I'm not your imagination

Divya POV

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'Please listen to me, sweetheart. I didn't do anything.'

'No! I didn't kill our baby, Sweetheart.'

'Mommy it's paining'.

'Mommy I don't want to leave you'.

'Mommy help me'.

'Mommy I'm scared'.

'Mommyyyyyy'

I woke up with a jolt. My heart is pounding hard inside my chest, and my breathing is coming out in a harsh manner through my parted lips. My hand unconsciously went to my tummy, and I caressed it.

It was a nightmare, and I have them every time I sleep like my baby calling me to save her. The loss of my baby is my greatest nightmare.

Yes, it's a girl baby. Doctor informed me. Today I understand. The loss of baby is the most painful experiences of life.

I sighed. Everything was blurred to my eye sight. I couldn't see anything properly. I blinked my eyes and What I saw shocked me to the core.

Daksh was sitting on my couch, leaning back comfortably. His left ankle crossed on top of his right knee. I looked at the clock. It was 12.00 am in the night. I saw that his gaze was intensely focused on my eyes. The cool night air touched my skin. I shivered.

I slowly stood up from the bed, and I walked towards him. I stood infront of him. Just a foot away from him. I place my hands-on Daksh's face, but he just disappeared into a thin air. I clenched my eyes shut tightly.

Not again Divya!

Nowadays, I often imagine Daksh presence in my room. Whenever I tried to touch him, he just disappeared into a thin air.

It has been one week since I discharged from the hospital. On the day of my discharge, no one came to the hospital to visit me except Ana. However, Dad didn't allow me to talk to Ana. Dad further warned Ana don't try to disturb us. I feel bad for her.

Daksh's also didn't disturb me because I don't want to see him or speak to him, but his imagination always disturbing me in my life. I don't think I'm going to see him again. He just played me like a game. He didn't want me, and I don't want him. However, I can't get his image out of my head the look on his face before leaving in a hospital always haunting me.

I found myself getting annoyed. I grabbed my towel and, then headed toward the bathroom to face wash. I turned on the bathroom sink faucet and splashed cold water on my face, try to wash away the pale girl in front of me. Then I looked up into the mirror. My face seemed better now. I grabbed my towel and dried off my face. Then I walked outside only to see Daksh standing before me while panting. My eyes widened, and I gave my head a quick shake.

Again imagination? What the hell, Divya?

I know if I touch him, he is going to disappear into a thin air, "What do you want from me idiot? Why are you not leaving my mind? Damn it!!!" I yelled angrily. That imaginary Daksh looking at me with confused expression.

"I'm afraid you'll always be on my mind. Seriously! No matter how hard I try to forget. You never leave my mind" Imaginary Daksh eyes turned into moisture. Hurt, confusion, and sadness written all over his face.

Wait! Wait! This is the first time. Imaginary Daksh is crying and showing some emotions on his face. In the past one week, he never showed this expression before me. He only stared at me with blank emotion. After my touch, he just disappeared into a thin air.

I sighed and walked towards him and touched his face in my hands. He stares down at me and wraps his arms around my waist. I gasped. I feel his hot breath against my lips. His eyes are piecing my soul. I find myself wondering how the hell he was still standing before me? I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to calm myself down. I felt he buried his face in the crook of my neck. My breath hitched in my throat. He was sniffing me. I snapped to open my eyes, and I stepped back away from him hurriedly.

"You....You" I shuttered.

"I'm not your imagination, sweetheart" Daksh completed my sentence.

Oh My God!

I did not even move an inch and starring him with my wide-open eyes. I felt tears forming before my eyes. Then, I felt it streaming down my face, and my lips were quivering. I looked at him. His face was red and had dark circles under his eyes. His face shows depression, loneliness, and heartbreak. A wave of emotions raised in me seeing him like this vulnerable.

Oh God! How much I missed him this past week.

What the hell am I thinking?

I was staring at the floor, waiting, hoping desperately he would leave. He comes so close to me and cups my face. I tried not to make eye contact.

