Chapter 33 Her Indifference

Rishi's PoV

When I came home, dad and Mama were eating. Shakshi and Danya were telling all their exhibition stories to them. They all look like a happy family. How the hell does she laugh like nothing has gone wrong?

But she is different. Never once did she see me until now. She ignores me? I don’t like her ignoring me. It kinda hurts. I know she can’t resist me for long. She may be just playing like she usually does. Or she may be angry that I didn’t go with them to that damn exhibition. I mean adults with kids go there. All adults? Aren’t we grown out of it?

She may start her monkey act once we are in the room. I love everything about her. I really like anything she does. She is an unexpected box of entertainment. But for the same reason, I hate myself. I can’t love her after what she did to me.

Flashback (the day Roshan spoiled our romance)

This girl is going to be the death of me. I can’t even work. My work involves so much concentration and imagination. She is totally killing it all with her beautiful face and lips. I literally see her face and her cute smile whenever I close my eyes. I also hear that beautiful song. I'm totally falling for her.

I started from my office and went to an Apple store. I got an I-pod as planned for her. I should talk to her today. I should ask her how she knew me before our wedding. Assuming things are not good. I should clarify all my doubts with her and clear the air between us. I don’t think I can wait any longer. I mean, she is so tempting and sexy. I don’t want anything to happen between us before we talk.

After everything, I can give this to her as a gift and can see her big eyes go even bigger. I can’t wait to see her reaction.I started to go home. When I reached, there was no one and I heard her talking on the phone.

I started climbing stairs sneakily. I just want to surprise her. But her phone is on a loud speaker and I heard them talking.

D : Rahul dog. It's not funny. How many times do I have to tell you that Hari is nothing.

R : Ok Ok. cool. I saw him yesterday. He is still in your memories. He is still waiting for you. He asked me about you. But I didn’t know if your family has already established your wedding or not. So, I said that I don’t know about you.

D : I'm now married, Rahul. Tell him that I moved on. Ask him to do the same. Tell him that I married a man who is more eligible than him. At Least then he may.....

I didn’t stay any longer. WHAT DID I JUST HEAR? She was in love with someone and married me? She married me because she thinks I am more eligible than her lover boy?

She married me for my status? So, no girl will ever see my heart? Don’t I deserve to be loved for who I am and not what I have?

She doesn't look like that type of girl. She looks so innocent. Oh. I'm so not good at determining the character of a person. First it was Smirthi and now Danya. Why does it always happen to me? She betrayed her lover and is not feeling bad for him? She is talking all laughing. Is she that cruel?

Why the hell my heart conflicts with my mind. I still think she must be good and all I heard is false. But how? She said she moved on.

I drove back to my office. I guess I'm not destined for a love life. I don’t want to see her face ever again. But my damn heart is with her. I love her. But she is not worth it. I went home late in the night and she was sleeping like a baby with that innocent face. How can this innocent girl cheat on me? She knows that I was about to have a love marriage. But she never said that she was in love either. With her behavior, I thought she wholeheartedly accepted this marriage and is now trying to pull me into this marriage too. She was all lovey-dovey to me. She teases me with god damn songs that I have never heard of. She never denied my touches. SHE IS A TOTAL BITCH. Looks are deceiving. She may seem innocent, but she is not.

When I laid down on the bed with her, I couldn't resist myself from touching her. I just want to hug her tight and sleep. Why the hell do I feel like this? If I'm angry with her then I'm furious with myself. I may not be her first kiss after all. I may do something to her with all this anger and hatred.

I just went out to the patio and spent my night there. I started to go to the office before she woke up. I successfully avoided her for 2 days straight. I hate being like this.

It's Friday and I have no more work at office and Prakash just chased me away telling that I need rest. I know that. After all, I'm working from 8am to 10pm for these 2days.

Karthik is not in town. I feel like I'm getting a brain melt down. God. Why the hell am I feeling So betrayed now? I never felt like this even when Smirthi left at the wedding hall.

I just wanted to see her. When I reached home, I heard her singing a song. Hell with these songs. The lyrics were so appealing and are getting on my nerves hearing it from her. She pulls me to her, but she is not what she looks like. All my anger took over me and brought the worse out of me and I broke her phone.

The look on her eyes, shock and 'what did I do?' I couldn't be there anymore. I went to my room. I felt all guilty for breaking her phone. I'm going to divorce her at the end of the sixth month. Until then I don’t have to care for her. I should think of her as a room-mate. She means nothing to me, I told myself.

I ordered a new phone for her, just the same model she had.

I heard a familiar voice and I got down to see who that was. SMIRTHI!

I never expected her to show up. Danya was asking her something with a welcoming smile. She didn’t know who she was. I don’t want to hurt her more by revealing who she was. So, I took her out of the house to send her away.

But things didn’t turn out well and I had to drop Smirthi. When I came in with her, Danya had that shocking face. Though I felt guilty, I also felt happy to have hurt her. She did that to me too.

I never knew she would slap someone. I got all angry again on her and when I asked her to apologize, she again did something unexpected.She looked up at me and said that she won’t apologize to 'my girlfriend'. Also said that she is my wife and I can’t go out with Smirthi. She just snatched the keys from my hand.

She is my wife. Yes, she is. Why the hell Am I feeling happy? She just disrespected me, but I feel my heart flutter!?!?!? She feels possessive towards me. I'm even getting a smile!? I think I have gone nuts. Whenever she is with me, my rational brain just stops working. She ran in with Ravi and that idiot always takes up her side. I don’t know what the hell she did to him? I smiled to myself and sent Smirthi away by calling a taxi.

After some time, she came with coffee and sat beside me and started irritating me with that stupid brother of mine. Unexpected again. I thought she would cry. But here she is, irritating me. That night, I really didn't wanna see her face. I'm all confused with Smirthi already. I can’t handle this stupid girl also at the same time. So, I decided to sleep in another room.

But then, she came in and made a bold move by sitting on my lap straddling me. I am all tempted now. In Spite of the anger building inside of me, there is this fire that started to eat me alive also.

She did the unexpected move again. She initiated the kiss and I lost all my control. She is so addictive. I just needed this. I need all of her. I felt all my confusion and anger melt away as I kissed her. When I slipped my hand under her shirt, she swatted my hand away and laid beside me and slept.

WHAT THE HELL? What is happening to me!?

The next day, she did something no grown up will ever do. She fell down from a tree. OMG I so wanted to laugh. I knew she was alright, but I played along by picking her up. I so wanted to keep touching her and keep her close to me. But then when I placed her on the bed, I lost it again. She is a perfect turn on. Her heaving chest is not helping either.

I don’t want to do this. So, I turned the sensational situation into a funny one. But then, her conversation with her friend replayed in my mind and I didn’t want to lash out on her. So, I just went away. It took me all of my self confidence to stop myself from doing the wrong things.

I can't let her go. But I can't live with her either. I can't do anything with her. She is driving me crazy. She must wait until I sort things out with Smirthi.

End of flashback

Everything was fine. But what happened to her all of a sudden that she behaves indifferently? She can't avoid me. I'm still waiting in our room for her to come. I can't sleep without her.