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##Chapter 31

Hugh Mikhail



Halfway through, I decided to call Hunter and ask Rick to meet me at a nearby bar and ask him to bring me money because I still didn't have anything. Then he would pay or maybe he wouldn't even charge.

Minutes later he arrived to find me sitting at the counter hunched over four glasses of vodka. In the next few minutes I told him everything that happened.

"Fucking hell." Could it be that this woman isn't winding you up, man?

“I don't fucking know. It's hell to live like this. Shit, I thought we made up and now she's going on like she doesn't want to hurt Caleb's feelings? — I was very angry.

"And your feelings?" Can you be hurt and the other not? Wake up to life, you can't be chasing her forever, if she doesn't want to, there's no point in insisting, you just want to know about your son. Let her know you're not going to be on the fucking hook forever. You've done what you had to do, what more does she want? Who crawls at her feet?

I looked down pondering his words. He always knew what to say, but this time he was a little ruder than usual, but I didn't question it, deep down he was right. Could I go out the window hurt when she couldn't tell Caleb to go away? That only meant one thing, that she'd rather spare him than me.

“You fucked her up when you decided to act insincerely, if maybe you'd been upfront from the start about not staying with her because of your father's debt, this might not be happening. But fuck it, you're both to blame, you for the past and she for the present, because even after you've explained yourself, you can't decide what you want.

- You are right. Even if you're a boor, you always have an answer for everything.

"Not always..." I caught his faraway look.

- What happened? I noticed you sad earlier today, I didn't mean to bother you but I'm worried. You're the auto astral and I'm the fucked up one, remember? I punched him in the shoulder.

“I'm into Ramona. Rick heaved a sigh like someone who has just confessed a sin.

"Then try to stay with her."

“Fuck no. She's seeing Hunter. I'm not going to be with a woman my brother has already been with. He paused . “We're fucked man.

“Fucked is not enough. Let's get stuffed . — we ordered a few more shots and drank until we dropped and got kicked out because they wanted to close the bar.

Rick decided to sleep at my house, we went the whole way smiling and shouting the names of the women that were driving our minds crazy.

The next day I woke up with a bad hangover, it was Friday. I looked at my cell phone and saw a message from Hunter saying that the bar owner told us about our party the night before and gave us the day off, he also reminded me that the next day, Saturday, would be the sports event and that he would be waiting for me at gym at five in the morning to go to Temecula, the place that would happen.

"Do you also have a mason on your mind?"

- Mason? I laughed.

“Yes, there's someone hammering my mind. From today to yesterday I don't drink anymore, only tomorrow. Rick laughed. He appeared to still be under the influence of alcohol.

"I don't think one night was enough to get our blood alcohol to zero." My head is spinning. - I also laugh.

I ended up sleeping again, when I woke up it was five in the afternoon and Rick was already gone. The first thought that came to mind was my son, I didn't want to text Diana, I wanted to give her as much space as possible and besides I was pissed as hell about what she did. But I was going to be away for the weekend, so I needed to at least give Charlie a kiss.

I texted her letting her know I wanted to see him.

"I want to see Charlie today. I'll be away for the weekend and I'll miss him."

My heart sped up when I heard the noise of the answer coming.

"Hey, we need to talk."

"Won't Caleb be hurt if we talk?" He could be being a cretin. But I was angry and fucking jealous.

"Why can't you understand that he's been by my side this whole time and I can't just tell him I had sex with you and I'm going to be with you? I still can't do that, he's going to suffer and I don't want that, he does not deserve."

"So keep lying to him and to yourself, I'm tired of this little game princess. From today I'll only look for you for Charlie. If you don't want to, I won't make you, I've done my part, if you want to be with Caleb, go ahead." ahead. I'm going to your house to see my son."

I didn't send anything else and I didn't see your reply either because I turned off my phone. I took a shower, put on jeans and a regular shirt and walked to her house. I rang the bell, after a few seconds the door opened.

I opened a smile when I saw Charlie who also smiled getting very agitated for me to pick him up, so I did. I hugged him with enough strength not to hurt him , I was about to turn my back to be with him alone in the backyard when Diana called me.

“Hugh! I looked at his face.

- What? I snapped.

"Are you really going to act like that?" Let's not talk about yesterday?

"Now do you want to talk?" Because yesterday you didn't think twice about throwing me out the window. If you like him just say so, if you want to be with him, even if I suffer like hell, I won't beg him forever .

“Don't you see how I react to you? Are you that blind? All I feel for Caleb is consideration, respect, so I can't hurt him. I also think about your feelings, but you know everything that happened, I hope you understand.

— So what is missing for you to say with all the words that you are mine? What will stay with me? What's missing? Trust? I raised my voice.

"You'll scare the baby."

“Even he's on my side, he won't be offended by me giving his mother a reality check. — I said — Stop running away when we're starting to understand each other , you're the one who's making everything difficult, I won't insist for long. Loving for two can't!

She stared at me looking like she was about to cry.

— What do you mean to love for two?

"Can it be that you still don't realize that I love you, Diana?" I'm crazy for you. I love you more than anything, just not more than this little guy right here, but you gave him to me so I don't know how to explain how I feel about you other than to say I love you so much. When I look at you, I see me, you, Charlie and a bunch of other kids. You keep doing this to me while I'm here, I'm yours, all yours. But I won't be forever.

She opened her mouth but I decided to leave the last word and our fate in her hands.

“I don't want you to feel pressured. But you have the weekend to decide. Follow your heart, do what's best for you. If it's not going to be with me, it's going to hurt, but if it's going to make you happy, that's what I want.

A tear trickled down her face and I walked away to spend some time with Charlie. My chest was hurting, I didn't want her to feel obliged to decide anything, I just wanted her to take action and tell me once and for all if she was going to stay with me again or her heartache was so great that she would never leave me to forgive.

I had already done everything, I explained myself, I begged her forgiveness, and when we got together again I swore that this time it was for real, that even though she wanted to start with a friendship, she would never be able to resist because she trembled at my every touch. She belonged to me, she was mine sentimentally and sexually.

But what if I was wrong? That's what we would see on Monday, when I returned full of proposals from that event and with his decision to make me stay or leave.