Chapter 10

All through the drive to the mansion Lily and Chris were both bothered. Lily was bothered in the sense that Chris refused to look at her after she caught him glaring at her.

She wondered what could have pissed him off when they had just made up. Chris in the sense that they had just planned on taking some steps forward and she was already in the arms of another man.

His belief about rich heiresses clouded his thoughts as he remembered how Liam wrapped his arms around Lily's small waist.

Lily waited behind a little after her dad left for his room. She wanted to speak to Chris before she went to her room. They planned on hooking up tonight but it seems it wouldn't happen.

She felt her heart sink once Chris showed up. His eyes met with hers and the frown he had earlier. She expected him to walk to her and speak to her but he didn't and walked past her.

She frowned, turned around to look at him and saw he made no attempt to talk it halt so she called him.

"Am I tiny or too small?" She scoffed, folding her arms across her chest. She found his attitude unbelievable and her chest clenched.

He made no attempt to stop which aggravated her more. "Okay, what is the problem?" She asked. She felt stupid that she was doing much to get him and each time she ends up hurting more.

"Chris," she called after him and followed him behind.

She finally caught up with him and held his hand to stop him from walking.

He pulled his hands from her grip but she held him again and she frowned. "I thought we were good, what's with the sudden distance?" She asked.

She kept following him till he got to his room, just as he was about to close the door, she pushed herself, making him frown; yet he said nothing.

"So this is how we are gonna play right?" She asked.

"We were fine in the event and made plans to move forward and suddenly you don't want me any more? Did I do something or did I say something to you because I cannot recall saying or doing anything!" She said exasperatedly.

"Can you please leave?" He said quietly but loud enough for him to hear. It was as if he struggled to control himself while he spoke. He hasn't started anything with her yet it hurts him already.

He wondered what kind of spell she used on him for him to fall for her knowing well the relationship between an heiress and bodyguard never ends well.

"I won't leave. We were fine. Just earlier tonight we made out, so what's the issues now?" She asked. Her voice broke and she was on the edge of tears.

"You and I won't work and you know that very well." He started sternly, making her wonder what he meant.

"But we've sorted that and come to a conclusion so what's the problem again and why do you keep repeating this? I thought we were over it?" She asked. She was utterly confused. Her brows creased and her mouth opened slightly.

She was trying to understand him and to read his facial expression but as usual he had a bland one.

"We can't. We won't and you know that! Why are you so adamant! What do you even see in me and what do I have that other men don't?" He asked. He was starting to lose his patience as his voice was starting to be loud.

She was slightly startled but held her stand. She inhaled and exhaled deeply. Closed her eyes and opened them then she looked into his.

"You do not know that yet. You cannot be sure if you do not know. You know nothing at all and most importantly you will never know unless you give it a try. I do not know why you do not want me but then touch me as if I am all you want. I am so confused and it's giving me a whole lot of headache which isn't good."

Chris' heart sank. He knew he hurt her but then again he knew it was for the best. They didn't have anything serious and it would be better if they didn't because it hurts as it is when they aren't that serious talkless if when it gets serious.

She would end up with a prominent man just like her father and move on and as usual have a happily ever after life while he will be dealing with his own pain.

He was the type who took a lot of time to get over their feelings. It worried him when he couldn't get over his feelings for someone after a long time as he would wish for a different scenario.

It took him a long time to get over his ex and now he hasn't gotten too far with Lily yet it was already hard for him. He wouldn't like her with other men and not be able to claim her publicly as he knew her father would end him if he found out he was having anything to do with his daughter.

Secondly, he wouldn't be able to touch her publicly of kiss her like every other people because they would always have to be in hiding and last but not the least, she would soon be meeting other suitors for she would have to marry to help the growth of her father and then she might not be strong enough to fight for them.

Talking of fighting for them,he wasn't sure if what she claimed she felt for him was real or lust. He knew rich heiresses like her hardly ever settled down with men of lower status and he was just an ordinary guy who didn't have much to offer.

He knew the relationship was bound to come to an end one way or the other and he would be the one hurting the most.

"We do not need to try out anything to know what it is that will end the both of us." His voice was low but loud enough for her to hear.

