Chapter 941: Cool is a feeling

In this kiss that entrusted herself to Lin Lang, many scenes flashed through Su Wanxing's mind. They were past events that she did not want to recall.

The small bed in the welfare home always smells like disinfectant, and the iron bars surrounding the bed make it look like a small cage.

When she was young, Su Wanxing always counted the railings with her eyes open at night until her eyelids were fighting. The footsteps in the corridor were still ringing regularly - that was the dormitory manager coming to check on the dormitories. Anyone who turned over and made any noise would be called out the next day.

Before it got completely dark, the lights in the welfare home's activity room were turned off on time.

It was not time to go to bed, but I couldn't walk around either. I could only stay in my little bed and stare at the yellowed ceiling in a daze.

No one taught Su Wanxing what "freedom" was, but she knew clearly when to speak, when to be quiet, and when not to step out of the door.

At this moment, the little girl is so sensible that it makes people feel distressed.

When they reach primary school age, the welfare home will evaluate every school-age child.

Orphans and disabled children who suffer from various congenital diseases, psychological problems and are unable to attend schools outside are kept in welfare homes and receive education.

Children who are physically fit and eligible for school admission will attend regular schools in the community and receive education together with normal children.

In order to be able to attend a normal school, little Su Wanxing was full of expectations. She tried hard to show herself with a maturity beyond her age and got an assessment certificate that qualified her to study outside the welfare home. Little Su Wanxing was very happy.

However, the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment.

Not long after entering elementary school, the school organized vision tests for new students in accordance with regulations.

When the primary school students lined up and stood one after another in front of the international standard E-eye chart, taking turns to measure their eyesight, Su Wanxing nervously grabbed her school uniform pants.

She didn't want her classmates to know that she was blind in her right eye. This had been her secret since she entered elementary school, and it was also her only humble self-esteem.

At this moment, little Su Wanxing bit her lower lip, she knew that her secret could no longer be kept secret.

When the school doctor called Su Wanxing's name, her thin body trembled slightly.

What is coming cannot be avoided.

When it was Su Wanxing's turn to step forward to have her eyesight tested, it was fine when she covered her right eye to test her left eye. However, when she covered her left eye as required to test her right eye's vision, she could only guess because she couldn't see.

But they were all wrong, and her classmates found out that she was born deaf in her right eye.

What bad thoughts could a primary school student have?

At most, they would bully Su Wanxing with words every day, nickname her "One-eyed Blind" and mock her for being a one-eyed dragon.

During the break, facing the booing of her classmates that felt like needles piercing her, Su Wanxing could only lie on the desk with her hands, bury her face in her arms and cry silently.

No child in the welfare home had ever laughed at her, but elementary school children did not have to follow the rule of “no loud noises”.

Who understands Su Wanxing’s helplessness and grievance at this moment?

From then on, she began to walk with her head down on campus, and her textbooks were always curled up, because there were always classmates who would take her homework books away when she wasn't paying attention and draw a monster looking at the world with one eye on the cover.

During physical exercises, Su Wanxing always hid in the last row of the team.

The sun shone obliquely on the playground. Students in blue and white school uniforms were picked up by their parents. Some of them were stuffed into the back seats of bicycles by their grandfathers, while some of them threw themselves into their grandmothers' arms to receive marshmallows.

Su Wanxing counted the weeds in the cracks between the floor tiles and suddenly felt like the unattended dandelions on the lawn that would scatter when the wind blew, without even a place to take root.

At this moment, who understands the loneliness in Su Wanxing's heart?

In the second semester of the third grade of elementary school, there was a composition assignment titled "My Mom and Dad." Su Wanxing was the only one in the class who handed in a blank paper.

When the newly hired Chinese teacher, who didn't know that Su Wanxing was an orphan from an orphanage, asked her why she handed in a blank paper, Su Wanxing's throat seemed to be choked by a ball of cotton and she couldn't make a sound.

Su Wanxing didn’t even know her parents’ names. She seemed to have popped out from between rocks and couldn’t even find where she came from.

At this moment, Su Wanxing regretted not staying in the welfare home to attend a special school, but she had no way back and could only grit her teeth and face the confused life ahead.

Perhaps because she was isolated by her classmates, Su Wanxing became introverted and liked to write a diary. She developed a hobby of writing from an early age.

She always finds strength in books and heals herself through words in writing.

The habit of writing a diary and expressing emotions through words, by chance, laid the foundation for Su Wanxing to become a writer in the future.

This is what people often say, "When God closes a door for you, he will definitely open a window for you."

Later, Su Wanxing grew up and moved into a rental house with a balcony with the royalties she earned from writing articles. However, she always sat up suddenly in the middle of the night and subconsciously wanted to look at the railing at the head of the bed.

The night outside the window was bright, but at some point her nerves would suddenly tense up, as if there were eyes watching her from behind, urging her to lie down quickly and not make any sound.

Those moments of discipline in the orphanage as a child have long been ingrained into my bones, like the marks on the bed.

The loneliness of curling up alone in a rented house late at night, being sick and having to bear it alone, with no one to even pour a glass of water...

Since she was born until now, no one has ever cared about Su Wanxing out of love, so she cherishes Lin Lang's kindness to her and falls in love with Lin Lang like a moth to a flame.

The dark past that she once thought she would never get out of was now illuminated by the light brought by Lin Lang.

