Chapter 17

It has been two weeks since I gave myself to Yazahib. Two weeks in which he is jealous and I want to dominate myself. We argue a lot about his possessiveness, he really is very controlling, but still I love him like I have never loved anyone.

My best friend helped me get a pill to avoid getting pregnant. Now I am taking care of myself behind Yazahib's back to avoid getting pregnant. My friend reproaches me and disagrees with what I do, but I can't have a baby, not so soon. I can keep it from Yazahib and when it's safe we'll have a baby.

Everything in the university is going well, I still have my good grades. Same at work. Even if Yazahib wants me to quit, I don't. I like my job and I will never quit. Yazahib has not been to the bar because of his work, he has been very busy and that has given me the opportunity to dance freely.

"Teddy, come here" my Darling calls me "look where you came from," he says excitedly. "I walk up to him and I sit next to him “you're in the magazines with Yazahib.” He looks at me smiling excitedly, “You are the envy of all for capturing the attention of the important businessman Yazahib Meyer” he screams with hysteria, I look at him seriously, I don't like to see myself in all the gossip magazines and newspapers.

"I don't like this Simone, I don't like everyone talking about me."

My friend snorts and turns to face me, “sweetheart, you're with the most important man in the country, of course you are the center of attention.” I deny, I don't want to be.

"I don't like being pried into my privacy, my relationship with Yazahib shouldn't matter to anyone,” my Darling tucks a lock of my hair behind my ear, “I don't like this Simone. Enough with his ex-wife ... she is very rude to me, whenever she sees me she makes my life impossible,” I snort tired of that woman.

"Teddy, don't let that bother you. Ignore the paparazzi, don't read the magazines or the newspapers,” he smiles at me fondly, “just enjoy the love you feel for Yazahib and as for his ex-wife… you are strong and I know you will put her in her place whenever she needs it.” Simone opens his arms and I take refuge in them.

“Thank you for always making me feel better,” I feel like he kisses my head and I smile, “now I must go, the girls must be waiting for me for their classes,” I separate from my friend and get up, but he pulls me and I remain seated again.

"Not so fast Teddy, when are you going to tell Yazahib that you are taking the pills?" I take a deep sigh "honey, if you hide it from him, he will get very angry."

I shake my head, “I don't know how to tell him, he was clear to me and he told me not to take the pills to prevent pregnancy… but I can't do that, I don't want a baby, not now. I want to finish my studies, have a good job and with it a good future.”

My friend smiles, "I know, darling, but you'd better discuss it with him. That way you'll avoid a bigger problem.”

I bite my lower lip, "I know, but you should know that Yazahib and control of him makes everything more difficult" I look my friend in the eyes "please darling, don't say anything to him. I'll tell him when I'm ready ... but for now just get me the pills and keep the secret for me. Can you do that for me?”

My friend takes a deep sigh and nods, “it's okay. I'll do it because I love you,” happy to know that he supports me in everything, he threw me into his arms and I gave him kisses on his face.

“I love you dear… I adore you,” I separate from him and get up, “tonight we are going to the bar. We must take advantage of the fact that Yazahib is not here, you will love the song that we will dance today ,” my friend looks at me happily, “I am very relieved to know that I still must not hide from Yazahib when I dance. Although I miss him whenever he leaves the country… I would like him to leave the country every weekend,” my friend laughs.

"You're naughty darling, when you're not you cry for feeling his warmth ... his kisses ... his pampering."

I give a sigh of love, "I know… I always miss him. I already want him to come, but good. I must go now, see you later,” I give my friend one last kiss and leave the house.

Listening to music on my headphones, I heads to the wedding where I teach karate. As I passed by the building under construction in Yazahib, I smile as I remember that day we met again after seeing him naked in his house.

With a huge smile, I arrive at the warehouse and the girls run up to me to hug me. I effusively embraces them and kisses them. I like children, I adore them, but I can't have a baby… not now.

"Sensei ... you here," they all shout at the same time - we already want you to teach us,” they look behind me and then at me, “where is her boyfriend? He always gives us lollipops.” I smile after their question. Yazahib comes to the winery whenever he can and brings gifts to the girls. They adore him for that and for being handsome. I kneel before them and open my bag.

"He couldn't come ... but he ... told me to give you this" I take out the lollipops and they go crazy screaming with happiness.

"You have them very spoiled," one of the mothers tells me, "one day I'll have to leave my daughter with you." She smiles with amusement, “she likes to be with you and always asks me if you can teach them every day.”