Seven

~Isabelle~

It's been days since the whole party incidents and if I told anyone that I was okay, then, I will be a liar, seeing him in school everyday with Kaylee hasn't been easy, the fact that he never bothered to try to talk to me afterwards was more annoying.

I knew I needed space but now, I can't help it anymore, I yearn for him, the attachment was unexplainable.

"Still thinking about him, huh?." Carly brought me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah."

"You never told me, why you guys stopped talking?."

I have been avoiding this conversation for long now since the party.

I sighed, "He was the guy who ditched me."

"Oh.."

"Yeah, when I got home, he was already there, he apologized but I was too angry to listen and I told him I needed space and now, I regret every word I told him, I shouldn't have."

"Well, you should have given him a chance to explain and the fact that he came back to apologise is really something, it wasn't as if he ditched you and never came back to tell you or acted as if nothing ever happened, the way he is acting now." She pointed and I felt even more bad.

"Maybe, I should go and apologize." I attempted to leave but she pulled me back.

"I think you both need space, just let him be, if he really cares and he obviously does, he will come around." She assured me.

I wasn't still satisfied, I was the one who ruined the chance I had with him and I was definitely going to fix it.

I tried to take her advice but the yearning increased, my thoughts were all about him, my body itched for his touch, I couldn't take my eyes off his figure, he didn't even realize that I have been looking at him except Kaylee who had a deadly glare on her face which I totally ignored.

"I'm such an idiot." I confessed.

"You aren't."

"I am, only an idiot will finally something they have always desired and then, let their selves loose it." I facepalmed myself.

"That's true but he will come back eventually." She shrugged.

"What if he doesn't come back because of the words I said to him?".

"He will, if he really likes you.."

"What if he doesn't and he thinks there's no girl out here for him and he finally accepts Kaylee?." I kept questioning.

"You know that's not possible, he doesn't like her."

"I know but nobody really knows that, it might turn from a hate to love situation."

The possibilities were scary.

"Stop assuming things, if you are scared then try to talk to him at least, I'm sure he will respond." She assured me.

"That's the thing, I can't, what if he snubs me?". I argued.

"The earlier you stop with the what if's, the better for you." She stated.

I kept my clothes inside my locker and we headed to the field for PE.

Whatever coach was saying kept coming in and out because I wasn't listening, I can't continue like this.

This is torture.

I was already slipping into depression and low grades because all my attention was focused on one person.

My eyes trailed to his direction, he wasn't participating, he sat down on the floor and was lost in his thoughts.

Our eyes locked when he rose his head to hold my stare.

I could see the pain in his eyes as he intensified the stare by squinting as if he wanted to search through my soul for answers.

He later broke the gaze with a look of indifference and his action broke me as well.

I'm loosing him…..

"Did you see that?."

"Yes, I saw.."

"He just portrayed lack of interest." She commented.

"No, he can't, he likes me…". I convinced myself.

"But…"

"Nothing, I am going to confirm everything from her...if he still wants me, if he doesn't….maybe, I will give up." I stated before jogging into a track.

My thoughts instantly made me run fast instead of jogging, I didn't stop, I couldn't stop running fast, my eyes watered as I thought about everything…

I couldn't loose him.

Not after, loving from a distance.

I stopped running when I realized that I was supposed to jog and not run, everybody had stopped to look at me.

Carly ran to meet me, "Are you okay?."

"No, not until I fix this." I replied.

"Hey, wait, how come you aren't panting after running such long distance?". She questioned.

Huh?.

"I don't know…." My attention drifted from her to search for him.

I couldn't find him, without even thinking or hesitating, I ran out to look for him.

Perfect timing to set things right without any disturbance or distraction.

I ran into the hallway but he wasn't there, my only option was the boys' locker room.

Is it really worth it?.

Yes, he was my only chance of finding love before college or at all….

I headed towards there, nothing was going to stop me.

"Where do you think you are going?".

She blocked me from entering into the locker room, "Please, move, I need to speak to someone". I frowned.

"That someone is my boyfriend, when will you actually cut the chase?".

"When you start minding your business." I replied, harshly.

"Well, I'm not the one getting hurt right now, no matter, how hard you try to be the better option, you are still going to end up like rest." She stated.

"You are just assuming."

"Trust me, I'm not assuming, I know what I'm saying, you aren't the first and you are definitely not going to be the last." She spoke bitterly.

"Atleast, I'm not the one who dragging her man with numerous girls." I remarked.

She chuckled bitterly, "Dragging? I don't do that, he's the one who dumps and still comes back to me eventually."

"Coming from someone who isn't getting any bit of attention from him even when no girl is hitting on your relationship."

"He ditched you after a one night stand to spend time with me for the rest of the whole day, you are just another conquest."

"I'm not."

"I know, it's hard to believe, he came back to apologise to you, he does that alot, the earlier you know, he doesn't mean any of his words or apologies, the better for your broken heart." She walked out.

"If, he's so bad, why are you still with him?". My words stopped her movement.

"At the end of the day, he always comes back to me because he's mine and I'm his." She replied.

"You think you are his but he claimed me."

"Tsk, tsk, you are so naive, you really think if you was going to settle for anyone, it will be a girl like you? Oh, please, I have nothing to be afraid of, you are no where near competition but let me give you a piece of advice and my mind, stay the hell away from my boyfriend for your own safety." Her eyes flashed quickly before walking out.

She was right.

No matter, how hard I try to not believe her, I knew she was right.

It's just a waste of time, I am obviously trying to cause a rift in their relationship.

Just then, he came out of the locker room, all dressed….

His scent...and image so alluring..

"Hey." I voiced out.

"Are you okay?". He covered the space between us.

I nodded, his concern made tears overflow.

