Chapter 5

First and foremost, my sister and why I didn't disown her like my father and Meredith. She wasn't even my full sister. She was my half sister. I'd never found her in my living room giving an unconscious man a blowjob but she'd done worse to me, way worse, so, seriously, I should just give it up and let it go.

In a cruel twist of fate, my father married my mother, who was a wild child then he got married to an angel and they'd created a hell child.

Mom had left when I was three but she came back occasionally and when she did we had fun. I didn't remember much but I remembered she was a blast. She wasn't about rules or discipline;

she was about sticky food that made a lot of mess, fun places and good times.

That was until one visit, while she had me for the weekend, she met a guy she liked and she liked him a lot. She took him back to her hotel, gave me a bunch of candy and sent me outside to sit and wait for her to call me back in.

The manager of the motel saw me sitting out on a bench, swinging my legs, eating candy, daydreaming and doing it for ages, so he called the police. By the time they came I'd wandered off because I was bored and the police found me. I told the policeman my phone number that Dad made me memorize and they called.

Then Dad came to get me, he had a rip roarin' with Mom at the hotel while her one-day-stand kept shouting at them to keep it down, he was trying to sleep and I never saw Mom again. Ever.

I missed her for awhile but I didn't know her very well and anyway, at that time Meredith was already in our lives.

Meredith was awesome. She was the coolest stepmom ever.

She was sweet and funny and she loved my Dad, like, loads. She also kept homemade cookies in the cookie jar all the time and for a kid, a girl who was being raised by a man who was all man, that meant she was practically perfect She and Dad got married and I was the flower girl but not like normal flower girls. She walked down the aisle with one hand through the crook of her father's arm, one hand clutching mine. She made her special day our special day. She was making a public statement that she was walking down the aisle not only to take a man in marriage but to build a family. I was six and I never forgot how special she made me feel, never, not to this day.

But that was Meredith. It wasn't the first time she'd done it and it wouldn't be the last.

Then she and Dad had Ginger who was my Mom times, about, five million.

This was the cruel twist of fate. For Dad, Meredith and me.

The second thing I was thinking about was all things Tack. What he said, the way he looked and how he made me feel.

I was already regularly sleeping with a man whose name I didn't know. A man I met at a restaurant just under a year and a half ago, took him to my home, slept with him, had the best sex in the history of womanhood and, fortunately or unfortunately depending on when looked at it, he kept coming back for more, proving again and again that first time wasn't a fluke but, instead, a sneak preview of better things to come.

I didn't even give him a key. How he got in was as much a mystery as his name. But he did. He didn't come every night, sometimes it was once a week, sometimes twice, sometimes he'd skip a week, once he'd been gone for three which freaked me out and then it freaked me out that it freaked me out.

But he always came back. Always.

With Mystery Guy in my life I didn't need the trouble that Tack had written on him. Okay, so he thought I was cute and another bonus was that I knew his name and he knew mine (which, Mystery Guy, by the way, did not know). But my sister owed him over two million dollars and he was scary.

He also said I could get onto "others" radar and get into "situations". I didn't want to be on anyone's radar and I made enough situations for myself, being half my mother's daughter. I didn't need Ginger dragging me into her situations.

And lastly, I was thinking about my Mystery Guy. The days after he visited I always did. I always wondered what was with me, I didn't tell him to go. Now I was wondering, when I had what could possibly be the world's greatest lover visiting me in the dead of night, how I'd move onto someone else. I'd had three dates and no lovers since I met The Great MG. None of them came close to what little I had with MG and therefore none of them got to the second date or second base (yes, the Great MG was that good of a kisser).

He was totally screwing up my life.

No. No, that wasn't true. I was screwing up my life.

This was what I was thinking after I parked my car in my drive, walked up to my house studying my boots, slid the key into the lock and opened my door.

However, even if I'd been paying attention, I wouldn't have been prepared for what happened next.

Once I cleared it, the door slammed, hard and loud. Then a hand in my chest slammed me into the door, again hard and loud.

Then a man was in my space, his body deep in mine, pressing me into the door and I looked up into a pair of somewhat familiar black eyes.

I'd only seen those eyes once in light. He didn't turn on the lights when he visited me at night.

God, I forgot how beautiful he was. Even in my daydreams he wasn't that beautiful.

"What are you doing here?" I whispered.

"Are you fuckin' insane?" he barked in my face.

I blinked at his surprising tone and angry question. Then I asked, "What?"

"Struttin' into Ride like you did. Jesus, are you insane?"

I blinked again. Firstly, because I was confused. How did he know I went to Ride? Secondly, I was more confused. What was he doing there during the day? Thirdly, I was even more confused because his unbelievably handsome face showed clearly he was extremely pissed off.