Chapter 55

IMPULSIVE DECISION

Diane’s P.O.V.

I merely wished to look at his face and see the delight in his reaction while kissing me, but I ended up closing my eyes and tasting the warmth of his lips. His every move looked so promising—getting me to dive into the world of absolute yearning.

Damn, I love this man! I really do.

As if it was already a natural urge to return his kisses, I drifted back to whatever I felt for him. The fact that Liam honestly told me everything, it was as if we surpassed the first challenge in our relationship. It was weird, but I trusted him even more—to the point that I would be ready for whatever might happen between the two of us today.

He mattered to me the most, so I didn’t care anymore about what happened in the past. It already happened, and whatever I do, I could no longer change it. Past is past. It was already a history, and we were not living backwards. All that mattered to me right now was the present, and of course, the future with Liam.

At least, he didn’t lie to me, and because of that, I was able to prove that I was significant to him too. He could lie, but he was brave enough to tell me the truth.

We remained brushing our lips against each other as passionate as we could. I often found myself slightly biting Liam’s lower lip, teasing him more. It wasn’t long before I noticed our tongues already playing with intense fervor with a swift degree of unfathomable desire that made me cling to him for support in this giddy-swaying world.

After a few minutes of staying that way, I felt his shaking hands start to wander against my skin—from my jaws to my nape, my arms, and my lower back, then to my waist until it roamed upwards to unbutton my blouse. I did not refuse and just let him do that.

He slowly took off my uniform without parting our lips. Then, he left small trails of kisses from my jaw to the neck until his lips reached my seductive cleavage edgily waiting for him. He looked so hot when he removed my sleeveless blouse and brassiere, sending wild tremors along my innermost veins, arousing from my sensations I never knew I was capable of feeling.

Swallowing a few times to remove any obstruction in my throat, I used my arms to cover my exposed breasts from him. It felt truly awkward when he stared at me topless, but I remained powerless and immediately succumbed to my strange cravings when he devoured my lips again, while slowly removing the arms on my chest.

After that, his lips slowly moved downwards like what he did a while ago. The only difference was his lips were staying too long in my skin now, sucking every part of it while he was caressing my boobs. It triggered my insides to emerge fire within me, inducing me to emit short moans while tilting my head due to extreme pleasure.

Shivers went down my spine, leaving a remarkable desire that I only experienced today. I didn’t know what to feel when his lips reached my cleavage. I held his head, grabbed a handful of his hair, and pushed him more to my breasts.

Liam grunted while he was consecutively sucking my pinkish peaks that were so protruding at the moment. He was even encircling his tongue to one of my peaks while caressing the other using his free hand. He couldn’t get enough with it that he even licked and bit them fervently, causing me to almost die in pleasure.

“Ah…” I could no longer control myself from emitting loud moans.

On the other hand, I didn’t know what to do with my head anymore. If I was going to throw it back and look at the ceiling, slouch it on the edge of the couch, turn it either on my left or right side… I didn’t know. I also gasped for air, most especially when I felt like something was about to explode in my core, making me feel so soaked.

Plunged into an aesthetic glee, I was ready to give in to him. But Liam suddenly stopped on what we were doing, making me drown myself in full disappointment.

“I’m sorry, Diane. This is wrong, damn! I shouldn’t be doing this to you, but I just couldn’t help myself every time I kissed you. I respected you a lot, but I felt like I’m always being tempted whenever I’m with you,” Liam apologized with guilt in his eyes.

“So, are you sorry for kissing me?” I asked bluntly before raising my left eyebrow, still panting. It was ironic that here I was, half-naked in front of him, and yet, I didn’t even lend time to cover my breasts that were already exposed to him.

“Of course not. I—I just don’t want you to think that I am taking advantage of you.” He was telling me those words and yet, he couldn’t help but stare at my two full-rounded breasts. Liam was obviously tempted.

“Then, I’m giving you my permission to c-continue what you are doing to me,” I told him, still waiting for my breathing to get steady.

I knew I was being far from the Diane I used to know, but I definitely knew what I was saying now. I couldn’t stop it anymore. I never knew something like this existed within myself, and it was only brought out because of Liam. I even became a little cranky because he hung me on the strange yet delicious taste I was feeling. I couldn’t understand why, but I only wanted to make love to him now.

He was slightly surprised by what I said. “Are you sure that you really want to do this? We might end up in bed, and I didn’t want you to regret everything.”

After gulping hardly, I nodded in agreement. “I’m sure. Unless you don’t really want me at all…”

He let out a deep breath. He was clearly hesitating. Liam was controlling himself, and here I was, provoking him.

“Please, Diane… don’t tempt me. You don’t know how much I’m trying to resist myself seeing you without anything on top right now. I might ravage you the way I want… and if I take it now, you will never get it back,” Liam warned.

He might be referring to my virginity. I was sure as hell that he intentionally gave me a dark expression—threatening me to stop from enticing him—but I was too stubborn today that I would never want to listen to him. It was an impulsive decision to submit myself to him, but that was what my heart was screaming.

It was obvious that Liam was only restraining himself against whatever he really wanted to do with me. He was trying so hard not to give in to temptation, but why does it seem like a burning desire was what I wanted to happen at this time?

“Damn it, Liam! Just take me. Let me make you forget that woman, okay?” Unexpectedly, I didn’t know what went through my head for me to say those words.

I didn’t know the exact reason why, but I just wanted to feel him inside me. I wanted to scream his name while making love to him. I wanted to transition from a naive girl to a fierce woman. If this was what they called lust, then I was lusting over him right now… or perhaps, because I wanted him to fully forget that drop-dead gorgeous woman from his past.

“Make love to me and let me help you forget every trace of that woman from your memory…” I sultrily told him, motioning and arousing his hand to touch my breasts.

For the first time in my life, I felt real jealousy creep into my heart. I needed to accept the fact that I would no longer be Liam’s first when it came to bed, but I should make him forget that woman so that he would not be caged from the sins of his past.

Silence reigned the whole area for the second time.

After a few minutes, he gave up fighting his urge when he sighed. “Okay then… as you requested, Diane,” he told me while giving me his menacing stares while squeezing my right boob ardently. Instead of being frightened, I actually loved what he did.

Too much anticipation was slowly killing me, and Liam didn’t even waste a second to carry me in a bridal way. I ended up wrapping my arms on his nape as he took me to what I thought was his room upstairs to continue what we were doing.