"You are obviously not."

"Did Kaylee say anything to you?." He questioned, his voice a little bit hushed.

"You shouldn't have made feel as if you actually liked me when you are just planning to use me as a pun to push your girlfriend away, either break with her and stay single or mend your relationship with her but please, don't mess up my emotions because of your feud." I stated and walked away, without giving him a chance to even speak.

You were supposed to apologise.

There was no use for an apology, I'm the one wronged here, I'm the manipulated one.

"Isabelle". He pulled me back to grabbing my wrist.

"Please, just leave me alone, forget about everything and anything, if we ever had one". I broke down in tears, he released my wrist reluctantly and I ran off.

"Issy!". I heard Carly call me as I ran past her.

"Isabelle!"

"Please, wait."

"It's hurts so bad." I confessed.

She caught up with me and started painting heavily.

"What happened?". She questioned as she held her chest.

"He rejected the apology?".

"No, I didn't apologize."

"Why?".

"I finally realized that no matter how I try, he still belongs to Kaylee and I don't want to be in a messed love triangle who's going to be on the other side of unrequited love." The bitter truth hurt so bad.

"Liking him is going to do me no good, he hasn't even reciprocated the feelings, what's the use?".

"Why are you having doubts?". She questioned.

"I'm not."

"Then, why are you letting Kaylee manipulate you into thinking that he doesn't like you, can't you see? She obviously can't force him to stop having feelings for you, so, she makes you believe that he doesn't want you because he's keeping his distance, the same distance you told him to keep." Her words made sense.

"I'm such an idiot, I keep messing up things…"

"You aren't."

"I am...I had two chances and I blew it, he thinks I have lost feelings for him, I have to fix this or maybe, I should let him be."

"Yeah, let him decide what he truly wants and you know it's not Kaylee." She convinced me.

"Come on, let me drop you off." She pulled me up from the floor and dragged me out of the hallway.

I noticed his figure, our eyes locked….pain was all I could see and feel.

He's worth it.

The ride to my house was quiet because both of us were lost in their thoughts especially me.

The car parked in front of my house, "Thanks." I forced a smile at her.

"You will be fine, I promise." She assured me.

"Yeah." I told myself in a deceitful convincing tone.

"Bye, I will call you later." She smiled at me before I got out of her car.

"Good evening." I faked a smile as I got in.

"You look weird when you do that."

"Do what?". I acted oblivious.

"You can't fake a smile with teary eyes, tell me what happened?".

"Boy problems?".

"No, you know I don't have a boyfriend". I sniffed.

"What happened to you and Kyle?".

She was definitely not giving up the chase.

I sighed, "We had a misunderstanding".

"Come on, sit and talk to me."

I dropped my bag and sat next to her.

"So, the party that Carly and I went to.. alot of things happened, I saw Kyle and his girlfriend kiss.."

"His girlfriend?".

"Yes, Kaylee, surprising isn't it?".

"Not really".

"Apparently, I drank alot and got upset, then, he got into a fight with a guy that I wanted to have sex with."

"A guy would never fight another if he doesn't have interest in that girl". She pointed out.

"I know, that's where the beginning of confusion comes in". I stated.

"He took me to a room and we made out that night but we didn't have sex".

"If he's a bad boy or a player as you claimed, he would have had sex with you that night and ditched you afterwards." She commented.

"Yeah, he didn't have sex with me but he ditched me the following morning, that convinced me that since he didn't get what he wanted, he decided to end things without a word".

"You are filling up rubbish in that little head of yours, players don't act like that, they taste and ditch, he had the opportunity to have sex with you that night but he didn't".

"I came home and found him in my room, he wanted to explain but I didn't give him the chance to because I let my anger get the worst out of me". I spoke in regret.

"You told him, you needed space?". She inquired.

"Yes, I did and I regretted it because he really kept his distance, I tried to patch up things today but Kaylee said a lot of things that got me upset together, she said that he didn't really like me, he would never settle for a girl like me and at the end of the day, he's still going to spend time with her, the same things that a random guy told me at the party".

"Kaylee told you those things because she's scared of loosing him and she obviously does not have power over his emotions but you let her have power over yours, she manipulated you into thinking that what she told you was the truth". She said.

"As for the other guy, he's probably jealous of the attention that Kyle is getting and he's spreading bad rumours about him, Kyle really likes you, all those times, he came visiting me, what do you think was the reason?". She questioned.

"To see you?". I raised my right brow at her.

"No, he likes seeing you, he never got the chance to speak to you because of so many reasons, all these time he always wanted you." She confessed.

Wait…

He has been noticing me for long…

"You have nothing to worry about dear, let yourself love him, there will always be someone trying to sabotage the relationship like they did to your parents".

"My parents...you told me they were murdered".

"Yes, they were, your parent's love story wasn't perfect, there were a lot of obstacles, it was forbidden love and it was also a love triangle, a very serious one that cost them their lives". She told me.

"Your mum was in love with your father but his past got caught up with him, another man fell in love with her, he caused a lot of rifts between them but they kept getting back together, it was a miracle that you were born, your father was grateful but jealousy pushed the other man into killing your mother which angered your dad".

"Love cost her life". I said in a low tone.

"Your father killed him...and he got killed."

"So, you are saying that being in a love triangle is going to get me killed?". I scrunched my brows in utter confusion.

"No, what I'm trying to tell you is that he never gave up even when, he was at the higher chance of loosing her to the another man, you should be like that too because you look so much like him". A tear escaped her eyes.

She wiped her tears off, "So, this is your fight, go for what you truly want because even Kaylee knows that he belongs to you". She smiled at me.

"Okay". I genuinely smiled back to her.

I will do everything to fix this.