Perhaps only by understanding Su Wanxing's growth experience can we understand that she did not become a concubine of a wealthy businessman for material enjoyment, but because she lacked love since childhood, and Lin Lang was the only man who brought her light and warmth.

The so-called status is not important at all to Su Wanxing, who does not fight for anything.

What’s important is that Lin Lang, this godlike man, once gave her love and warmth. It would be best if they could love each other for the rest of their lives.

Even if she only had it once, this unforgettable first love is also a precious memory for Su Wanxing.

Back to the topic, Su Wanxing snuggled in Lin Lang's arms, put her arms around his neck and kissed him sweetly, as if using this extremely affectionate kiss to tell Lin Lang that wherever he is is her home.

Lin Lang's eyes were flashing with deep love, and wherever he looked was her, feeling Su Wanxing's hot lips and her stalling heartbeat.

Lin Lang's kiss was as warm as the sunshine, making Su Wanxing feel endless happiness, reaching the bottom of her heart, making her addicted to Lin Lang and infatuated with him.

Su Wanxing's kiss was slightly sweet, and the touch was soft and fragrant, which made Lin Lang intoxicated. He seemed to want to blend the whole world into this kiss.

After an extremely sweet and long kiss, Lin Lang, breathing heavily, slowly let go of Su Wanxing and looked at her lips that were red from being kissed, and her eyes that were misty but surprisingly bright.

"Silly wife, you have to pay attention to adjusting your breathing when kissing!" Lin Lang's voice was hoarse from just kissing, and also a bit teasing.

Su Wanxing then realized that she always forgot to breathe when kissing Lin Lang, which was why she felt dizzy from time to time when he kissed her.

She sniffed, panting slightly with rapid breathing, and rubbed Lin Lang's chin with her nose tip, with a bit of coquettishness, "Hubby, I've never kissed before I fell in love with you, you are not allowed to laugh at me."

Lin Lang caressed Su Wanxing's red cheek and said with a gentle smile, "Baby, you are so cute, how could your husband laugh at you?"

"Hubby, it turns out that the feeling of first love is really so wonderful. No wonder many people still miss their first love no matter how many years have passed."

Lin Lang scratched Su Wanxing's nose and said lovingly, "Baby, your husband will love you forever and let you always be my sweetheart in my first love for the rest of my life."

"Hubby, are you promising that you will never break up with me?" Su Wanxing took the initiative to move forward and gently pecked the corner of Lin Lang's lips, like a kitten asserting its sovereignty.

Lin Lang kissed Su Wanxing on the forehead and said affectionately: "Love is a feeling, just like your tenderness. If you treat me tenderly for the rest of my life, my husband's love for you will never fade away."

Su Wanxing giggled and said, "Hubby, pleasing you and keeping your heart is my lifelong mission. I'm so cute and charming, you won't change your mind, right?"

Lin Lang chuckled: "Don't worry, baby, no matter how many concubines I have, you are the one I love the most."

"Oh? Husband, why do I hear something behind your words, as if you have many concubines?" Su Wanxing pouted unhappily.

Lin Lang was very open about it and replied without hiding anything: "My husband doesn't want to lie to you. I did have other concubines before you. I can't change the established facts that have already happened. You didn't have time to participate in my past, but you will be my life forever."

Lin Lang's little poem is really tough!

With just a few words, he whitewashed his own scumbag behavior by avoiding the main issue.

When it comes to a scumbag’s ability to use sophistry to whitewash himself, Brother Lang calls himself second and no one dares to claim to be first.

The character of the most affectionate person in Shanghai was not created in vain.

Su Wanxing leaned in Lin Lang's arms, listening to his steady and strong heartbeat, and said emotionally: "Husband, for me, being your mistress is almost the same as being your fourth, fifth, or sixth mistress. Anyway, I have no status."

"But there is one thing. You promised me that you would let me bear a baby for you, as long as I have the right to bear children."

"Also, I can give up my status, but your Lin family must recognize the son I give birth to out of wedlock. As long as you allow the son I give birth to for you to be included in the family tree, I will be willing to be your concubine for the rest of my life."

Su Wanxing was so obsessed with this because she was an orphan and had a strong obsession with tracing her ancestral roots.

She had to ensure that the illegitimate child she gave birth to for Lin Lang could be included in the family tree and would not be called a bastard without a father, and would not be subjected to the verbal bullying she had experienced in her childhood.

Lin Lang hugged the pitiful Su Wanxing tightly and said distressedly: "Baby, I promise you that our son can not only enter the Lin family's genealogy, but also obtain the right to inherit the family property."

After Su Wanxing heard this, tears once again fell down. She wept with joy and leaned into Lin Lang's arms, crying, "Hubby, I love you!"

"Let's go to a nearby hotel and get a room. I'm going to get pregnant with your baby today. I want to give birth to a son for you and use the fruit of our love to hold you captive for life."

Lin Lang gently stroked Su Wanxing's shoulders and said with a smile: "Silly wife, you are in your fertile period today. If we go to a hotel and don't take any precautions, you will really get pregnant."

"Hubby, you don't have to scare me, that's exactly what I want!"

"Come on, let's check out and get a room at the hotel. If you can't get me pregnant today, it's because you're incompetent." Su Wanxing took Lin Lang's hand and pushed the door open without saying anything, walking out of the private room.