Pregnancy hormones

Divya POV

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I opened my eyes slowly. I looked at the clock. It was already 1:30 pm. I turned my head to see my handsome husband, but he is not beside me. I frowned.

'I think he went downstairs' I thought, ans sighed.

I have to say, he is doing a good job looking after me.

Yesterday Ana called me, I told her I am going to forgive Daksh.

Ana asked me, how can I forgive him so easily, how I can just forget the pain I felt and things he put me through, how I can just move on so easily?

I explained her, I forgave him because I still love him but the truth is it wasn’t just him I had to forgive. I had to forgive myself for letting someone impact me so much that he had such power and influence over me. So before I could even forgive him for the pain he caused me, I had to forgive myself too.

No one is perfect in the world. We all mess up. We all hurt one another sometimes. I saw the worst sides of Daksh but the worst sides of him didn’t even compare to him at his best side. Hating someone I loved with all my heart would have hurt me more.

When relationships go wrong you can’t just put the blame on one person. Maybe it's all my fault. I promised him, after I broke his promise and went to meet Karthik.

My family and friends might see every mistake he made but I chose to forgive him thinking about everything he did right.

Sighing I get up from the bed and went towards washroom for fresh up. After fresh up I came out from the washroom and went downstairs and saw him arranging the dining table. He prepared lunch for me. I felt an unknown feeling a big smile appeared on my face.

Aww! He is such a Cutie husband!

Suddenly, I got naughty idea, "Daksh, why did you leave me there all alone on the bed? " I pretend like I am angry with him.

He looked at me with shocked expression, "Sorry sweetheart. You are sleeping, and I thought not to disturb you" He slowly approaches me, afraid that I'm mad at him.

"Well, you can't just leave me, hereafter" I warned him.

"I promise. I will not leave you alone but please don't be mad at me. Please forgive me" He pleaded. I feel a little guilty for pretending angry at him.

"Okay I will forgive you but in one condition." I told him.

"What is it?" He immediately asked me.

"You have to carry me on your arm till the dinning table and feed me with your hands" I chuckled and a big smiled appeared on his handsome face.

"Gladly" he smirked and carried me in his arms. Instinctively, I wrapped my arms around his neck. I laid my head on his shoulder. I missed his smile, his touch, his hug. I couldn't lose him again.

He was walking very slow pace. I think a tortoise could beat him in the slow race competition. I smiled inwardly.

He made me sit on the dinning table, and he came from the kitchen with the plate of lunch, which was prepared by him and started feeding me. I coughed in between, and he made me drunk of the water like two-year-old baby. I took another spoon, and I was feeding him. His eyes glistened with tears. We feed each other and enjoying our own moments.

We almost finished eating. Daksh's phone rang, disturbed our sweet moments. He got frustrated and attends the call. I sighed in disappointment.

"Hello?" he barked at the other person in the phone. Suddenly, his expression turned into fear and anger.

"Why didn't you tell me, before?" he muttered, barely audible while looking at me.

"Ok, I will call you later" he said and hung up the phone.

He mumbled to himself, "I have to hire a bodyguard to protect her all the time" tapping his foot anxiously.

'Bodyguard? For who' I thought.

"Are you okay?” I ask, though it's rather obvious to me that he's not.

"Ofcourse I am" he said while playing with the cellphone in his hand. He looked tensed.

Definitely, he isn't OK!

I sighed and walk towards upstairs, but he instantly held my hand in his, "Where are you going? He asked me.

"I think its best if I go to sleep because you're clearly irritating me with your tensed face" I told him angrily. He sighed.

"It's just that office tension. I'm very sorry." He said and struggling to find the exact words, he looks down on his phone not even paying attention to me.

"It's Okay. You don't have to apologize. Tell me your problem, just let it out." I said calmly.

"I don't want to make you stress. Let's go to our bedroom" he said and closes the distance between us and carried me to our bedroom. He gently placed me on the bed, and he laid beside me, his face close to mine. I caressed his cheek.

He slowly lifted his fingers and brushed against the scars on my wrists. Tears brimmed in his eyes.

"Why did you do this? He whispered in a barely audible voice.

"I Know I’ve done wrong. I was too blind to see what I'm doing. I broke your heart with my words and actions. But how can you tried to commit suicide? Don't you know that you're my everything? If you're not here in the world. I don't know what I would do, I'd be lost if I lost you, How do I live without you? How do I breathe without you? How do I ever, ever survive without you? I just don't think I can live without you in my life" Daksh cried. I pulled him into a hug, and I cried against his shoulder.

This was the first time he had been broke down in front of me so it was generally a shock to me.

"Shh, I'm alright, Now." I consoled him.

"I thought; you were the strongest and bravest girl" he choked out.

"I am a brave girl until you came into my life. I am strong, but you are my weakness" I whispered.

"It's all my faults. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," as he kept chanting.

"Big boys Don't cry. Your baby cannot bear to see you this way so don't cry baby's daddy" I cooed softly. He chuckled and pulled out for the hug and kissed my forehead.

