Chapter 18

CONFUSED THOUGHTS

Diane’s P.O.V.

You are embarrassing, Diane! So, what do you expect? That he will kiss you? Oh my God! Maybe his brother, Leandro, will do that to you faster than the speed of light. So quick that you do not even have to wait!

But Liam? Do not ever assume that he will like you! Not even a single chance that he will fall for someone like you, okay? Women like you are not his type. So it will be better not to expect anymore because you will only get hurt in the end.

My subconscious was such a pest, murmuring at the back of my head and acting like it already knew everything. It would not leave me alone, and it was damn too annoying. Suddenly uncomfortable with what Liam had said, I slowly removed myself from leaning against the wall and just followed him with my gaze.

Liam laid his body on the small sofa, but he could not fit in there because of his muscular physique. I guessed his height was over six feet, so he was having a hard time stretching and bending. I could not help but be amused and pity him at the same time because his two legs were over the entire length of the settee. Its length was actually from his head to knees.

Glancing at the bed, I could tell that its length was over Liam’s height, and its size was double. I was sure that it could fit the two of us there, but the problem began to circulate in my head, messing up with my brain. I had never experienced sleeping with a man beside me. Let alone sleeping with a stranger whom I only met today.

I ended up pouting my lips because I pitied Liam in his current state. Hmm, whatever! I could not bear to see him that way.

“Liam?” I called him in question, but he did not utter a word. It looked like he had already fallen asleep despite the discomfort.

Hmm, right away? Was he able to sleep that fast? It was only a minute after he had laid down on the couch!

Then, I had no other choice but to approach him. I silently bent my knees so I could level my face on him. “Liam?”

He was lying in a fetal manner on the sofa, and he was obviously having a hard time in his position, so how could he fall asleep that soon? Or did he belong to those small number of people who could easily fall asleep as soon as their heads hit the pillows?

Perhaps, it was because Liam got tired of driving. The incident of his car stopping in the middle of the road even added to his stress. Because of our current state, I had the opportunity to look at him better while he was sleeping like a baby.

I did not know why something suddenly confused me. The two of them undeniably looked alike, but there was no question that I liked his calm face compared to Leandro. That it seemed like he was so kind and would not do any bad things at all? Liam’s face was peaceful, even though their resemblance looked like they were twins. I felt tranquil with him, and unlike his brother, I felt safe with him.

Wait, what is going on with me? Am I not done comparing the two of them?

Why does my heart trust him so quickly that he was a good person and he would not do anything to me even if we were spending the night alone in an inn? Why do I feel so easy to trust him even though tonight was only our first meeting? In barely two hours, I gave Liam the trust I had never given to other men after years of knowing them.

Continuously staring at him, I did not know why I seemed to be magnetized by him until I could no longer control myself from getting even closer to his face. Something was urging me to run my left fingers on his right cheek, the same way how he caressed mine earlier. But before I was able to do that, I got startled when he opened his eyes. For that, I ended up hurting my butt on the floor.

“Care to share what you are doing?” Liam painted a confident smile on his lips when he asked me. His dimple on his right cheek came out again—something that made his appearance even more handsome and striking in my eyes.

“N-Nothing, Liam. I—I felt that you were having a hard time lying in there, so you would not be able to sleep comfortably. I recommend that we should both sleep in the bed. It was big enough to accommodate the two of us. And s-surely, we can put a pillow between us as a boundary,” I stammered while suggesting my thoughts to him.

It felt like my tongue had twisted again. Something strange was happening to me, and I needed to stop it as soon as possible. I stood up and sat on the soft edge of the bed, relaxing my butt in the process.

All my life, I had always been a man-hater. I could not find any interest in them because I had to focus on my studies and work.

Why do I look so weak now? Why do I seem to let my guard down?

“Hmm, I liked the idea. I must admit that it was hard to sleep here on the couch. But would you mind if I ask you something, Diane?” he asked as he looked at me straight in the eyes while straightly sitting on the sofa.

Shocks, why does he look so handsome? That no matter how I stopped it, my heart had already fallen for him. Not that only. My heart, as well as my mind and soul—everything! Everything about me seems so perplexed as everything had completely fallen for him. The question is, will he ever catch me?

“Hmm, about what?” I asked without even blinking.

“If it happened that a different man was with you right now, would you still share the same bed with him?” he asked me as his eyes seemed to be stuck at me. His mesmerizing dark-gray eyes appeared to dilate while waiting for my response.

“Huh? Hmm…” Liam’s question made me think. I must admit that I was caught off-guard.

Yeah, right? Would I?

If Leandro happened to be with me at this time, well, it would be impossible to happen since I would not go with him from the very beginning. I was in this kind of situation because of the simple fact that I avoided him, but that was the point. I knew Leandro for two years already, but why did I go with Liam, whom I only met tonight?

I could no longer understand myself why I got immediately drawn closer to him. In just a few hours, he made me feel special in a way nobody else could.

Hmm, why? What does Liam have that Leandro does not possess?

Oh, it was indeed Liam’s attitude—something benign to make me fall.

Answering Liam’s question made me prevent myself from looking at him. “I guess, it depends? Hmm, Leandro was your brother, so I knew that you were also a good person,” I lied while busying myself to organize the pillows and comforter.

Honestly, I did not know what to say. How could I say that Liam was a good person right away when I barely knew him? I never knew a single thing about him other than the fact that he was Leandro’s brother.

“But you’re avoiding my brother, aren’t you? What makes you think that I was a good person? If in the first place, it was quite possible that we only have the same demeanor, or I was even worse than him? What will you do?”