Chapter 21 One: Late Night walk

Emily

Dinner with Adam was amazing and I couldn't help but smile about the small things he had done throughout the night. He had made me laugh and he even “mom” me while I was eating my steak. The gravy had run from my lip down to my chin and he had moved so quickly that I didn’t realize what he was doing until he did it. Wiping it away from my chin, he had sucked his finger off the minute his hand left my chin and I couldn't help but shudder from excitement. I knew he was a pro in bed, just by looking at him I could tell. The thing was, I wasn't sure if I wanted to take that step with him–– if I wanted to give up my virginity to a man I have known for almost two months and no prior relationship with except an employee and employer one.

I couldn't deny him though, my body couldn't deny him any longer and I know that soon enough, I will be in his bed. My lust for him keeps getting stronger and stronger due to the simple actions he does and now that I have seen what he has gotten in-between his legs––I know I would be fantasizing about him more than ever.

Finishing up with dinner, we made our way back to the elevator when he suddenly stopped.

“Why don't we go for a walk?”

“Yeah sure,” I replied before we turned back around and made our way outside. Walking around the block we crossed the street before we made our way through a park and then onto the next block. We continued walking until we came to a clearing that had a path that leads to the front of a river.

Walking down the path, side by side we sat down on the grass and stared at the river that was calm and had the glow of the moonlight.

“Emily, I would like to know more about you. You're so hard to figure out sometimes. Your hot this minute and then you're cold.” He spoke as we sat down.

“Why do you want to know more about me, Adam?”

“Isn't it obvious Emily? I like you and normally when someone likes someone they would want to know more about them.”

Sighing I replied, “we hardly know each other so how can you like me?”

“I know more about you than you think. We have been working together for almost two months now and we have known each other for a month. I know you like the color purple, I know you love to drink coffee and eat hot sandwiches from the deli across the street. I also remember everything you told me that day when we were at the hospital, like you are a sucker for romance novels and movies and that your dad is dead. I also see that you get frustrated a lot when you're trying to do something and you failed but still you never stop until you get it done and you're a bit stubborn.”

Staring at him in shock, I was a bit taken aback by the way he described me. He never lets on that he knows anything about me but yet still here he was, telling me all that he knew––revealing parts of me that nobody ever got the chance to know–– to experience.

“How do you know I like the color purple? Seeing I never wore it.”

Chuckling he replied. “You always use the purple ink pen regardless of all the different colors and even when it finished, you went to buy more. You also put purple lettuce in the sandwiches you buy from the deli.”

“I am a bit taken back Mr. Jacob, you know a lot about me but yet still you never gave off an indication.”

“I am an observant person Emily and I see every little detail. I may not say anything but that doesn't mean I don't know anything.”

“So, is that all you know about me?"

“No, I know a lot more but that's all I'm letting on.”

Smiling at him, I could see his eyes sparkle when he moves his head and the light from the moon shines on it.

“Emily, I really like you,” he said while taking my hand and putting me in a standing position. Drawing me closer to him, I could feel my breast pressed up against his chest. “When I first met you, I was in a battle with myself. The person who I was, the one who always fuck and discard was no longer a part of me after I met you. You let me see things in a different way and a different light. You changed me for the better.”

Leaning in towards me, I felt his lips on mine and I closed my eyes immediately. They felt so soft and I couldn't help but melt. I could feel his hand traveling from around my waist, making its way to my bottom where he squeezed lightly.

Gasping at the feeling it ignited in me, he pushed his tongue forward into my mouth and there they twist and turned, rubbing against each other.

His hand was still on my ass, rubbing it lightly before he squeezed it again. My entire body was heating up, I felt so confused. His touch was like a flame of desire, igniting every hormone inside my body.

Pulling away from the kiss, I felt his teeth graze my lip before he spoke.

“I always wanted to do that.”

Snapping out of my daze, I slapped him so hard before I turned on my heel and ran straight back to the hotel in tears.

I could hear him yelling my name and telling me to stop, but I didn't. I continued running away like the coward I am. I could hear his footsteps behind me, and I ran even faster. Running into the hotel and then into the elevator, I hurriedly pressed the button and the doors closed just in time so he couldn't come in.

Banging his fist on it, I heard him call my name before the elevator moved up.

Exiting the elevator, I went into my room and locked both the front and the side door so he couldn't come inside my room. Planting my face in the pillow, I cried until my eyes felt swollen. I felt like such a fool––no wait I was so confused or ever both. A confused fool.

“Emily,” I heard him shout on the other side of the door while his fist banged repeatedly against it. “Open the door please, I am so sorry if I overstep my boundaries. Please open the door so I can apologize properly.”

“Leave me alone Adam. Please, just go away.”

Letting out a loud sigh he replied flatly. “Okay fine. I will grant you your wish.”

Picking up my phone, I dialed my mother's number.

“Two times in one day Emily, what have you done now?” She asked. “First it was you behaving like a kid. Now, what did you do?”

“He kissed me mom and I slapped him. I am so confused, I do like him but I haven't admitted it and I am afraid to admit it.”

“Emily, you need to let go of this fear that you have. Adam seems like a responsible man. I am sure he won't publicly humiliate you.”

“Mom–––”

“Don't mom me Emily! You know what your problem is, you are too scared to be with anyone because you are afraid you will end up alone and hurt. I know I am going away soon, but I know God will let me hold on a bit longer so I can see you happy and Emily everyone gets hurt. That's something you can't run from, but at the end of the day, you would have to brush off the feeling. Wipe away the tears and move on. It's time to stop fear Emily, and I demand you go over there and apologize to him and let him know how you feel and let him know the truth about what happened. Let him know why you’re so afraid to fall for him. Open up and tear apart all the walls you have built. Be a bit vulnerable for a moment, I know it sounds strange but you have to let him know.”

Sighing, I realized that my mother was right. It was time I put my fear behind me and go after what I want. Thanking her, I told her I loved her and hanged up the phone before unlocking the side door that led to Adam's room.