"What is it there is to know because I am not getting any of this and I am really lost as it is," she said.

She didn't know what he meant and she wasn't trying to understand him. He felt she was just after the sexual pleasure and not something real which was what he wasn't ready for.

"You and I are impossible. You are rich, I mean your dad is one of the most influential men in the world right now. You are beautiful and your dad already has your future all planned for you. All you have to do is sit down and let him tell you the next step."

"Also are you sure you are not after sexual pleasure and once you are done with me or you get bored, what next?" He asked, his brows raised up in a questioning manner.

She was silent for a moment as if trying to comprehend all that he had just said. She opened her mouth to say something but closed it.

She face palmed herself, hissed lightly and opened her mouth to speak again but closed it. She was lost, unsure and not able to answer his questions.

Chris observed her for a moment and that confirmed his words and thoughts. He knew she didn't know what she wanted and she was just about the sexual pleasure and would dump him once she get tired leaving him to tend and mend his broken heart.

"You see?" He said more like a question.

"It is not that I do not know what to say but I do not know how to answer. I have made it clear to you that I really like you."

"That's not the point Lily, it's not about you but about me. You keep making it seem as if it's easy. What do you really want, Lily? Just sex with me or you want something other than that because that's all I can say you want from me."

"The first time this bullshit all started was when you snuck into my bathroom naked and gave me heads. It never started naturally. From the moment we met each other, you looked at me in seductive ways."

"You have flirted with me from the start and most times grabbed my butt to get my reaction, so what the fuck do you call all that if not lust?"

"You do not know what you want and definitely don't know what it is about me you find interesting because once this bullshit between us starts, you will dump me and move on with one of those billionaire sons like the one you are with today."

Lily kept quiet not because she wanted to but because she found sense in every of his words.

He was right and she didn't know what she wanted but she knew she really liked him. He didn't know it all started from the night he saved her from the hands of those men. He didn't know she saw him as her angel and still does but because of how she started the whole thing, he felt she was after him for her sexual urge alone.

She sucked in her breath. "I know what I want and I know what I feel. We can start over, you know," she said.

Chris was taken aback by her words. "Over as how?" He asked.

"We could start to know one another, but first we could be friends and if what I really feel for you is truly lust, I will forget it and move on but I sure know it ain't."

"So friends?" She asked, stretching her hands forward.

He didn't know what she meant and what was going on in her head but he knew something definitely was going on in her mind.

"Will we be friends? What do we do and what do you really mean by that because I am confused." He asked.

She chuckled lightly as she found his question funny. "What do friends do? What do you think it means and when someone calls you their friends, what do you think they mean?" She asked. Her brows raised up slightly in a questioning manner.

"Well, we can never know. You know we have different kinds of friends." He clarified.

"And what are they? Mind clarifying so I can understand because I sure as hell know that everyone knows the meaning of friendship."

He shrugged, "Friends with benefits. I mean we have friends with benefits. People who are with each other for what they get which is mostly for sexual purposes."

She giggled and he found it so nice and pleasing to the ear. She did have a nice smile when she giggled. "You are silly!" She whined.

"I wasn't thinking of that. Gosh, I was talking of normal friendship but you have a sicko mind. Dirty mind Chris." He felt shivers down his spine when she called his name. He loved the way his name sounded to her.

He could get addicted to it. "You can't blame me. One minute we were talking about lust and unsure feelings and suddenly you are asking to be friends so I'm bound to think that way," he defended.

"Okay,okay." She laughed.

"Now you know I do not mean friends with benefits but friends. So Chris," she walked closer to him.

She stretched her hand forwards and she asked, "Chris, would you like to be my friend. Let's get to know each other. Know our likes and dislikes and be each other's friends. Are you interested?" She asked.

Chris glanced at her hands and then at her and at her hands again. He debated mentally if he should go for it or not.

"I do not know Lily, I am so not sure what this all means," he said truthfully.

She sighed, "I do not either but we could find out. So shake my hands already and let's call it a deal," she said. Her hands were starting to ache already.

He sighed but stretched his hands forward to shake her hands. "Friends."

She smiled, "Friends."