Jaded

As I watched the nerdy guy in front of me nervously fidget with his glasses, I knew I had to do something to help him. He had just started his first programming class and was already feeling overwhelmed by the amount of information he was expected to learn.

“Hey, don’t worry,” I said, putting a comforting hand on his shoulder. “I know this seems like a lot right now, but you’ll get the hang of it. You’re smart, and you’ll pick it up faster than you think.”

He looked at me skeptically, and I could see the doubt in his eyes. “But I’ve never been good at this kind of stuff,” he said. “I don’t think I can do it.”

I smiled and shook my head. “That’s not true. You just need to give yourself a chance. Besides, everyone struggles at first. It’s all about practice and persistence.”

I could see a glimmer of hope in his eyes as he considered my words. “You really think so?” he asked.

“Absolutely,” I replied. “I’ve seen you solve some pretty complicated problems before. I know you’re capable of this.”

He grinned at me, and I could see some of his confidence returning. “Thanks,” he said. “I guess I just need to keep at it.”

“Exactly,” I said. “And if you ever need any help, I’m here for you. We can work through the material together and make sure you understand everything.”

As we parted ways, I could see the nerdy guy walking a little taller and with a bit more purpose in his step. It was a small victory, but I was glad to have helped boost his confidence and encourage him to keep going.

Even though what I said was chaotic, it seemed to make sense so it’s up to him to understand, he’s smart.

He just looked away.

“So if you need to watch another tutorial on YouTube, watch it so that next time you’ll just do it for me, then don’t give up, try and try until you can fuck,” I said then winked at him.

Days passed and I saw Magnus coming out of the door.

I could feel my heart racing as I made my way to my locker, eagerly anticipating the start of the new school year. As I rounded the corner, I caught sight of him. The nerdy guy who had captured my attention over the summer. I couldn’t believe my luck – he was walking down the hallway towards me.

My heart skipped a beat as I realized he was even cuter in person. He had thick, black-rimmed glasses and a mop of curly brown hair that fell over his forehead. He looked like he belonged in a library, buried in books, and I couldn’t help but feel drawn to him.

I watched as he rummaged through his backpack, pulling out a stack of textbooks and a shiny new calculator. I was impressed – this guy was serious about his studies. But I also knew that being a self-proclaimed nerd could sometimes make it hard to make friends.

As he looked up, our eyes met for a brief moment before he quickly looked away. My heart sank a little, but I refused to give up so easily. I took a deep breath and mustered up the courage to speak to him.

“Hey there!” I said, walking over to him with a smile. “I’m [insert name], nice to meet you!”

He looked surprised, but also pleased. “Oh, uh, hi!” he said, a slight blush creeping up his cheeks.

“I just wanted to say that I noticed you’re into math and science, and I think that’s really cool,” I said, trying to make conversation. “I’m a big fan of science myself. What’s your favorite subject?”

As we chatted, I could feel myself getting more and more excited. He was so smart and articulate, and I loved hearing him talk about his favorite topics. I could tell that he was a bit shy, but I admired his dedication to his studies and his passion for learning.

By the end of the conversation, I felt like I had made a new friend. And as we parted ways, I couldn’t help but feel giddy with excitement. I knew that there was something special about this nerdy guy, and I was determined to get to know him better.

“Did you follow my advice?” I asked him as we walked out of campus.

“Y-yes,” he stammered.

I put my arm around him so he could look at me, his eyes widened again.

We were only about the same height so I could reach his shoulder. He was tall and thin.

“So I’m expecting that no one will bleed later huh?”

He flushed. I can’t help but chuckle.

He blushed even more when I laughed. I glanced at him.

He’s really skinny, it’s good to know that he wasn’t hurt when I put him on yesterday, isn’t it because he’s sick so he’s skinny?

Because what he eats is smart, what he eats goes to his brain, not his stomach, but I hope what he watched last night went to his brain and not to his stomach.

It’s really good and it’s smart, otherwise I just don’t know.

No one knows about kiss and sex alone. We also don’t have a sex education subject!

Even my other classmates wanted it.

