Chapter 125 Coward
After asking passers-by, Haruko learned that Uchiha Sasuke should have returned home, so she followed him to his home in the morning.
"Haruko, Sasuke ran into the room as soon as he came back just now. He ignored me when I called him. Did something happen?" Uchiha Itachi asked while standing at the door.
When Haruko Zaoma saw him for the first time, she was stunned. Itachi Uchiha's eyes were dark and he looked obviously tired, which made Haruko Zaoma couldn't help but care about him.
"Itachi-kun, what's wrong with you?"
Hearing her asking about his condition, Uchiha Itachi tried feebly to put on a smile, but to no avail, so he had to answer her in a low voice.
"I'm fine, Sasuke..."
Seeing that he didn't want to say, Haruko decided to ask him after finding Sasuke.
"I'm here just for Sasuke, Itachi, I'll explain in detail later!"
Haruko Asahi smiled at him shyly, walked around him like the wind, and headed towards Uchiha Sasuke's room skillfully.
Uchiha Itachi watched her figure until she disappeared, and in the solitude and silence, he sighed with relief.
The existence of the Mangekyo allowed him to see another memory more clearly, including the death of Uchiha Shisui and the threat of Shimura Danzo...
But in the real world, Danzo Shimura had long been imprisoned by the Third Hokage for his secret research. How could he possibly seize Shisui's Sharingan, let alone threaten him to massacre the Uchiha? !
Although he was certain in his heart that all these scenes that were different from reality were illusions, Uchiha Itachi was still trapped in his own sinful world by the memories day and night.
He went again to question his father.
"Father, have you really considered all the consequences of the coup?"
Facing his angry rebuke, Uchiha Fugaku took a sip of his teacup slowly and asked him, "Who are you to question me?"
"Son? Clan member? Or Konoha's subordinate?"
Every word Uchiha Fugaku uttered suppressed Uchiha Itachi's arrogance, and finally he sat back in place, calming down his manic brain.
But he still looked back at Uchiha Fugaku with a stern look, and hesitated to choose the most appropriate answer, "That depends on what choice Uchiha makes in the end."
Uchiha Fugaku ignored the implicit pressure in his words and responded to his original question, "The Fifth Hokage has not yet secured his position, and his control over the Anbu is not complete. As long as we work together inside and outside, a bloodless revolution is not a hypothesis."
"Konoha has just experienced a war, and neighboring countries are also eyeing it covetously. Uchiha is doing this..." Uchiha Itachi was relentless and wanted to stop him from thinking about it.
Uchiha Fugaku interrupted him sharply, "It is because we have just experienced war that now is the best time. Otherwise, why not wait until there is real peace? Don't be so idealistic, Itachi!"
The rare reprimand from his father made Uchiha Itachi fall into self-doubt. His lips were bitten white and his hands were tightly grasping his pants.
This was not the situation he wanted to see, an endless war, a never-ending confrontation...
But is he really too idealistic? Is it possible that what he has been holding on to all this time is just a false facade to deceive himself?
My father’s words are still ringing in my ears.
"We are still skeptical about the future of the Uchiha we saw that day, but there is no denying that we can formulate a response plan more quickly based on that future."
"For so many years, we have endured the exclusion of the Uchiha by the upper echelons, but as the clan leader, I cannot remain indifferent when facing the disappointment of my clan members."
"This is the hope of all the clan members. I will not allow you to betray again. Uchiha will definitely succeed this time."
Uchiha Fugaku spoke out word for word the words he had prepared in his mind long ago. These words were also a warning to himself that no one could suppress an Uchiha, including his own weak heart.
Uchiha Itachi slowly closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, the self-righteousness he had at the beginning was long gone, and his eyes were filled with confusion that he himself was not even aware of.
He finally murmured: "Uchiha should not betray Konoha..."
Uchiha Fugaku slammed the teacup in his hand onto the table, making a noise, stopping Uchiha Itachi from speaking.
He stood up and walked straight out. When he left the room, Uchiha Fugaku turned his head and looked at him deeply.
"My love for Konoha is no less than yours."
It is because we love so deeply that we feel more painful and difficult to accept injustice.
