Chapter 55 Everything is too painful
“My Beloved Bastard”
Author by Natalie Ernison
Have had a special relationship, have almost lived a future life together. Of course, it is not an easy thing to forget, even if togetherness is only false happiness. A handsome, successful, and also kind man, that's Carl Kyleer.
Carl really loves Jasmeen, since their first meeting, Carl has started to feel awe.
Carl's admiration for Jasmeen even continues to grow, until he finally gets to be with Jasmeen. Even though Jasmeen and Carl's togetherness originated from Jasmeen's revenge plan. Now all is just a memory of the past, and the love that Carl died.
Carl is gone for good, and will never come back again. Because Carl is just an ordinary human, different from his brother Cullen.
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Crying and lamenting all that has happened, there is no end. Jasmeen must be able to accept this harsh reality, even if it is too oppressive for him.
“The Jasmeen Residence”
Sweat pouring down, face pale, body trembling violently, gasping for breath.
Since morning Jaes has been nauseous, for some reason Jaes feels that her body is not as well as usual. Even working, Jaes found it quite difficult, because he felt dizzy, even her stomach was very painful.
Grabbed the cell phone, and tried to make a call.
“Hello, Mr. Austin! Master, please come here, I need your help, Master ..” Jaes said through her phone call.
Leaning on the sofa with difficulty. Jaes was very desperate, and many times he wanted to end her life. This was too much for her to face alone, Jaes didn't know what else to do.
A few moments later...
“Miss Jasmeen! Miss!” called someone from outside the door of the Jaes residence.
Ahkk .. Jaes moaned, as Jaes leaned on the walls of her room. Trying to step outside, and open the door.
“Miss!” snapped someone from behind the door, who was Mr. Austin.
Jaes eyes looked so I even said, “Master, help me!” Jaes softly.
Bhuak ... Jaes staggered, and immediately fell in Austin's arms.
“Miss! What happened!” said Mr. Austin. Jaes immediately lifted his limp body to her room.
Lay down Jaes carefully, and try to contact a doctor, who is also someone who understands about the supernatural.
“Master! Please come to the address ..—” Austin said, then returned to sit next to Jaes now lying weakly helpless.
“Miss! How heavy your burden is, why do you look bad ..” Austin said with a look full of concern at Jaes.
Jaes just lay helpless, even to move he found it difficult.
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A doctor also checked Jaes 'health and put an infusion in Jaes' body. Because Jaes has no appetite lately.
“How, Master? What happened?” Austin asked anxiously.
The doctor tried to sigh for a moment, “Miss Jasmeen is carrying a baby who is not an ordinary human.” Said the doctor, enough to make Austin stare in surprise.
“What? How is it possible? Who has done that? Isn't Miss Jasmeen never with other men again? Or is this Mr. Carl's son! But impossible ..” Austin said while trying to think hard.
“That is the reality, Master. Miss Jasmeen is currently carrying a baby who is a baby of darkness ...” said the doctor seriously.
“Ahhkk god ..” Austin patted his forehead confused. He was very confused about what happened to Jasmeen now.
The doctor who treated Jaes left from the residence of Jaes.
Austin looked at Jaes's face, which looked so pale. It was clear from the look on Jaes's face filled with deep sorrow.
“I don't know how much suffering you've been through .. if you know this, maybe from the start I'll take good care of you,” Austin thought. Sitting on the chair right next to Jaes was now lying down.
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Arghh .... Jaes screamed violently, tugging at her own hair.
“Miss! Miss, stop! Don't hurt yourself Miss!” Austin said, trying to hold back Jaes' action of wanting to keep banging his head against the wall.
Bugh bugh bugh ... Jaes hit herself on the head against the wall.
“Stop it miss! I will be the father of the baby miss, but please stop this Miss!” Austin said, hugging Jaes so he wouldn't hurt himself anymore.
For months Jaes did not realize that she was expecting a baby. Jaes was even surprised by her growing stomach. Because Austin was reluctant to tell Jaes early. Austin didn't want Jaes to try to abort the baby.
Jaes doesn't know how to face this life, which he feels is only filled with suffering. Moreover, now Jaes is pregnant with her future baby for the second time. Jasmeen doesn't even know who the father of her future baby is, she is very frustrated.
Arghh ... hahhkk arghh ... Jaes screamed so badly and cried that Jaes could barely bring out her tears anymore.
“Why .. why is my life like this .. who? Who is the father of my baby !!” Jaes screamed hoarsely now.
Who had made her pregnant for the second time, she also did not know. However, Jaes is determined to continue taking care of her future baby. Even though it was very painful for her.
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Jaes currently works as Mr. Austin's personal admin, and remains a novelist as well. She is sometimes very tired, because she has to work hard to save money for childbirth. Even though Austin was willing to guarantee his living expenses, Jaes didn't want to depend on Austin just because Austin was nice to her.
“Good afternoon miss .. did you have a nice day?” said Austin who just arrived with some food for pregnant women.
Jaes got up from his chair, “I'm very kind Mr. Austin,” said Jaes with a friendly smile at Austin.
“Miss, you have to rest more. After all, your gestational age is big enough,” Austin said while serving the food he had brought.
“No Master, I'm fine. Don't worry about it,” Jaes looked so cheerful, Jaes didn't want to drag on deep sadness.
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One afternoon, Jaes went out just to buy formula milk for pregnant women. Arriving at a supermarket located not far from the office where he now works. Jaes started sorting the milk he was going to buy.
Dugk ... accidentally, Jaes bumped into a woman who was also pregnant, just like her.
“Madame, are you all right?” said the woman she collided with.