I was called a whore on our campus because I am pretty and I get boys’ attention.

“What are you ready for?” I smiled and asked him if we could enter his condo.

We weren’t even in bed so I asked right away.

“Y-yes.” Stuttering, he said, obviously he couldn’t sit still in bed because he didn’t know what to sit on, but he settled into the Indian seat. I texted Bea while letting Magnus do his thing.

There was something about his company that I found so enjoyable. Maybe it was his intelligence, or the way he could make me laugh with his nerdy jokes. Or maybe it was his deep passion for the things he loved, like math, science, and technology. Whatever it was, I found myself looking forward to every moment I got to spend with him.

Whenever we hung out, he always had something interesting to share. Maybe it was a new math formula he had discovered or a cool tech gadget he had just bought. I loved hearing about his latest projects and was always impressed by how dedicated he was to his passions.

But it wasn’t just his intellect that drew me in. He also had a kind and thoughtful nature that made him a joy to be around. He always listened carefully to what I had to say, offering his insights and perspectives in a way that was never condescending or dismissive. He had a way of making me feel heard and understood, even when we didn’t always agree on everything.

And then there were the moments when we would just hang out and have fun. Maybe we would play video games together or binge-watch a sci-fi series on Netflix. It was those moments of shared joy and laughter that made me feel so grateful to have him as a friend.

Sometimes, I would catch myself wondering what it would be like to be more than just friends. I couldn’t deny that I was attracted to him – not just his mind, but his kind heart and gentle spirit. But I also knew that I valued our friendship too much to risk ruining it by confessing my feelings.

So for now, I was content to simply enjoy his company and cherish the moments we shared together. Whether we were discussing the mysteries of the universe or just goofing off and having fun, I knew that I was lucky to have someone like him in my life.

Celiza:

I’m so bored Bea. Where you at now?

I texted Bea hoping that I can leave at Magnus place early.

If Bea is near I would go with her and ditch him. I know he wouldn’t mind if I say I need to leave.

Besides he doesn’t have a say on this. I’m the one he should follow.

Yes, I need him to pass my exams again. But I don’t need to give him my whole attention. He needs to do it on his own if it’s possible.

And I’m very bored. There’s nothing to do here aside from watch him watch a video.

A video, where people kiss. This pretty interesting if I’m also innocent like him. But I’m not.

So it is useless.

“What’s up girl?”

My eyes light up when I saw Bea’s reply.

Ugh! Finally!

“Are you free? Can we go out?”

“Huh?”

“Are you free?”

“We just talked a while ago, Celiza. And I’m not near. I’m free but it’s too far.”

I close my eyes tigthly. Shit. I forgot that she is in a vacation.

This is so boring that I forgot everything. Damn it.

“Shit, I forgot Bea. I’m sorry.”

“Are you tired of reviewing already?”

She laughed over the phone.

I was about to answer her when Magnus look at my direction.

I don’t know why but I immediately end the call to speak to him.

I walked towards the bed.

I loosened the button of my blouse and then sat across from him.

This time I removed his glasses for no obstruction.

I started to get closer and moved my hands towards his neck and pulled him closer until our lips met.

At first he didn’t keep up with the kiss I was giving him but soon he kept up with the rhythm of what I was doing.

Hmm… the sweetness of her lips.

I moved away when there was no air that we could breathe anymore.

Her hair was messy before and her lips were left parted.

I bite my lip. Damn, that was so good.

But I won’t say that to him because his head might grow up and not down.

“Now… do the bite on my lip, it’s okay so please don’t bite again okay?” I smiled and said to her

I saw him blushed and I found it cute.

He nodded slowly then approached me.

Wow.

Now he is approaching.

I restrained him from applying our lips, I gently pushed his chest.

“If your upper lip is between my upper and lower lip, then you can bite it gently without ying shivering okay then lets try kissing slowly okay?” I smiled again.

I smile more often because of him.

I didn’t wait for him anymore. I was the first to take action.

I trap his bottom lip and bite it softly.

I heard her faint moan because of what I had done.

Apparently he got what I did so he did it to me too.

