17. Another blue balls.

Deangelo.

How much this girl affects me was starting to become unreal. It just didn't make any sense anymore, she was just another girl and I couldn't believe that she made me even think of having sex with Anna.

I had been down so bad that I thought letting it all out after lacking sex for so long was what would get her out of my mind easily but I couldn't go through with it and I hope I don't end up going through because I know how much Anna would get clingy afterwards and start thinking that we can take it further. I do not want these attachments, not now. Not ever.

I don’t need love. I don’t need acceptance or approval. I reject them before they can ever reject or accept me.

Seeing her just now and being alone in the same space with her gave me another blue balls. My mouth had watered that I almost rose from the chair before I settled back again when she showed up. Her short dress had done nothing to stop my imaginations from running wild, I couldn't even help but wonder if she knew how much she affected me. I was so uneasy. An ache began inside me. She was slim, with long legs that I ached to have around my waist.

I was just suddenly aroused, nothing could prepare me for what I feel whenever I look into her face. It was sheer perfection. She had an oval-shaped face, with high cheekbones and luscious pink lips. I wondered idly if her pussy lips would be pink and luscious as well.

Why did I torment himself? Because thinking about that image alone just made it worse for me. I felt like a thunderbolt had struck me.

She had an innocence about her that made me feel even worse … yet it also made her more appealing.

For fuck’s sake. Stop it, you perv.

She’s simply existing and doesn’t need me drooling over her like a starving dog. It’s not her problem I hadn't had sex in over a year.

But just before she left, I sat there staring at her for seconds, my hands clenched in fists at my sides. I wanted to kiss her so fucking badly. Just once, to know what those sweet little lips would feel like on mine. I tried not to look at her butt as she left, but her dress were kind of tight and it was hard not to.

And when she left, my cock was hard as fuck. Harder than it had ever been and I knew it would feel so good to be inside her. My body was desperate for the release. I jumped into the shower and tried to clean off the feel of her. I tried to clean off her scent, her softness.

And when the memory of her became too much, I pulled at my cock. I heared her voice in my head and I jerked off to her. I beat it, pulled it, tugged it, until I was spraying cum all over the tiled wall, thinking about her red hair and her sugar smell.

Fuck. Fucking fuck.

Fuck. Bracing my hands on the wall that wore my cum and breathing deep, I clenched my eyes closed. This is insane, because even after that, I was hard again as … I couldn’t stop thinking about her. Those bare legs beneath the hem of her dress. The taste of her kiss. The scent of her hair. The hard little tips of her breasts beneath my palms. Everything that I was yet to do. Everything that I fantasised about doing to her.

And then my phone rang, and when I picked, it was Anna's voice saying she needed to see me for something urgent. We worked together, she was a good spy for me and that was it. But she had the hots for me and she seduced me every chance she got even without any success.

She texted an address to me and despite knowing where this was headed, I got dressed and I was soon on my way there. Maybe we could have this one moment of insanity, and then go back to normal. Maybe all I needed was to get this out of my system. What harm could it do, I'm a man with needs and these needs are clouding my system and making me crave a lady I'd only met in a day.

Soon, I was in an hotel room with Anna, trying so hard to think of anything else but Elena.

"Alpha... you look so stressed and you know I could help you ease this yet you never let me." Anna said to me in a sultry tone as she sauntered into the room, stripping away her clothes as she walked. She was slender with small breasts and hips, long black hair and a red lip. She had almost black nipples on her breasts and I knew that she would love to bend over and take my cock up the ass.

“Alpha,” Anna spoke sweetly to me as I watched her approach.

“Anna,” I replied. I watched her strip in front of me. Her small breasts bounced lightly as she walked to me. Her hips were slim but they didn’t curve out as the redhead's. I closed my eyes and saw the red hair falling down her back and the brown eyes. I wanted the little redhead. My cock hardened at the thought of her.

Anna smiled as she watched me harden, I'm sure she was so certain and excited that the hardness was because of her. Her tiny nipples twisted into tight buds as she sat before me. I watched as she settled herself on the pillows before me and her little fingers tugged at her nipples. The brown buds puckered and she lifted one to her lips, twirling her tongue around it. I watched as she put her small fingers into her tight little cunt.

Her hair fell about her waist and I touched the long strands. I watched her small fingers encircle her little snatch and enter it. She was dripping wet and her hairless pussy glistened as I admired the lips of her vagina. Anna watched my cock lengthen as the blood poured into it. She moved to me and brushed her hair across my cock. Her fingertips moved lightly along my shaft.

When I made no move towards her, she leaned forward and touched her lips to the pink head. It jerked in reflex and she enveloped it with her lips. Her tongue swirled around the cock’s head and down the shaft and she moved along its length. It thickened and filled her throat. My hands touched her head and urged her down the entire length. I leaned back and groaned. Anna smiled as she continued to suck me.

“Alpha..." She said after a while as she leaned over the bed and beckoned me. I didn't waste any time at all as my cock plunged into the tight pussy while she groaned and thrust her hips back to me.

“Harder, Alpha. Harder, please,” she murmured lightly as not to offend me. Even in the midst of sex, she knew her place and knew to be appropriate in word and action unless otherwise asked. Her pussy was tight and responsive; it constricted when I was inside her, and the walls were delicious. It was obvious that she had learned well, the art of tightening herself when a cock was inside.

Just as her small pussy tightened around my cock, I thought suddenly of a round ass with long legs and red hair falling down the back. I would wrap the red hair around my hand as I jerk her head up. Her pussy would drip and cling tightly to my cock. I groaned as I spilled my cream inside the Anna's pussy while thinking of the redhead in the comfort of my home.

"That was so good, Alpha. Why did this take so much time? You used to act like you don't give a fuck about all my advances all these while, was all of that a little hard to get?" Anna had said as she laid on my chest and I rolled my eyes hoping she wasn't going to take this as an invitation to act all familiar with me.

I proceeded to get off the bed as I dressed up while she remained, looking at me curiously as if wondering what our relationship was now.

"I'm Deangelo Ferrari, what do you mean by hard to get? That makes no sense. And don't give this too much meaning, it's just a release I needed so bad so know your place and we won't have any issues at all. Call Luca to let him know about your new findings concerning the assignment you were assigned." I let out in the harshest tone I had.

"Oh... and here's a credit card, get yourself some pills, you know what I mean. I better not hear a thing about pregnancy and what not. You know what I can do." I added just before I got out of the room.

Did I just act like a total asshole? Yes. But was is needed? Highly.

And did what I have just done do anything to satiate my need for Elena? Absolutely not.