"It hurts too bad, because I couldn't live without you, and I don't like to think of losing you. Promise me, doll. You will never tried to commit suicide, no matter what happens before you do something like that imagine my death face." I immediately pressed my palms to his mouth.

"I promise. Please don't say like this ever again" That was all I said. He held my hand.

"I will kiss your scar as you heal" he said and kissed my wrist.

I put my hand on his cheek, "You no longer need to stay away from me because my heart always wants to stay close to you" I said, his lips stretching into a beautiful smile.

"Am I forgiven?" he asked me. His eyes were full of hope. I swallowed hard.

It's useless to deny my feelings towards him anymore. I thought I couldn't forgive him, but I learned that no matter how angry I am because of what he did, I can still forgive him because I love him that much. But now, I'm not going to confess him, that I forgive him. I'm going to make him work hard to earn my forgiveness.

*Warning Mature content *

"Well I don't know" I said, as my lips touch Daksh's, I feel his sharp intake of breath. I claimed his lips with a passionate kiss. I moaned with delight.

Damn the pregnancy hormones!

We kissed for a minute or two before we stopped and breathe for air. I reached out touched his back with my hand his shoulders tensed for a moment. His eyes searching mine.

There was a hesitation, "Kiss me" I whispered. His eyes squinted in desire as he stared at me. I closed my eyes. I felt his lips touched mine. The kiss was so gentle and feathery. I began to kiss him back. I heard him groaned as his other hand went around my waist and pulled me closer to him. Our bodies touched intimately. His kisses began getting deeper. I couldn't understand what was happening anymore. We kissed like we were lost on a desert thirsty, and only we could quench each other's thirst.

My body felt so hot from his touch. I felt the overwhelming need to continue what we were doing. His hand which was on my waist went down to my breast and squeezed it. I moaned out loud. I was so lost with what he was doing to me. He deepened the kiss deeper than ever.

I broke the kiss with less than a breath of air left on my body. We both were breathing heavily but Daksh continued kissing down my jaw, "I love you so much, sweetheart" He whispered as he kissed my neck and his hand gently massaging my bre*st, igniting the fire within me again. I couldn't control the moan escaped from my lips.

Oh God!

He came top of me and held all his weight on his one hand, so he wouldn't have to put his weight on me, since I'm pregnant.

I looked at him to see him gazing up at me with adoration and desire obvious in his black eyes. He slowly started unbuttoning my shirt. My heart beats were racing. He removed it completely and threw it on the floor. Then, he removed my bra revealing my bre*sts. My cheeks turning into a crimson red. He kissed down my neck until he reached my nip**le and sucked softly like a baby. He was driving me crazy throwing me into a fit of moans.

Suddenly, his cellphone rang, right next to our bed, on the dresser. I heard him swore under his breathe.

"Ignore it." I moaned.

"Sorry, I have to attend the call," he said and rushed for the phone.

"Yes!" he answered. I sat up the bed and covered myself in the blankets. I just kept staring at him. He looks very tensed.

"Don't let her go. I am coming there to meet her" he said and hung up the phone.

"I am so sorry Doll. I should go to the office right now. I'll see you at 6 pm so get ready. We have to attend the Sridar party." He said and went out hurriedly. I just sat there and stared at the way he left.

What did just happen? He left me like this, tears flowing from my eyes. I stood up the bed and started wearing my shirt.

Her? Who on earth was he referring to?

I was crying for about 1 hour. All of a sudden, my cellphone rang. I picked it up without looking at the caller ID.

"Hello," I said into the phone.

"Hey Divya, it's Riya!" I hear her happy voice.

"Hi Riya! How are you? I asked her.

"I am good. Today Daksh sir, didn't come office. Is everything okay? Are you fine?" Riya asked me concernedly.

"Everything is fine. One hour before, Daksh got an important call so, he went to the office. I think he had an important meeting. Didn't he arrive there? I asked her.

"What? There's no meeting today or any other time. He's not present at the office" she said.

"Are you sure, Riya? I asked her.

"One hundred percent, sure" she said confidently.

"Riya, I will call you later. I have an some important work" I told her.

"OK, take care Divya, bye" she said and hung up the phone.

There was something wrong. I quickly dialed Daksh number. His phone rang, and he picks it up.

"Divya, I am in a middle of a meeting right now. I will call you later!" he said and before he hung up the call. I heard some girl giggling sound. I froze.

Why is he lying to me?

Why he is with a girl?

I felt broken and pain in my heart again. My palms were over my face as I continued to cry like a child. It hurt me really bad when he ignored me like this.

"Don't be jealous if he talks to another girl, he was probably just being friendly" my mind voice consoled me.

Still, my heart can't accept the fact that he lied to me. I hugged my pillow as I stared at his picture on the dressing table.

"Next time, I will not let you touch me easily" I yelled, looking at his smiling picture. I cried sometimes and drifted into sleep.

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Precap - "Nowadays; I'm a huge fan of almond, apple and strawberry. You know, why?" Daksh asked me and there were a few inches between our lips.

How is it?