He trapped my bottom lip and bit it softly just like what I did.

I stopped kissing him.

“You did it.” I smiled and said to her.

“Yeah.” He bite his bottom lip

“Good, now I’m going to teach you how to kiss french.”

Why is your lips like that Magnus?

“W-why?”

It’s so sweet…

That I want more.

I want to taste him more…

I looked away.

Damn it.

At first, I didn’t think much of him. He was just another nerdy guy with his nose always buried in a book, talking about subjects that went way over my head. But as I got to know him better, I started to see him in a different light.

I noticed how he always had a kind word to say, how he listened to me when I spoke and seemed genuinely interested in what I had to say. He was different from the other guys I had dated in the past – he wasn’t trying to impress me or show off, he was just being himself.

As I spent more time with him, I realized how intelligent and passionate he was about his hobbies and interests. He would talk for hours about his favorite books, video games, and science fiction movies, and I found myself captivated by his enthusiasm.

Slowly but surely, I found myself falling for him. I loved the way he looked at me with those deep, thoughtful eyes, the way he smiled when I made a joke, and the way he held my hand when we walked together.

I never thought I would be attracted to a “nerdy” guy, but now I can’t imagine being with anyone else. He may not be the stereotypical “cool” guy, but to me, he’s the coolest person I know – smart, kind, and endlessly fascinating. I feel so lucky to have him in my life, and I can’t wait to see where our relationship takes us.

Why am I the one who looked away? Shouldn’t it be him??

Damn it.

I wouldn’t feed his ego but I shouldn’t step on it.

It would destroy his self confidence and he doesn’t even have a lot of confidence at all.

Come on Celiza. Fix it.

Don’t be stupid.

Why are you even lying?

I asked myself.

I always knew that he was different from the other guys in school. He was nerdy, with his glasses and his love for science and technology. But to me, that was what made him so special.

I loved how he was always there for me, how he listened to my problems and helped me find solutions. He was my rock, my support system, and my best friend.

But lately, I’ve noticed a change in him. He’s been dressing differently, acting more outgoing, and hanging out with a different crowd. It’s like he’s trying to become one of the popular kids, and it’s making me worried.

I don’t want him to change who he is to fit in with a crowd that doesn’t appreciate him for who he truly is. I don’t want him to lose his passion for science and technology, his love for books and movies, or his unique perspective on the world.

I’m afraid that if he becomes one of the popular kids, he’ll stop caring about me, or worse, that he’ll start seeing me as someone who doesn’t fit into his new image.

I know I shouldn’t judge him based on his appearance or the people he hangs out with, but it’s hard not to worry. I just hope that he realizes how special he is, and that he doesn’t let anyone else change him into something he’s not. Because to me, he’s perfect just the way he is.

Well, so his head won’t be bigger and be an ass like Toci.

Guys like him likes compliments and they become so full of himself. I don’t want him to be like that.

He is a very nice person. I want him to stay like that.

The way that he is right now.

Because he is perfect even if he is a nerd, he just need some improvement but he is perfect, without any judgement.

Besides we are all perfect.

Damn it. What is happening to you Celiza.

You just tasted his lips and you become crazy already.

You have a very sweet lips, Magnus.

“Do you know that?”

I smiled at him.

His cheeks instantly turn red.

He looked away as he swallowed hard. I watched him threw a glance at me.

I chuckled.

Why are you shy?

Aren’t you going to thank me “Magnus?”

I asked.

“T-thank you…”

“See? It wasn’t that hard to say thank you for the compliment that I gave you.”

“Y-you have tasty lips too.”

I laughed even more.

“You don’t have to tell it to me, Magnus. I know.”

“I know it very well.”

See how innocent he is.

I don’t know why I find it adorable.

Or he is just really adorable.

“I..I’m sorry.”

“No. You don’t have to say sorry. Come on Magnus don’t make the vibe here like that.”

He stayed silent.

Now where were we?

“L-let’s eat first …” he suggested.

“Hmmm, at least I’m hungry. I didn’t have lunch on campus earlier.”

“Let’s just grab food.”

