62. Explain in a single chapter why you asked for leave!

Today, after receiving this news, Qing Zhou couldn't say anything for a while.

I can’t accept it, I can’t accept it, I’m very broken.

The news came suddenly and caught people off guard.

If it weren’t for my wife who was always guiding me, I wouldn’t have been writing during this period of time.

If you take a few days off, you will not be interrupted.

Today I really feel powerless. It’s not that I have the intention, but I’m just not in the mood to write.

As for me, since I was born, when I was less than one year old, my parents sent me to my grandma’s house to be raised.

Here in the Northeast, especially in rural areas, we call grandma grandma.

As for me, I was raised by my grandma almost from childhood to adulthood. It was not until I entered high school that I gradually lived with my parents.

My grandma let me go back to live with my parents because she felt sorry for me because their house in the countryside was very dilapidated and she didn't want me and them to suffer.

Even if I don't agree to go back to live at home, there is a way.

The older generation cannot see their children suffering. They can be poor and suffer, but they don’t want their children to suffer.

If I don't go home, my grandma will get angry with me and refuse to eat.

Let me explain here, I am very happy. Although my family is from a rural area and is somewhat poor, I am very happy.

My parents sent me to my grandma's house since I was a child. It doesn't mean that they don't love me. On the contrary, their love for me is deeper than anyone else.

However, my parents had just gotten married at that time, and I was still living in the countryside.

Both families were very poor, so when my father married my mother, they didn’t even have a decent house in the countryside.

It was the big guys in the village who helped cut down a few trees planted by my grandma's family and helped my parents build a wedding house.

So, after I was left, my parents worked hard and farmed in the countryside and had no time to take care of me, so they had no choice but to reluctantly send me to my grandma's house.

Perhaps urbanites and the current post-00s generation don’t understand, can people really be that poor?

Only when you understand the suffering and poverty, understand the rural people, and understand the rural areas of Northeast China, will you know that this is a fact.

There are even worse ones.

Why do I say that I am very happy? Because, since I can remember, no matter how hard and poor my family is, I have never suffered or been tired.

In rural areas, children as young as seven or eight years old will go to the fields to help their parents work.

And I have never had it.

Not only do I have the love of my parents, but I also have the love of my grandparents.

Except for the poor conditions at home, I feel like I am God’s favorite.

The preference of two generations is left to myself.

And my father has nothing to say.

Generally, father's love is silent, and fathers rarely express themselves.

But as for my dad, just like what my grandma said, you have never had children in hundreds of lives, and I have never seen you doting on children like this.

My father's preference for me is a kind of doting.

As I said before, my family was very poor when I was a child.

I'm about five or six years old. Children of the same age as me usually have only fifty cents or one piece of pocket money.

And my pocket money is three to five yuan,

I rarely care about my dad asking for money, but when I ask for five yuan, my dad won't even give me ten or twenty yuan, but directly gives me fifty yuan.

From childhood to adulthood, I have always been loved by my family. Therefore, I am glad that I was born in such a family. Even if I am not so rich materially, I feel that the most prosperous thing for people is emotion, family affection, and spirituality. of wealth.

But today, I suddenly received a call from my mother telling me that my grandma was sick.

She said she wanted to eat raspberries, which others said were very sweet.

From this sentence, I knew that my grandma's illness was serious.

Because, as long as I can remember, more than 20 years ago, my grandma has never taken the initiative to say what she wanted to eat.

All her life, she has said that she has never been greedy. You grew up next to me, so why did you feed your greedy mouth?

I panicked when I heard that my grandma wanted to eat raspberries, a fruit she had never heard of.

Under questioning, my mother told me that my grandma was in the hospital for late-stage lung cancer.

After hearing the news, I really felt that the world had collapsed. The feeling was indescribable.

If my wife hadn't been enlightening me, I probably wouldn't have gotten over that kind of collapse and despair.

I am really lucky to be born into such a happy family. Later, I met such a first love who I have been with for eleven years and whom I have always cared about.

When I collapse and despair, there is someone who can give me warmth, care and guidance.

He said that grandma is almost ninety years old and everyone will die.

One day, we will meet again.

When we grow old, they will come to pick us up.

Yes, birth, old age, illness and death are inevitable.

The only regret is that my grandma may not be able to see our children.

In the past two years, when I was with my grandma, the thing she said the most was, can I see you and Ying getting married?

I said why not, the child we gave birth to is still waiting for you to take care of it.

I will spend the next period of time spending time with my family.

If updated, there may be fewer updates, but updates will not be interrupted.

Hope everyone understands.

sorry!