love... makes people selfish."
"So I tried to snatch this love. I thought if there was a 100%, 1,000%, 1 million, 10 million! A one in a billion chance... that the person who met you was me, not her."
“How wonderful it would be.”
"..."
"but……"
"I found that I couldn't catch you."
"Even if I just recall it like this, compared to love, what I feel more is the dirty and despicable nature of love..."
"Perhaps it was in those repeated reaching outs, repeated expectations, repeated anticipations, repeated efforts, and crazy obsessions..."
“I no longer knew who I was.”
“I hope, I hope that my efforts can bring about a miracle in that moment.
"But in the end... I couldn't hold your hand, I couldn't touch your face, and I couldn't kiss your lips."
"I don't even dare to see you.
"My future does not include you."
"Without you..."
It turns out that there really is hope for eternal separation in this world.
It turns out that there really are promises in this world that cannot be fulfilled.
It turns out that my name does not exist in the world.
It turns out that my road has come to an end.
"So... I gave up, but it's not that I don't love you anymore, but that I finally discovered, or accepted the truth that has been in front of me for a long time."
"I... am not her."
"So I will never be able to get your love. Your love belongs to Bai Mo, and I am not her..."
[I hold your hand and lead you towards our future, but I only hear whispers in my ears: this is your starting point.]
Yes, our love has just begun, no... my love for you has just begun, but her love for you has ended.
Some people say that love is eternal, love can transcend everything, and love can bring miraculous hope.
Maybe that is right, love lasts forever, but the loved one cannot bear that eternal love and leaves sadly before hope and dawn.
So I was thinking, when I crossed her end point, had we reached the future, or just stepped into the starting point?
I don’t know, but…
"I can't selfishly treat her as myself, and I can't selfishly possess your love."
The girl opened the transparent door with her light hands, and stepped out of the kitchen with her smooth feet, stepping on the smooth floor.
The floor was cold, but her heart was warm.
Ding-ling-ling~? Ding-ling-ling~?
Do you hear it? The wind chimes outside the window are swinging, and the melodious notes seem to poke their heads out like a shy bird, trying again and again, and hesitating again and again.
Until the girl's figure was approaching, they came in singing, landed on the girl's shoulders, sang for the girl, and sang praises for the girl.
"Just, put it here."
Her hand fell gently, placing the carefully prepared dish deep in this dream.
[If you love someone too deeply, what you get in the end is often not eternal love, but a short-lived dream and lingering sadness.]
The girl couldn't convince herself, even though she really loved her very much.
How deep is the love? The memory of a drop of water can shake the ocean.
The seed of love also sprouted because of her.
"But now, I have to say goodbye to you."
"No... maybe I won't even be able to say goodbye to you."
Her body swayed gently like a wind chime, her hands were behind her back, her long hair fluttered in the wind, she raised her head and spread her white wings.
The girl no longer looked back. Her thoughts were spread to the land along with the sunshine, but her body flew to the ocean.
She flew and flew, flying through hundreds of lives, where she left behind her thoughts of the past and added more branches and leaves to the budding of new life.
She flew and flew, flying over the past where she had set foot, where she left behind her memories and added a ray of sunshine to the budding of new life.
She flew and flew, to a dreamland that she had never reached, where she abandoned the future and brought destined hope to the budding of new life.
She flew and flew, flying past the starting point of her birth. Her memory was like the receding waves, her past was like the stagnant breeze, her future was like the setting sun in the sky, and everything about her... was given selflessly and generously at the end to the seedling born in chaos, helping it to thrive.
The bird flew across the sky, and her wings fell from the sky and sank into the sea, where she had everything.
But in the end, she was unwilling to throw away the love that was stolen from her at this moment.
She gave everything, but held that love selfishly and humbly in her palm until the sky was covered by dark clouds, as if covering tomorrow.
What are you insisting on?
Where is she going?
Maybe, she was living out her last years, maybe, she was escaping in a humble way due to her cowardice.
She wanted to apologize for it.
She didn't dare, she didn't dare admit that identity.
She didn't dare, didn't dare to face her arrival.
She didn't dare, because "Him" was not her.
She didn't dare, because "He" really loved her so much.
Because of love, I dare not.
Because of love, I escape.
But she... selfishly grabbed that love, held it in her palm, and sent it high up.
No one knew she had flown for this.
No one would know that the little bird that flies for the world falls just for one person.
She gave this moment to herself, and it belongs only to herself.
No one will know... and no one will understand.
She selfishly stole this love and carefully possessed it all.
But if possible, she wanted to tell her, tell her that this love was only a little, really only a little.
She just wanted to choose the fireworks of her death by herself. Only she could see the afterglow of this blooming firework, just like her death would only be accompanied by this love.
It only exists for a fleeting moment.
But that's enough.
She just wanted... just wanted to be wrapped in that love in the end.
even if...
Just for a second.
Her body moved through the dark clouds as thunder roared past her. Her wings dissipated and died in the darkness, but she turned into a bird, until she flew over the sea of clouds, spread her wings against the blue sky, stepped on the white clouds, and kissed the horizon of that world.
At that moment, she seemed to have found an answer, an answer hidden deep in her heart.
"Hey, lonely traveler, my sister, do you need me to show you the way?"
The boy stopped in front of her.
"..."
"In the hundreds of lives you and I have been together, I have been touched from the bottom of my heart countless times."
"But I don't know. I don't know why. I can't get an answer, and I can't explain it."
"So now, have you found the answer?" The masked figure finally held up the black umbrella for her, but was met with a brief silence.
"..."
"Yeah." A smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, her eyes were as soft as water, she slowly raised her hands, and gently held up everything she had.
"That is reluctance, that is longing, that is the yearning for something you want to grasp, that is... the desire to live."
"Yeah, I want to... survive."
Looking back, she smiled sweetly at the boy, at the figure who walked to the other side and held an umbrella for her for the last time as agreed.