“Okay,” I shrugged.

I decided to go into the bathroom of her bedroom.

There is also a book in a glass cabinet along with toothbrushes and other items.

I got out of there after fixing myself.

“Wait---"

“What? You want us to continue?”

I asked.

If we continue to review. The only thing that I will learn is how nerdy he is!

“Yes. We are here to review, it’s the reason why you are here at the very first place.”

Now I regret going with him

If I actually don’t need this, I wouldn’t have go with him.

I still can’t believe I’m with a nerd right now. Why does nerd always have to be nerdy looking?

Why can’t it be someone handsome and cool? Then they wouldn’t be nerd would they?

“I know but---”

“W-what?”

“Magnus…”

I called his name.

“What?”

Before I could answer him. My phone rang.

“Where are you? I’ve been looking for you.”

It was Toci.

Sometimes he can really be annoying without him knowing.

I’m having a good time with nerdy Magnus.

“I’m going to your house.”

He texted one more time.

I sighed.

Then go to my house. As if I carem mom will be the one to receive him. Not my problem anymore. Mom like him so they would get along very well.

Instead of replying to his textm I put my phone in, do not disturbed.

I put it down and stare at Magnus.

My eyebrow raised when my eyes gazed at the table. “The quantity you ordered.”

It looks like it came from an expensive restaurant.

“I-I don’t know what you want …” He said with a bow.

“Is that how many you ordered? What’s all on the menu?” I laughed.

He’s really cute when he’s smiling. His white teeth shone. It looks like the Dentist is taking care of her teeth, which is really nice!

“They still look expensive.” I said to him as I opened the one in the container.

This dish looks good and looks delicious.

I think it’s steak. Then this is a restaurant.

Where is it?

Only now can I eat Steak in my whole life because I only eat dried eggs, sardines, vegetables, fish and the food in the cafeteria because we are not rich. We are five siblings and I am the eldest of us all. .

I ate the steak in my mouth and my eyes were almost fixed on the taste that was on my tongue, I tasted the spices then, it was so delicious.

I sniffed a lot, I didn’t notice that he was watching me, he was staring at me, well not really at me, but at my chest, I remember I removed the button of my blouse earlier, steak sauce helped in my chest.

I saw him swallow hard.

Shit!

Maybe it thinks my breast tastes better than steak!

“Let ‘s eat!” I’m with him so we don’t go anywhere.

I’m not ready yet!

“A-ah e-eh,” he stammered.

He slowly approached to open everything he ordered and he took the tissue there and I was surprised when he wiped my chest with the sauce.

Heck!

“A-ah thanks, go ahead and eat that too.” He said as I ate the steak again.

Shit that’s really sticky!

“A-are you full?” He asked me

Oh yes, I’m full of what!

Only now am I eating steak again.

“Yes.” That’s the only answer that came out of my mouth because I’m too full, it will make me fat.

It’s good to know and I made the most of the food, he almost just took a bite of the food so maybe he’s skinny.

My gaze remained on him.

Chapter 7

“Do you think after I teach you something will change in your sex life?” I asked him directly.

Why did I ask that question out of the blue?

I would have spoken before him.

“I’m not sure if something will change but I … I want to learn but you really don’t need to. I’m not asking for a replacement—”

I cut him off with a kiss. He’s stunned.

I licked my lips before I opened my mouth. “Remember that kissing isn’t just a kiss. It’s a way for you to tell and make someone feel how much I love him or her.”

I traveled my hand to his waist while not taking the gaze away from his eyes.

“We’re not in love but you should make me feel love even though you don’t.”

My hands went up into his chest and I caressed it softly.

“Explore. Touch every part of her body as if you’ve known every curve of them for a long time.”

I close the only space between us and slightly brush my lips into him.

“You shouldn’t rush everything because it’s more noticeable if you taste every moment like eating a lollipop, the lollipop doesn’t run out quickly, that’s why you get the taste of it, that’s why lollipop is my favorite candy so far.” I winked at him.

Reason for him to chase my lip.

“Tease. Make him come back, want you more, more than you want him.”

