12. You don't need the temptation.

Deangelo.

As soon as they both left, I spoke up, "What's up with the Amato pack, did they get the memo that we left?"

"They sure did, Alpha but is that really the bone of contention right now though?" Luca asked giving me a suspicious look that I didn't like.

Luca and I have a kind of relationship that most members of my pack never understand, much more strangers. We have a boss-subordinate relationship yet we are best of friends. There is little to nothing that Luca doesn't know about me and I am sure that I could say the same about him too. He never left my side, not once, not ever, so even though he gives me the alpha respect that is expected from him, he's also one of the people who can turn around and speak sense into me in what other people may term disrespectful.

"What do you mean, what else can be more important than anything that has to do with the Amato pack?" I asked as I poured some whiskey in two glasses, Luca took one from my hand and sipped slowly. We both stared at each other, the air tense around us.

When his glass was totally empty, he placed it on the table and turned back toward me. “What are you planning on doing, Deangelo?” he asked, giving me a strange look.

That's it! Whenever he addresses me directly by my name instead of the usual alpha that everyone else calls me, it always signified that he had switched to the friendship mode with me.

I shrugged with an eye roll. “what makes you think I’m planning on doing something?”

Luca scoffed and shook his head. “Because you never do anything without a plan. The girl trespassed and you are keeping her. That doesn't sound anything like what Deangelo that I know would do. This was just too easy, so so easy, even for her. You know what I'm talking about, so don't even pretend not to..." He paused for a second and then asked slowly, “Or is she a spy? Is that why you are keeping her? To know if she was sent by the Amato pack?"

Shaking my head, I glared at him. “If you know me so well, why would you think I would keep her if she was a spy?” I asked through gritted teeth. He got on my nerves sometimes.

"Well, anything is possible with you. If that's not it, why then are you keeping her, anyway?” He pressed further.

I get a vision of Elena in her white silk nightdress in my bedroom this morning. It was light, and I could see her every curve, the way it hung over her hard nipples. Her beautiful skin with her beautiful red hair. Her big brown eyes and puffy lips that looked like they belonged around me… I close my eyes and inhale deeply. Fuck me, if she isn’t every man’s wet dream, I don’t know who is. I drag my hand down my face. I need to get out more. Drinking red wine and having a daydream about fucking my children’s nanny is an unacceptable behaviour. I clench my jaw as I feel myself harden at the thought of her, and uneasiness sweeps over me.

She’s the nanny. Cut it out.

I don’t ever mix business with pleasure. Ever. Now that I've successfully made her a nanny for the kids, thinking about her like that seemed unhealthy. She’s left a rare impression, though, and there’s no denying the stone-cold fact that I want her.

That my wolf growls for her, which isn't normal. At all.

I want her in my pack. In my bed. At my desk. On all fours. I can’t decide which I’d enjoy more. Hell, for now, I just want to see her again, talk to her.

“Fucking hot,” I sigh. Luca gave me a confused look and smile before he turned his attention back to me.

“Seriously?” He asked. “How hot?”

"Like, I'm fucking hard in my pants just by thinking of her." I answer dryly.

Luca stared at me with a blank face, adjusting his eyes like there was something wrong with them. I inwardly groan. Come on, man. I don’t need you questioning my sanity, too. Not after the routing that beauty just put me through. “You mean... you feel this way about the girl you just made the kids' nanny?” he finally whispered, batting his eyes in disbelief.

“Well, what other girl would it be, Luca? Do we have another new girl in the pack that I do not know of?" I questioned, looking at him like he was being dumb.

"You mean, you want to shag the lady you just made your kids' nanny? Deangelo, are you even listening to yourself right now? If that's your plan, you shouldn't have taken that step of making her the nanny, it makes no sense. And since when does a strange girl get this kind of reaction out of you? Have you even gotten a hard on in two years?" Luca said, with a tone I didn't like.

I knew I should not have made her the nanny, because for some reason, that draws the line and now, I can not just do any of my fantasies to her anymore, because I just don't have anything to do with people in my pack, people who have a designated job that they do for me, but then, she needed to have a reason to stay with the pack and that was the easiest I could come up with.

“Why are you so against it though? This is hardly the most scandalous idea I’ve ever proposed.” I questioned watching as Luca pursed his lips tighter, looking annoyed.

“I can see the dilemma on your face and it has nothing to do with just uh... fucking her,” he said softly, shaking his head. “Look, I’m not going to judge you for what happens between you and a woman. It's fine, it's normal. In fact, I'm happy that you feel this way. Hunt the woman down. Take her out. Take her to bed. Do whatever it is you want to do. But for God’s sake, you don’t have to put her on payroll.”

My gut tightened and my fingers pinch my palm, “Oh, don't worry, that'll be disrespectful to my kids, I won't do that.. you know that it is where I draw the line. I can feel like that about her but it's just me being horny, it can't go past that—”

“Right. You think so. But you don’t need the temptation. If something happens when this goes more than you planned... I know better than anyone that you’d never forgive yourself. This is nothing but playing with fire.”

I knew what he meant and it had nothing to do with work relationship, respect for my kids or me just fucking her. He thinks I might fall for her and that made me roll my eyes, hard.

I snorted, "I won't fall in love with her, Luca. Don't be foolish, love is not anything I can give to anyone other than my kids right now and you know that, plus you know that I don't want the past to repeat itself so I avoid such."

"Exactly why I do not think keeping someone you're attracted to so close to you makes any sense. That's temptation, even for you!" He said but I refused to accept the fact that he might be right.

"Look, let's just take it like this, we found a new nanny that the kids will probably warm up to this time. We haven't had any success with that, remember? So how abut you forget about the part of me wanting to fuck her cos it's just me saying my innermost mind to you, it won't happen. Not anymore." I said, and it almost seemed like I was trying to convince myself.

"Well, I hope I won't be back here to tell you that I told you so. I really hope so!" He said, finally leaving the matter to rest while I sighed.

"I'll go check on the pack and leave you to do whatever you want to, call me when you need me." He added dismissively and then walked out of my room.

I let out another sigh, wondering what was wrong with me and why I was suddenly feeling so giddy like a teenage wolf who had just met his mate.

I knew what I needed to do to get the redhead of my head so I picked up my phone and dialed a number, "uh... I'll like to take you up on that offer you threw the last time, I'm in dire need." I said into the speaker, going straight to the point.

That is just what I needed, getting a break from the whole Amato battle and getting buried in some female.