Discharge

Clary's POV

"Dad..." I called my dad, he was sitting in one of the chairs inside the room where I am being treated. Now that I look at his features, he looks old. He is probably stressed by me being at this state, but I am actually okay now. I can walk on my own and I can even run, he was just being overprotective father for not letting me to do so.

He looked at me with curiosity on what I am about to say.

"Is it possible to like someone that is not your mate?" I asked out of curiosity now that everything is going smooth with me and Alpha. He was frequent to visit, he would usually bring some flowers that made me really feel special.

I wonder what we are. I wonder what will happen when I got out of here. Will it be the same? Or he was just guilty for the thing that I had to go through? Is he just pitying me at this condition? I also wonder what happened if I got home safely at that day and the next day is awaiting for us. I wonder...

"You could..." My father taking this seriously, he looks like he was having some thoughts about it. "but it was not meant to last," he added in a serious tone. It looks like my father has something on his mind when he said that.

His last words made me sad. So, everything that I am feeling right now and everything that I am experiencing for Alpha will not last. I couldn't believe it, though. I am certain with these feelings of mine that it will last for a life time, I have never felt this way when I am with Darren. This is different from that...I am willing to risk everything for him. I wasn't sure if he feels the same way.

"How did you know that mom is the one?" I asked him once again. My mom and dad have two different attitude and personalities and I wonder how they were able to conquer those adversities.

My dad looked surprise with my question, he was actually silent for a bit. He looked at the window where the trees from probably forest is present.

"Your mother..." He stopped as if he was remembering their time together back then, I can feel that my dad is feeling nostalgic when he spoke. "She was once saved me from death in one of my missions, she was really strong and brave."

I crossed my brows, I haven't heard that story from them. Or maybe, they did told us this before and I just forgot it. If that's how they met, mom has been really tough ever since. It is probably the reason why she wants the prestige to be ours. It is probably the reason why she liked Andrea more than me. Andrea represents her younger self, and I am just too weak to be like her who was really strong and brave.

Now that I thought of my sister, I wonder what she is up too. I cannot get angry towards her, I betrayed her. I was wrong for falling in love with her mate, it is my mistake. It is just a normal response for her. However, I am too afraid to go near her. She might be still furious and angry, she might still hurt me. If she ever does, I don't think I will ever defend myself because I know that I am at fault.

"Dad, can you answer me honestly?" I said before proceeding with the next question that I am about to threw. I want my father to be honest in that question, I wanted him to say the truth without worrying on what I am about to feel. I need to hear him to say nothing but the truth.

My dad, who probably took that words of mine seriously, nodded as a consent of his agreement. He looks serious more than ever, I wonder what are running on his thoughts. I wish I could read minds.

I sighed before letting the question get out of my mouth, "Is Andrea still seeing Alpha? Are they still together?" I bit my lip, I sounded so desperate in those questions... but I really wanted to know what is happening out there. I wanted to know what he is doing right now, or where is he heading everytime he left this room.

My dad brows crossed, probably unbelieving me for asking those silly questions. We have never had a normal conversation before, we never had a real one as a father and daughter. He was always quiet in our home. Now that I have the chance to talk to him like how a normal daughter do to his father, I want to ask those silly questions.

"Andrea still visits the castle..." dad said. I was actually expecting this, I have anticipated this...but it somehow broke my heart. They were still seeing each other, then? I cannot help but think that after visiting me here, he would come home and meet with my sister. The thought of it hurts.

I thought I was prepared to hear my father's words regarding the standing on their relationship. However, it turns out that it actually hurts more than I could think of. It stings, the thought of them being together. I actually felt a little betrayed by Alpha...but it his life. Right. How could he let go his mate? And the Luna dinner has already happened, she was already introduced with the whole pack. There is no turning back.

Then, what am I? Where am I in that situation? My chest felt heavy for the possible answer in my questions. Of course, I was just any other wolf and he was visiting out of pity. That sucks, though. Because I really liked him more than anything in this world.

"Rest, Clary. You will be discharged tomorrow..." Dad said and left me alone, with some thoughts running around.