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"go home!! Or I will shoot him!!”
Ferlan pushed Eryl's body to let go of his embrace, he didn't want anything bad to happen to his lover Eryl.
"go home!!"
Ferlan put on his clothes neatly then went home with his father
"I won't let Ferlan get hurt."
Arriving at home, Ferlan immediately received a beating from his father and made himself confined in a dark and lonely room
"Father, can't do this to my brother."
"shut up farah!!!" Dad's harsh voice and the sound of a loud slap given to Farah made the woman fall and the corners of her lips bleed
"I will never allow Ferlan to be with Eryl because I will marry Farah to Eryl!!"
"father!!" Farah glared sarcastically she couldn't believe what her father said
In the room, Ferlan only cried that Eryl was his first love, why did dad let him have to feel pain and losing his first love was really painful, why was the world unfair to him as if he was the only one who wasn't allowed to feel the beauty of falling in love.
"Why must my love stop so soon? Why did it have to end like this?”
Ferlan was still sobbing, he took his cell phone from his pocket to call his boyfriend, Eryl. However, the call is always rejected
"Is this the only sincerity of your love for me?"
Ferlan never thought that Eryl would give up just because his father gave his a tough bully to their relationship. Ferlan lay down, the pain in his hole was still clearly felt, the sound of Eryl's sigh in his ear was still clearly audible.
"Does he really love me?" ferlan asked again, his body still felt very weak he looked up at the ceiling of his room
Elsewhere, Eryl kept coughing he fell on the floor with his mouth covered with a handkerchief, a very loud coughing sound.
"My Brother!!"
Eros came he helped Eryl to get up and sit on the bed
"What happened to you?"
Eryl still covered his mouth with a handkerchief, which was now light blue on his handkerchief, which had turned red because of blood.
"Eryl, we're going to the hospital now. Come on."
Eros tried to persuade him but Eryl refused, his hand moved to take the cellphone that had been ringing for a long time, he asked Eros to text him back
"You asked me to text baby bee back?"
Eryl nodded he couldn't speak at the moment because he would keep coughing loudly if he forced herself to speak
"Okay, I'll say that you need some time."
Eryl walks with his limp body, not infrequently he bumps into something blocking his body, he takes medicine in his bedroom drawer
“He said he was sorry and wanted to see you after he got home from school.”
Eryl was silent, he drank three pills along with mineral water
"Eros, can I rest?" eryl speaks in a very hoarse voice
"Yes, of course, you can. I'm leaving now, good night, bro."
"Good night."
The next day, Eros is very busy teasing his beloved brother, Eryl
"I heard the fact that my best friend's brother Ferlan is very beautiful and deserves to be yours."
Eryl finished his meal, he knew that his current situation was bad but he forced hisself to keep going to meet his lover.
"Where do you want to go, Eryl?"
"angel's house."
The answer made the family confused, Eryl left wearing a blue hoodie and gray levis pants.
"Ferlan, eat. You haven't eaten anything since last night." Farah tries to persuade her
"No, just for you."
“ferlan, hurry up and eat!!” Farah glared at him but Ferlan still refused.
"Whatever, I'll be leaving now."
Farah again left Ferlan who was still lying weakly on the bed after getting the worst shock last night.
"baby bees"
Ferlan was surprised to hear the voice of someone who kept calling his name, making Ferlan turn towards the window he saw Eryl who was climbing using a rope
"baby boo!!"
Ferlan opened his bedroom window letting Eryl into his room
"how are you?" Eryl coughed a few times because he hasn't recovered yet
"Are you sick? Why force yourself to come to my house?”
Eryl took some of Ferlan's scattered books
"Why don't you clean all this up?" Eryl seems to divert the conversation about his illness
"Baby boo, don't ignore my question."
Eryl smiled he kissed Ferlan's cheek and went back to tidying up Ferlan's room no matter how many times he coughed
"Baby boo, you have a bad cough, let's go to the hospital."
"No, im fine. Ferlan, have you not cleaned your room for two days?”
"Eryl, stop diverting the conversation. Why do you always act like this. Come on, let's go to the hospital."
Eryl coughed hard again until he saw the blood spurting out on his finger making Ferlan panic
"Blood, let's go to the hospital now. I don't care, we have to go now."
Eryl refused, he wiped the blood from his mouth with the handkerchief he was carrying. Eryl gripped Ferlan's hand tightly
"Baby Bee. Listen to me, please."
"We'll talk later, we have to go to the hospital now. I don't want you to get any worse."
"Baby bee, please listen to me okay?"
"but-"
"please im please." Eryl put his hands together pleading "please."
"Okay, what?"
"You must have known that Farah was going to marry me, right?"
"I refuse!! I'm sure we can definitely refuse it, let's explain it to father."
“Baby bee, please hear me and don't give me a problem. I just want you to stay here, don't mind me and me."
Eryl coughed again, he was getting paler and his lips were getting pale purplish. Eryl holds Ferlan's hand and puts it on his chest
"I swear, my heart and mine only beat for you."
Ferlan sobbed, making them hug tightly
"Eryl, please don't get sick."
"I can't promise you that, can you ask for something else, baby bee?"
"I just want you to recover."
Eryl cried again, he lifted his head because of Ferlan's very difficult request
"I want to ask you to stop crying, yo can baby bee?"
"Promise me that you won't leave me alone."
Eryl looked at Ferlan's eyes, he kissed Ferlan's cheek and hugged him again.
"I swear, I will make you feel much greater happiness."
"with you?"
"No, not with me. But, I swear I will give you happiness.”
Ferlan was silent, he never knew what his lover was suffering from because their relationship had just begun.
"Maybe, we'll have a really hard time meeting but swear on me to carry out whatever I've written for you okay?"
"Tell me, what disease do you have?"
Ferlan made eryl silent and a little confused about what to answer ferlan's question
"stage four lung cancer."
Ferlan was very surprised, he did not expect his first love story to be like this. why can it be so sad and painful like this??
"Ferlan, swear to me to do whatever is written in my notebook, I beg you."
Seeing Eryl pleading with him made Ferlan not have the heart to refuse Eryl
"Okay, but I don't want to see death before I die."
Eryl just laughed and hugged Ferlan's body tightly with the most painful sadness for him
"Swear to me not to leave me alone, Eryl."
Eryl is silent again, he doesn't want to give any hope to Ferlan which finally makes Ferlan disappointed in him
"Let God take care of everything, baby bee."