I brush my lips again in his lips and for a while and lick my lips as I started to kiss him, he kissed me back.

The kiss is getting faster and faster.

He is really smart.

“Part your lips.” I said to her between each kiss.

He did what I told him.

My tongue finds its own way to his, at first he doesn’t know what to do, of course because he is new to this.

But soon he also learned what I was doing with him so he did the same.

He decided to take it fast.

He tilted his head while I’m still busy doing it. That’s why we hit each other’s heads.

We pulled away and silence kept us for a second but I broke it when I started laughing.

“You’re too much, take it easy.” I laughed while saying to him.

I then remembered my first kiss, it was very special to me because I crushed my first kiss.

Si Toci.

He made me feel what it’s like to be in the clouds.

“S-sorry.” He bowed, he said.

Even as he bent down I knew he had bit his other lower lip.

“It’s fine.”

I grabbed his chin and lifted his bowed face.

“Let’s do it again?” I said with a smile.

I leaned forward then paused for a second. “This time, slowly.”

“Bitch!” I turned to where the scream was coming from.

I saw Bea running towards me. I look around. People were staring at us.

Well, we’re used to that.

We became friends because we were both told ‘whore’ and ‘bitch’ so we decided to be friends and lean on each other in any problem.

“Hey! Bitch!” I also greeted him with a smile.

“What’s the result?” she asked.

He came home from Boracay.

“Passed!” Thrilled, I said to her. It’s also fun to study. Especially maybe when Magnus is with me.

“Good, bitch!” She said with a smile.

“Now that your problem is solved, can we buy a gown for the prom?” she smiled.

“I’m sure, Toci asks you to be his date right?” She was definitely sure of saying it.

Oh right, I forgot I have a ‘boyfriend’ here on campus.

“Prom?” I asked.

What the heck! Is it near already?

“My gosh, bitch! Don’t say you forgot?” Her eyes widened as it said that.

“The prom is coming up! It’s Friday! It’s Wednesday now!”

I’ve been too busy studying!

‘Is Celiza going to study?’ whispered my mind.

I shook my head.

“Didn’t Toci remind you ?! Don’t tell me you’re gone? It’s a different kind of relationship. Maybe you can change the light switch on and off. I saw him with some other girl a while ago, in fact they’re flirting. “ Irritated, she promised.

Since I was teaching Magnus I don’t even remember Toci these past few days. Then we get a little blurry as well.

Toci, ABM student, a famous basketball player, MVP, the school crush, the hearthrob, the playboy, the fuckboy of the school is my so-called boyfriend.

So maybe the students are also annoyed with me? Because they want to crush me! And I mean, I’m pretty and sexy. I can’t blame them for hating me.

I’m a Queen Bee!

“Switch you gurl?” she teased.

I just shook my head, I couldn’t help but laugh. I didn’t notice that we were in the classroom.

“Well, just let go of that arrogant one. I’m sure he’ll still come back to you. Then you’re the only one his fam knows.”

He was about to speak when the professor arrived so he couldn’t speak yet.

I stopped in the locker room of the basketball team because of the noise coming from there.

Because of curiosity I went inside.

I opened my mouth because of what I found.

The woman is upset, facing the lockers while Toci is riding her in the back, the woman is moaning softly, while

Toci, on the other hand, closed his eyes and bit his lip, they were still wearing their clothes, except for toci’s pants that were down and the woman whose blouse was up, her chest was exposed and her skirt was also up, I could see the coming out of manhood. By Toci on the woman’s ass.

Even though I am called a ‘whore’ here at school I have never agreed to do that to anyone who has been my ex.

I will never do it with someone unless they are my husband or im madly crazy stupid inlove with that someone.

But it doesn’t seem like it, even though I’m a woman like this, I still believe that before doing that, there should be a sacrament of marriage.

Disgusting.

It’s disgusting to stare at them, even when I’m watching porn I can’t stand the way they look, their live show in front of me is disgusting, they can’t stop themselves anymore and that’s what they really did.

I remained standing not far from them, estimating if I would be noticed but they were too busy with what they were doing so I left.