"How are you sweetheart? I missed you so much" His pain filled voice nearly kill me.

'Don't melt, gather yourself together Divya', I pep talk to myself.

I looked at him angrily, "But I never missed you. In fact, I loathe you. What the hell are you doing in my room?" I snap back with hateful eyes. He swallowed hard.

"I can't live without you. I miss you. I don't know why you have done this to us but please come back to me, Please. I love you. I haven't slept since you left me. I need you." He begged.

I grabbed him by his collar, "I'm not the one who did this to us. It's you, Daksh. You killed my baby" I yelled.

"No. No. I didn't kill our baby. How can you think I will kill my own flesh and blood? You never understand how special our baby to me. You and our baby are my breath and world." He said and took a deep breath.

"Maya did all this and you're not listening to me. Therefore, you're misunderstanding me. I know you're mad at me but please listen to me. I want us to talk about happened in the past. Just hear me what I have to say." He begged.

"Enough Daksh. There's no use of talking over the past. It's already finished and we can't change what already happened, and I don't want to hear your lies anymore. Please don't tell someone you care about them if you're not going to do anything to prove it." I told him angrily.

"I know I disappointed you as a husband and failed as a father. Now tell me, what should I do to have you back?" He asked me desperately. I feel a big lump in my throat, and my chest tightened. I felt so miserable. I just want to die, but I didn't want to be a coward like what I did before.

"Nothing! Just leave me, Daksh. I lost my baby because of you. Now, all I'm asking is to be away from you" I told him feeling emotionally drained.

"No, I'm not leaving without my wife" he said firmly.

"And I'm not ever going to be with you. Got it? I have cleared myself earlier that I don't want anything from you. I will never trust you again, and I wasn't ready to forgive you not yet" I yelled at him.

Suddenly I then heard a knock at my door, "Doll, open the door. Why are you shouting? Are you okay?" I heard my Dad panic voice.

Oh God! If Dad see Daksh, he will kill him.

"Daksh, just go away, leave here. Dad will kill you" I whispered to him.

"I don't care and I'm not scared to die. I was already like a living corpse without you. I have no presence without you. I have no life without your breathe. My life was miserable and useless without you. So it's better if I die" he said sadly. Its hurts me a lot seeing him like this.

"Doll, what are you doing? Open the door" I hear my Dad loud voice.

"Daksh I beg you. Don't be stubborn. I don't want to do anything that will get anyone hurt, especially pari maa. Her cry breaks my heart. Just leave before Dad break the door" I pleaded while crying.

"Shh, don't cry. I will leave, but I'll get you back no matter what. This time, I'll make sure that no one will get in between us, and I'll never let anyone hurt you again. I will always love you and trust you. I'll heal you with my love, sweetheart" he promised, kissed my forehead and hurriedly opened the balcony door, and left the room.

"Doll" I heard Dad voices louder.

I immediately opened the door. Dad brown eyes were full of worry when he looked at me, few silent tears, "Are you Okay, Doll? Why are you shouting?" He asked me while scanning my room with his eyes.

"Nothing Dad. It's just a bad nightmare" I told him.

"Nightmare?" He looked at me with suspicious eyes.

"Yes, Dad. Now I'm fine and apologies for disturbing you" I said.

"It's okay, Doll. If you want anything just call me. Okay" he said and he knew something was wrong with me.

"Don't think about anything and go to sleep. Tomorrow I will end your problems." Dad said and made me laid down on the bed. I looked at him with confused expression.

"What do you mean, Dad?"  I asked him.

"Good night, Doll" he said and left closing the door behind him. He didn't even answer my question. I close my eyes and tear's smudge all over my face.

Oh god! I don't know what going to happen tomorrow.

Daksh, you will never ever have my heart once again. I don't want you back maybe I miss the memories with you, but I'm not going to forgive you, never. I cried and drifted into sleep.

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Precap- "We already filed a complaint against Maya for killing my baby, but police did not arrest her. They want proof. Our only proof is Rehka, but she is also missing." I said.

How is it?