Chapter 22

I don’t know what she’ll plan to do to me if she finds out I got her pregnant. I think I’m more worried about that fact rather than unexpectedly becoming a father.

I imagine myself fathering her child- our baby. Will they inherit her looks? Her crazy personality? Her fearlessness? Her smile? Her- fuck! What the hell am I thinking?!

I noticed she was quiet and didn’t respond to my confession. She fell asleep. I wonder if she heard what I said. Damn it. If she didn’t kill me before, she’ll probably kill me this time.

I was so stupid for getting carried away like that. She felt so overwhelmingly good. It was my first time so I didn’t know when to withdraw. Not that I even remembered it anyway. I just know that I loved the feeling of being inside her. The way she had a vice grip on my cock.

Argh! This woman will surely kill me!

As I waited for her to wake up, I planned to order breakfast for her but Franco already beat me to it. The food was waiting for us in the dining room.

This hotel room was actually pretty huge. There was a mini kitchen and a dining room in a separate space. It was more like an apartment than a hotel room.

“How is she?” My cheeks heated at his question. My hand automatically rubbed the back of my neck in embarrassment. I saw a slight lift on his mouth as he looked at me. With how loud she was, the whole hotel probably heard her. It’s only a given that he knew.

“She’s- she’s fine. She hasn’t woken up yet.” I couldn’t look him in the eyes so I looked anywhere but him.

He hummed in response.

“Thanks for the food by the way. I was on my way to order breakfast for her.”

“New sets of clothes are in those bags.” He nodded towards the paper bags placed on the chair under the dining table. That only confirms that he knew what happened to his boss and I. “So feel free to look at it. Let me know if you or Cara need anything.”

“Ah yeah, thanks.” I still couldn’t look at him without feeling guilty.

He nodded before turning around, leaving me here standing while feeling so awkward and embarrassed. I swear I heard him chuckle as he walked out.

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It was two hours later when Cara woke up. I didn’t eat breakfast without her so I waited for her to wake up. She was already dressed when she joined me in the dining room. She was complaining about her massive headache due to the drugs she ingested. I gave her some medicine to ease the pain.

She was still groggy and it was weird for me to see her like this. I was used to seeing her so active early in the morning. It was already pretty late in the morning.

“You feel better?” I asked again for the umpteenth time. Her food was still untouched. She was massaging her head for a while now. I couldn’t imagine the pain she had endured. I mean I did experience headaches from now and then but perhaps it’s different when you were hit with a strong drug.

She moaned in response. “I should because I’m going to torture someone tonight. Fuck, I feel like throwing up.”

“I’ll take you to the bathroom.” I said as I walked towards her.

She shook her head with her eyes closed. “No need.”

I stood behind her. My hands rose to touch her head with hesitance but I braved myself to do it anyway. Slowly, I massaged her head. She was leaning towards my stomach and it urged me to make her feel better.

She chuckles before speaking. “You really are good with your hands.”

I blushed at the intended meaning behind it. She then opened her eyes and stared up at me. I returned her look, wondering why she’s looking at me like that. I feel her hand move to brush my hair.

“You are such an innocent man, Dylan Ross. You easily blush at such a statement.”

“Are you not, too?”

“Perhaps so. But only my hymen that you ripped last night could determine that. Well, not anymore I guess.” She chuckled when she saw me getting redder. I tried to ignore her teasing as I carried on massaging her head.

“I didn’t expect you to be a… virgin.” I cleared my throat in embarrassment. It was humiliating to ask her that but I was just so curious. A woman so gorgeous and hot as hell like her hasn't done it was just so hard to believe. It was impossible, I think, before I actually felt it and took it. I can’t let her know that I was so eager to be her first time.

“I could ask you the same thing, tesoro. Men are hot blooded and for you to have not tried to have sex with someone seemed to be implausible, let alone with your age.”

My hands paused for a moment. “Do you not believe me then?” Somehow I wanted her to believe me that in fact she was my first as I was hers.

“I wasn’t expecting nor was I in doubt. After all, it is your life, tesoro, you could do whatever you want.” She spoke nonchalantly.

Her answer unexpectedly made me feel down. Yeah, right. Do you actually expect that she cares, Dylan? Don’t be stupid.

“Why… haven’t you done it then?” I asked. I don’t care anymore what she thinks of my questions or if she thinks I’m being nosy. My curiosity is like eating me from the inside out. I want to know more about her. I know she’s more than just a ruthless businesswoman who’s the leader of the most powerful mafia. I was already a witness to that countless times.

By now, I have already stopped massaging her head. I was only more interested with her answers.

Her lips lifted up in a smirk. “Curious, are you? My virginity doesn’t really matter to me. What matters is finding a man who wouldn’t dare betray me. Sex could be a weapon- a means to an end. My end.” Her tone changed at the end.

She continued when she saw my frown and confused look. “You know Sol, my cousin brother.” I nodded confirming my knowledge. “Back in the days, he was a complete manwhore. He slept with a lot of women as long as they’re sexy and beautiful. All of high class- until of course, he had almost slept with someone who tried to kill him. You see, tesoro, in our world, you can never be too careful. One slip… it will cost you your life and what you build for. In the end, it’s not about sex or virginity or what you think that supposedly matters…” She shrugged. “It’s your life so make sure you spend it wisely.”

“And the people I love.” I absentmindedly continued her statement. It was probably my heart that spoke because I didn’t realize that I already blurted that out.

She tilted her head to look at me. Her lips lifted upwards as if she knew what I meant or the weight of those words. “Of course.” She stares at me for seconds before she continues speaking. “Why haven’t you done it, Dylan Ross? I mean, you’re not bad looking. Take those glasses off and you’re the definition of what women call hot. You definitely have a good physique. Surely females indulge you.” She lets out a teasing smirk. “Cock wise, we know you’re beyond well endowed.”

I blushed as I looked away. What the hell is she saying? My heart was beating rapidly while she was describing me.

“So why, tesoro?”

I stole a glance at her and still she had that teasing smile. She always finds ways to make me feel embarrassed.

“I just want to focus on my family. They need me.” I sigh. I knew she knew what I had meant when I spoke those words a moment ago. “I don’t think I have time for love anyway.”

“I’m not talking about love. Sex and love are two different things. People can have sex without love.” She explains plainly.

“I’m kinda afraid that I’ll get my partner pregnant.” I contemplate. “I don’t think I can fully support a partner and a child.” I said sadly.

Wait.

Shit.

I looked at her with widened eyes. “You know I didn’t wear a condom, right?”