CHAPTER 10 – HER CRUSH

SCARLET’S POV

I don’t know what I would do now. It is not as if I am not happy that alpha Ray had volunteered to train me personally, but then what am I supposed to do?

Now he would have to see just how feeble I am and he would treat me like the rest. It was easier being his friend and seeing and talking to him occasionally without more.

But now that he would require me to learn from him, he is going to finally realize just how un-teachable I am and he is going to hate me.

I did not say a single word to Lara as we made our way back home, and I could see how worried she was seeing me this way. She walked along with me hoping for the best time to start up a conversation.

“I will not let this happen” I muttered.

Lara saw this as an opportunity and she puts in. “Are you still thinking about that, scarlet? Don’t worry I know it will be alright”

“Stop it, Lara, we both know it only gets worse for me” I replied.

“Don’t you ever make such an utterance, dear. It never gets worse for anyone. You are still alive and that only means that greater things are lying ahead” she corrected me.

“Till when, Lara? Has it ever been better for me?” I murmured.

“It has, Scarlet, just that you can’t see it. You have allowed your fears to blind you and stop you from noticing them. For instance, see Sir Tim has gotten you a trainer. Will he do that if he doesn’t care for you?” she asked.

“The trainer is a trap. He is only looking for a reason to discard me without anyone questioning him” I replied.

“But now alpha Ray has promised to help teach you so that is never going to happen” she retorted.

“I am un-teachable, Lara, that would only make matter worst” I replied.

“How do you mean? Alpha Ray is a gentleman. He will take his time to teach you and you are going to learn” she said.

“But can strength be learned?” I asked.

She kept quiet. She knew I was right in what I said. You can teach the strong to get stronger but what do you teach the weak and feeble?

“No answer?” I murmured.

“But then, never say never, right?” she asked.

“Having Ray teach me will be the most disastrous thing to happen to me” I said.

“But what do you mean? It is the best for now” she asked.

“I don’t want Ray to see me differently. I was hoping he would fall in love with me someday and now how is he ever to do that when he finally sees how weak I am? Who wants a weakling for a mate?” I asked.

“You are in love with alpha Ray, since when?” she was intrigued by the revelation.

“Sorry I have never told you about this before now. I have been keeping it away from you because I don’t know how to tell you without sounding stupid” I replied.

“But then you should tell him,” she suggested.

“Please not now,” I replied.

Was she being stupid or just trying to mock me? How dare she suggest such to me? Has it ever been heard that a female werewolf asked a male werewolf out before? Why does she want it to start with me?

“No, Scarlet, please don’t get me wrong” she apologized.

“But why would you want to suggest such? That I try to lure him?” the mere thought of that felt disgusting. “He is older than me right? Then he should know if I am his mate or not before now”

“Don’t you know?” she asked in surprise.

“Know what?” I inquired.

“Alpha Ray will never be able to know his mate” she revealed.

“Why?” I almost screamed at hearing the news.

“Oh my goodness, you don’t even know it. Alpha Ray would have to be approached by his mate. His wolf can never be able to detect their mate” she replied.

This type of news was intriguing. Here I was feeling that I was worst off without even knowing that some are way worse than me.

What if he is my mate and what I was feeling for him was the mate bond? But then I heard the mate bond is very strong whereas what I felt for him is not that strong.

“But why is that so, what happened for him to suffer such fate?” I asked.

“I don’t know, Scarlet. But rumours have it that it is the same for the three alphas, alpha Jake, alpha Fred, and alpha Ray” she replied.

“Does that explain why none of them is married yet?” I asked.

It was now all making sense to me. I have always wondered why alpha Fred does not have a mate even when all his age groups are already affiliated with a female.

“Yes, that is. None of them can find a mate themselves and till now, no female had claimed any of them as hers. We all believe that even their mates are afraid to approach them, especially alpha Jake. Oh, that name spells doom” she replied.

“What about him? What about alpha Jake that makes everyone hate him this much?” I asked.

I have only heard rumors of him and his supposed evil deeds but I have never seen him or even been to his Pack which was a bit farther from ours.

“Don’t ask. His tales are just as dark as his Pack’s name signifies. He is a tyrant” she responded.

“Oh, I see” I murmured.

I have been made to live a dark life since I was born and I needed no one to tell me what being dark entails.

“So what do you plan to do now?” she asked.

“Eh?” I asked.

“When do you plan to tell alpha Ray that you are his mate?” she asked.

“I never said that I am his mate. I only said that I am in love with him which of course we both know is way different from being a mate. But then I will find a way to go about it. If he doesn’t have a mate, what difference would it make if I make him mine?” I replied.

“That sounds good for the two of you. At least you won’t be handed off to just anyone and he will not have to be trapped with just any gold-digger” she said.

“That makes sense. I will be using one stone to kill two birds” I exclaimed.

“Yeah, that is what I am saying” she nodded.

“I don’t even know how to do this, Lara. I have never been with a man. Please I need your help” I cried.

“Okay, I will help you, I promise. Now you have to try to improve on your relationship with him” she advised.

“But how would I be able to do that? What will I do?” I pleaded.

“You’ve got to leave the friendship level and your relationship with him higher to another level. Try to show him how you feel and make him start to fall for you” she said.

“Oh… I understand. Like the bad girls in the novels right?” I asked.

“Yes, something like that. But not as bad as they. I mean you have to show some dignity, right?” she replied.

“I think I get you. But you will help me, won’t you? You are going to show me what to do” I asked.

“I will always be here for you. But you have to promise me that you are going to take your training sessions with him very seriously. You want to make him proud, don’t you?” she replied.

“Yes, I promise to take that very seriously too. I know he would like to end up with a focused and determined woman” I answered.

Of course, I will take this very seriously. If I want Ray then I would have to work to get him.

“Now you will jump on my back and let’s get back home right now” she commanded.

She always knows just what I needed even without me telling her. I was already tired of walking but couldn’t say because I was caught up in our chat.

“I would do anything to ride on your wolf right now” I replied.

We both laughed and she shifted to her wolf while I hopped on her back before she rode off in speed.