As the sound of his father's footsteps faded away, Itachi Uchiha's tears finally fell drop by drop, soaking his dark pants.
He no longer suppressed his sobs, and vented his pain in the tug-of-war between Konoha and Uchiha.
Every day he chewed over his conversations with his father over and over again, and as he went from suspicion and disgust to carefully examining its possibilities, Uchiha Itachi knew that his subconscious mind had begun to agree with his father's plan.
He kept brainwashing himself: his brother was there, his father was there, Shisui was there, his clansmen were there, and he was there, and as long as they could truly achieve a bloodless revolution, no one would suffer.
But...the man who sticks to his original intention is no longer here.
Uchiha Itachi guarded the desolate and ethereal innocence alone. After comforting the blood and tears of his clansmen time and time again, he finally decided to lock up his persistence.
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In the morning, Haruko knocked on the door, but when she didn't hear any response from Uchiha Sasuke, she opened the door and walked in.
"do not come."
She was stopped in her tracks by Uchiha Sasuke's cold voice.
The room was dark. Uchiha Sasuke must have been hiding. Haruko couldn't find him for a while in the morning.
Morning Haruko lowered her voice, her words filled with pleading, "Sasuke, can we talk for a minute?"
The room was silent for a few seconds, and then an inaudible response came.
"No."
After being refused communication once again, Haruko Zaoma realized that continuing would only make him more closed off. It seemed that there was no way to eliminate the gap today, so Haruko Zaoma said a few words of concern to him and then left hesitantly.
Uchiha Sasuke curled up in the corner, his head buried tightly in his knees. The warm color outside the door that he saw in his peripheral vision was also locked behind the door because of her departure.
The darkness swallowed him, leaving Uchiha Sasuke completely immersed in his own world.
He had never realized so clearly as at this moment that he was a coward, a coward who dared to escape from meaningless feelings.
At first he just felt it was annoying that Haruko Asuma would stick to him on her own initiative, but after he finally got used to her, she brought Uzumaki Naruto along to join him in the fun, and then they formed Team 7, and before they knew it they became teammates that he could trust with his back.
Gradually, he couldn't help but keep his eyes on Zaoma Haruko, attracted by her every frown and smile.
I had the urge to protect her and take care of her. After all, if she got hurt, her brother would definitely be very sad... Is this really the case?
Was the thought that came to his mind really just because his brother valued her?
Before Uchiha Sasuke could continue to explore, Haruko became a Chunin and led the others to carry out the mission in the morning, leaving him alone in the chaos of this unclear relationship.
So he began to wait, day after day, waiting for her to come back and tell him the answer.
Why does he always think about Haruko Hayama?
He didn't know either.
But what he waited for even earlier was the departure of Uzumaki Naruto. Even though he was an idiot, he didn't hate him in his heart, because he was his teammate? Or was he the one who waited for Haruko in the morning with him?
That's why he was so sad when Uzumaki Naruto left him behind to chase after Hayama Haruko...
Or is it because Uzumaki Naruto is a friend?
How could a relationship like friendship be that of an idiot...
If you want to leave, you should take me with you, idiot...
Don't let me catch up and then find out that I am redundant...
The sound of his sobbing, which he tried hard to suppress, echoed in the empty room.
Because we are afraid of being redundant, we push our loved ones away; because we are afraid of losing them, we become thorns towards them; because we are afraid of being hurt, we exclude our loved ones from the world.
Because he was afraid of loneliness, he finally chose loneliness.
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Gratitude list as of July 2024, 3:
grateful--
The reminder letter sent by K
Girl burning incense, flowers x2
Li Xibai is a beautiful woman, steamed Shufen, sour and spicy, sent flowers
Tang Xiaoyu from the north, Dudu Bai, Early summer. Starry sky, Red clothes Xiangyi Saigao, Banxia SS, Working Emperor Ling, Let the alpaca travel all the books you like, Green and blue are invincible, Fisherman's Song., Xuanchun, Mo Wentian who loves to eat red bean jelly, Yun Cheyun from Gumo Island, Girl's heart sent to generate electricity for love
Thank you for the gifts! The author is so touched! Sasuke performed an abandoned cat crying for everyone (′?w?｀)