Jaes got up with the help of the woman, “it's okay madame,” answered Jaes with a smile. But when she looked up, she really did not expect this meeting.
The woman smiled gently at him, “thank goodness, because we are both pregnant, miss,” said the woman.
“Madame Shen!” snapped several tall, well-dressed men.
“Has Madame finished?” said several of the men, and then looked at Jaes. For a moment they stared at each other, such a deep gaze.
“Mrs. Jasmeen ..” said one of the men.
Jaes just smiled sadly, “I will excuse me Master, madam ..” Jaes went with some formula milk.
Jaes quickly left in front of the men, as well as the woman. Jaes walked half running, he looked so sad.
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Panting heavily, Jaes took a slow breath. But the feeling of tightness in the chest is really excruciating.
Well, the woman who met him at a convenience store earlier was, Mrs. Shen, Mr. Cullen's wife. Also the men earlier were, Mr. Cullen's trusted bodyguards.
Jaes reached for his cell phone, with a trembling body, Jaes tried to make a call.
“Hello Mr. Austin, I want to get out of this place, and live abroad ..” Jaes whispered, then turned off his cell phone.
A few moments later...
“What's wrong, miss? Why did you suddenly want to go? Didn't you always want to stay in this city!” Austin said in surprise.
Jaes grabbed the collar of Austin's shirt, “I just want to be free from this place please Master .. I want to live my new life ..” Jaes whispered so sadly.
“Okay ... tomorrow Miss will soon go with me abroad. Today I will take care of everything ..” Austin said, then immediately carried out, what he had told Jaes.
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All of Jaes' equipment, everything was neatly arranged. Of course, Austin had helped her.
“Miss, while you're there, please don't push yourself too hard to work,” said Austin who was sitting beside Jaes.
Jaes smiled, “but I can't just stand by, Master, and thank you for everything ..” Jaes said with a sad face.
Tsk ... “Everything belongs to Mr. Timoty, and you have the right to continue any business, your business abroad ..” Austin smiled gently at Jaes.
“I just hope you're happy, and I'll try to take care of you,” Austin thought. He is now starting to pay attention to Jaes, and really cares about everything Jaes does.
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A few months later ...
Jaes' pregnancy is now getting bigger, but Jaes still looks busy with all her activities, as well as her scripts.
Arghkk .... hhh hhhh ... Jaes moaned, clutching the edge of the patient's bed. She is trying hard to give birth to her child.
After hours of struggling between life and death, finally a tiny baby boy came out.
The birth of the baby, without the sound of crying at all. All doctors and nurses were quite surprised.
“Doc, why isn't this baby even crying?” said the nurse who took care of the little baby Jaes.
The doctor rubbed his forehead slowly, “I don't know, but most importantly, this baby is healthy,” said the doctor who was reluctant to respond to questions from his nurse.
The doctor was a fellow doctor from Timoty as well as Austin. So that he doesn't want to talk much more about the baby that Jaes has given birth to.
“Congratulations madam, your baby is a handsome boy ..” said the doctor to Jaes.
Jaes tried to lean back a little on the patient bed, “my baby,” said Jaes. Then hugged the baby boy. Jaes's tears were melodious, really a feeling of happiness mixed with emotion.
Happy, because for the second time, she finally succeeded in giving birth to her baby. Sad, is when Jaes has never known who the father of the baby is.
“My son ... Mother will give you the name” Arsenio Caesar “.
Arsenio, which means brave. Caesar, leader. A brave male leader.
Arsenio Caesar, has the nickname Arseo / Ars.
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Jaes' days are better than ever. Jaes is now able to smile sincerely with her handsome baby. Every time he worked, Jaes always brought her little baby with her.
Jaes now works by having her own office. Jaes is an editor for her own books. Gradually, Jaes also recruited young writers who were willing to learn. Until finally, the work started was growing.
Jaes chose to work with her own office, without wanting to join the company. Jaes wanted more time to take care of her handsome little Arseo. Jaes doesn't want to lose a meaningful moment in Arseo's growing up.
“Arseo ... you are my son, and I will work hard for your future ..” Jaes whispered. Patted little Arseo gently, until he fell asleep. Not infrequently Jaes had to shed tears, if he remembered all the wounds from her past. Baby Arseo
Until one day ...
“Miss Jasmeen, soon Arseo will grow up, so I want to marry you, and be a father to Arseo.” Austin said steadily.
Jaes was stunned, “Master, I am only a woman with one child, even without a father. So, Master's good intentions I cannot take for granted ..”
“Why miss, are you still unable to forget that bastard man!” said Austin sarcastically.
“Ah, Master. I'm just not ready, if I have to experience a story that ..—”
“Miss Jasmeen! I've been watching you for a long time, but I promise. I will only be your husband as a father to Arseo, and I will not force you to have a relationship like husband and wife.” Austin said, trying to convince Jaes.
Jaes bowed sadly, “Master. I don't deserve it, Master ..”
Sehhhttt ....
“I've promised Mr. Timoty, that I will take care of the mistress. So, married; ah with me miss, I will only be a father to Arseo, I promise ..” Austin tried to convince Jaes.
“But .. I ..---“
“If you don't want to marry me, then let me be a bin for Arseo ..” Austin looks more serious.
Finally Jaes took Austin's suggestion. Austin will be a father to Arseo, but only in black and white. Jaes was worried, if Arseo would ask questions about his father.
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Jaes was seen tending flowers in the yard of her residence.
“Mrs. Jasmeen!” said several neat-looking men.
“We!” Jaes said while standing with a sharp gaze towards the men.
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